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               Bright Stars And Pixey Dust

        In the world we live in there is a way to which we conduct ourselves in our thoughts and our behaviors. All though we are not given a choice, when we are born we are all given two things that we carry with us throughout our lives. These two things are a bright star and pixey dust.

    First I want to tell you about Pixey dust. This dust is a very magical dust and it has a wonderful power when we share this dust around us. When we share this dust with others and they in return share some of their dust with you a very magical feeling starts to grow in our souls. It creates a bond between those who take the time to share their dust. Most of us do not know that we have been given this pixey dust and do not know how to use it. Yet some how this dust has a way of slipping from that magical place within us and without us being aware will spread itself among those that we meet.

      We all know the results of what happens when our pixey dust is given to someone and they in turn give you some of theirs. It in no other terms is best described as friendship. Now when we have shared our dust and received the dust of others our souls have the ability to open up and we feel safe and free to share our soul with others.

      Most of us know that sharing your soul is a very delicate and fragile thing to do. Our souls are all so unique and sometimes we think can be hurt and taken from us so easily. Some of us know that we have this dust and know that when it is shared and returned there will be such joy in our hearts that we do feel free to share. Sometimes though when our dust is shared we sometimes forget that we need to continue to share our dust in order to maintain the friendship that has developed through this sharing. Sometimes we will lose that friendship, as the dust does not always hold us true to our feelings. We ourselves must work to maintain what the dust has started.

      Another thing that we sometimes do not know about our dust is that we have been given so much of it that we can share it with everyone and we will never run out of it. It seems that as we use our dust then it has the ability to regenerate itself and thereby give us an endless supply. I think for now we can understand enough for now to see that we must share our Pixey dust. It creates a world where we all live in harmony.

      Leaving that aside I want to try to explain a little of the bright star that we are given. We all have a bright star in our hearts and some of us know what this star is about. Some of us have had our bright star brought forth and it has shone for the entire world to see. Some of us, once our star has begun to shine never lose sight of that star and it never diminishes. Now for some that star shines for a little bit and then through endless reasons of what happens in our lives, our stars stop shining for all the world to see. They somehow find they�re way back deep within our souls where they feel protected and safe.

       When our stars shine for the whole world to see then we are at the best place that our hearts can be. Others see our stars shining so brightly and this also helps give people the freedom to share their Pixey dust. It is a never-ending cycle that is of absolute importance to maintain our harmony with the world. Now we must realize that our hearts tend to push us to find the reason that we can release our star for the entire world to see. Through the sharing of our Pixey dust we are moving endlessly towards this goal.

      I need to make clear a point before I continue further. When a star is released it is a beautiful site. But when through friendship two stars are released and through that friendship they choose to share the same place in the sky, there is no other light so special and rewarding for those that allow their bright stars to shine together. Just imagine what the world would look like if we all found that friend to which could release our star and want to share it in the sky with them. That to me is what I see most of us trying to do. Now you might be wondering why I�m sharing this all with you. Well let�s see if there is someway of bringing it all together.

       In this world of cyber space where so many people live and travel a man, whom we shall call Jim, ventured into and began his adventure. He was a man whom had for many reasons of having his own life�s experiences had for many years found it difficult to share his Pixey dust with others around and about him. For many years he felt unsafe and had come to believe that to share his Pixey dust would not bring Joy to his life but always led to feeling a sense of loss and this led to feeling a strong pain of his emotional well being.

      Now being a man whom had a hard time to share his Pixey dust was one thing, but Jim had taken his bright star and tucked that so deep inside him, he felt that this world would never again give him the opportunity to have him find that special person with whom he would share the light of his star and together they would find a place to shine for all the world to see. So Jim became a man whom the world was never going to see. He was becoming less of a person who would share his Pixey dust and he did not understand that if he didn�t share his dust with others then he would never have them share their dust with him.

      Now Jim walked into this world of cyber space and one day he happened on a small place known as flipside. In this place he found a place where he could go to pass his time being involved in games to which he has enjoyed throughout his life. Jim moved slowly at first, coming to this place for small amounts of time. He would join in a game and for him it was an experience he so enjoyed. Jim started to meet people as he played these games and there were some who had Pixey dust to share. They did not know Jim but they seemed to know in their hearts the value of sharing their Pixey dust. With Jim they would share and Jim tried hard to share some with them. He, in the beginning could only share very small amounts with others. This is not a concern for it doesn�t matter how much Pixey dust one shares its just the fact that once you make the choice to share it, it has its own magic and will work itself in ways we have come to learn.

