I was in love with you
Insane, I changed myself for you
I would have done anything for you, my love

But that one day
The world stopped, my heart crushed
Frozen over, angry, bitter, cold

He killed me too, that boy
The image of you two burned in my mind forever
Painful memories

I tried to regain my life
A blaze of emotion
Tried to fight what I was becoming

Self destruction, confusion, lonliness
I crawled back to your arms seeking comfort
But all I found was hurt again

Filled with false hope, I thought you loved me
But I saw the world and you, and I standing by myself
Alone, empty, no one to hold

It hurt again, but I found comfort
A friend I could talk to, relate to
He had gone through it all just as I was going through it then

That week was the worst
But I tried to move on
Tried to forget the feelings I had for you

It happened again
Jealousy, anger, the two of you again
It cut deeper than the first time, the worst hurt ever

I still loved you, but now all I can see is him
Everything reminding me of you, you remind me of you two
That image tearing at my soul, tormenting my life

I told myself never again, I shut you out, tried to forget you
I found God, a focus, a new path towards freeing myself of the hell I made
But there you were

So beautiful, my heart melting in your presence
The pain remains, it always will, hurting till I die
I fell into you again, confused, alone

I thought I could be your friend, thought I could push my love aside
But deep inside, I love you and always will
Despite the pain

Seeing what lies ahead for me, I cried
Only hurt, the only path I know now
Refocus, block the hurt, destroying myself to give birth to new life

Where has my sanity run off to?
I cried again and ask for help from a friend
He helped me regain focus, soon everything was well, but never again the same

You couldn't hurt me again
A shell I built around myself to block the pain
Then you called me back to you

I tore down that shell, hoping to be with you
You tell me you love me, but I'm so confused
I've been through so much trying to love you, and I love you still

Where am I now, my focus gone, the shell destroyed?
Do I get hurt again or will everythign work out this time?
Why do I put myself through this?

I love you, but at what price will I live this way?
Trying to love you, I cried for you
I only want to hold you, to kiss you, to be together with you.