Lying awake in bed. Everybody has got that some of those nights when you just cannot sleep. You twist and turn, but it�s no use. But does it also happen to you that you can�t sleep for weeks after each other? Even months without sleep?
It�s strange when you realise that you don�t even need it anymore. It�s strange that you start to love the night, while you first preferred the light of the day. You give away an Oscar winning performance for your friends so that they would not know, so that they would not worry about you. By day you are just a empty covering, you start to live when the moon comes up.
But what would happen to your mind when you don�t rest � EVER. Does it drive you crazy? In some ways it does. I don�t think that I�m sane anymore. I truly believe that I�m insane, that I might be a danger to my friends. Just try to imagine; you live a normal live by day and by night you don�t rest. You sit outside observing the stars. And the moon. Do you know how beautiful the moon is? It�s one of my dearest friends at the moment. Together with another nightwalker just like me. They are the only ones who really are able to understand me.
Do you like your live without sleep? NO. In fact, I truly, deeply hate it. I hate it that I cannot close my eyes and give my mind a rest. It sometimes really scares me. I really hate it to be alone with my mind all the time. I hate it to pretend to be asleep on the tourbus, in an airplane or in a hotel room that I share with one of my friends. I hate it to lie to them.
Is there a cure? I hope. At least that is something; that I still have some hope left in my body. But I don�t know. But believe me, I�m searching�
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