      Now Jim could feel a sense of common interest when he went to this place called flipside and with each day that he ventured there he would start to feel more energy coming from within him. He did not know it at the time but he had stumbled into a game one day and there were people there who gave freely of their Pixey dust with Jim. He liked how that felt and watched how they shared and then he reached into his heart and brought forth his pixey dust. Jim found that once he started to share his Pixey dust there began to stir in him those feelings of pleasure, and of feeling that he was welcome among these other people to whom he was sharing his Pixey dust. This is how the magic of the Pixey dust works and it had started to work its magic on Jim.

      Without naming those with whom Jim first started to share his Pixey dust I would just like to say that several months have passed and there are two of those first who shared with him who are still sharing their pixey dust today. There now is a very strong feeling of endless friendship with these two and the sharing Of Pixey dust with them is now a very good part of Jim�s life. Jim has come to feel that they are a very strong influence in his ability and the sense of freedom he has come to feel as the best thing that he can do with his Pixey dust. Through their sharing he has once again found the Joy in sharing Pixey dust.

      Now Jim started to look at others and started to give freely of his Pixey dust. Some would share theirs with him and as the days went by the sharing Of Pixey dust felt better to Jim. It soon became a way in which he liked to be. Jim I don�t think realized that he has always had the ability to share his Pixey dust, he has just never accepted the rewards that to do so, would bring him.

     Life in flipside was now becoming a place where Jim liked to venture at every opportune moment that he could. Now as Jim was feeling the freedom to share His Pixey dust, along came a woman to whom he gave some of his Pixey dust. She at first gave him some in return and Jim did not know at the time what the casual sharing of his Pixey dust was going to do to change his life. With this woman, I would like to give the name of Carol for the remainder of this story, Jim found that as he and she both shared their Pixey dust with each other it brought forth not just a sense of friendship but that the feelings started to elevate to a different level of feeling good. He sought out this woman as much as he could and was finding there was a stronger need to share more time with her. They began a communication with each other and found ways to maintain that communication even when they did not venture into the place called Flipside.

      Now as the days changed into new days they shared more of their Pixey dust with each other. It felt better and better and Jim was feeling more and more the Joy of sharing his Pixey dust with others. Its funny how things tend to snowball as the expression goes but Jim for some reason even he didn�t understand, was now sharing his Pixey dust freely with others around him. He started to feel great Joy especially with Carol and the exchange of Pixey dust that they were having. This started to spread to those all about them and soon there started to grow a group of people whom found a special time of day when they would all start to be drawn. To those involved, it for being for this story soon became known as the ten o�clock game in the place we call Flipside.

      This became the time of day that Jim grew to like because he somehow managed to fill his life with a schedule that was much too busy. It left him less time than he wanted to spend in flipside to play and continue to share his Pixey dust with those he was coming to know as his friends. There became no other time of day that was important for Jim to have then this time with his friends. Now as the nights went by and these people who had found each other in this world of flipside continually got together the sharing of Pixey dust became the prime focus and the game was but a place to get together so that they might share their dust with each other. This time of sharing would make a beautiful story in itself but for now it is but a part of the story I wish to share here now.

      Jim and Carol both found that they felt very good with each other and wanted never to stop sharing their Pixey dust with each other. They openly committed with each other that they wanted to find a way to someday go out into the real world and find away to get together. They had developed such a strong sharing of Pixey dust that both felt safe and also the desire to dig down inside and possibly take a chance on having their Bright stars being exposed to each other. They talked endlessly about how much they wanted the chance to see if their Bright Stars might someday share a place in the sky together.

      Time passed and life on flipside was good. More and more each day with the sharing of Pixey dust the circle of friends kept growing. Jim and Carol would venture to other places together and because they shared their Pixey dust so freely, they meet new and good friends wherever they went. For lack of a better word they have meet several friends that are keepers. Now all of life was good as they journiedd together and the thoughts of sharing their Bright stars with each other was a driving force.

      This seems to be where the story starts to become a little sadder. Both Jim and Carol have lived many years and both have had many experiences in each of their lives. Without having to go into any detail we can with sadness, say that they both while moving forward, also began to harbor some doubts about their sharing of their Bright stars. As these doubts began to emerge within both of them they were unable to tell the other about them. That would seem okay but they didn�t realize that as they harbored these doubts they also found that they started to share a little less of their Pixey dust with each other each day. This is really a tragic way in which friendships find their course and if not worked on then these so valuable of friendships that have been built can soon be lost. It was headed in that direction and I think it doesn�t matter who decided to open up the subject but that they were able to openly discuss what was happening to them.

      They came to the conclusion that what they had was the best sharing of Pixey dust that any one could ever dream of and when they looked at sharing their Bright stars they could not find that special place in their hearts where they thought this possible. Between them they found that if they did not attempt to share their Bright stars with each other then they could once again openly share their Pixey dust and not lose the friendship that is so valuable to both of them. So now this story could end here and it would be a happy one for all to see. Two people whom found a special place in their hearts for each other and knew the limits of their hearts that they could share.

      Alas for now the story goes on and some may find it sad and some may find that it is becoming an even greater joy to share and be a part of. This part of the story is going tell what has happened to Jim and how his story has continued on. Jim has found a large part of that which has been hidden deep within him. He has many people here in the land of flipside whom he is so thankful for. Carol is the person to whom his is most grateful. As Jim has found that sharing Pixey dust brought an absolute joy to his life he did not feel the need to ever stop sharing it. He felt safe to give it away freely and did not ever worry about whether the Pixey dust of others would be shared with him. Others did share their Pixey dust with Jim and it is good to say that all of these people who have shared back and forth with Jim have also become very good and most valued friends of his.

      Now in sharing his Pixey dust he happened to meet a woman whom he particularly enjoyed to share with. Jim had meet this woman many months earlier and he knew then that she had a lot of qualities about her that if he were to share his Pixey dust with her then nothing short of a very close friendship, not unlike that of his and Carols would develop. They would talk and share their Pixey dust and soon they found that they enjoyed sharing their Pixey dust with each other. Jim started to feel feelings that he was not sure of for Jim has tried very hard to never feel very much again. I say this not because of Carol but because of all the things that have happened in his life before he found flipside and Carol.

      Now this new woman that Jim was sharing Pixey dust was becoming a very attractive person in his life. He got scared that he might be feeling more than he ever wanted to feel so he tried to have this woman back away from him. The woman knowing Jim's situation at the time honored Jim's request and she did step back. This gave Jim time to look at what was happening with her. Now Jim knew that the sharing of Pixey dust is a good thing and there should never be a reason to stop sharing with someone. He took the time to start to understand that it wasn�t the sharing of the Pixey dust that was bothering him but that the more he shared his Pixey dust with her then the more he felt it in his heart that this woman possessed many qualities that made it safe for him to want to look at sharing his Bright star with her. They both seemed to have shared a lot of things in life that found them openly talking about how their lives have come to be and how they had arrived at this pont in time in both of their respective lives.

      This open communication felt very good for Jim. He never thought that he would ever find anyone that he would want to share his Bright star. He at one time had hoped that it would be Carol. He understood now that if he was to share his Bright star then even the thought of doing so would have to be of such a good feeling that it could be looked at and never have a bearing on the sharing of his Pixey dust.

      He knew now that in order to share his Bright star then it could not in anyway take away from his sharing of his Pixey dust. Sharing his Bright star would only work if it enhanced the joy he felt sharing his Pixey dust. If there was any hint at his drawing back what he found himself to be then he knew in his heart that moving forward would not be the way his path would take him. Jim has felt at complete ease with openly discussing these feelings with this woman and together they both know that they both share similar feelings. They also know that due to many circumstances that are a part of their individual lives there is a strong possibility that they could be two people who see the joy the sharing of there Bright stars sharing a place together but that they will never be able to get to that place.

      It seems that this where most would say that if you know your Bright stars can't shine together then it would best be time to move on. Well Jim knows in his heart that this would be a safe and easy way of protecting his Bright star from harm. He also knows that there comes very few times in a person�s life when the sharing of your Bright star ever feel so right. Jim knows that this feeling seems so right to him that he is willing to risk damage to his Bright star in order to find out if there Bright stars might ever shine together.

      They have come to understand that the adventure they are about to undertake together, they both do without having any expectations of each other. They will share their Pixey dust with each other and in that alone a strong friendship will continue to grow. As for their Bright stars they are willing to explore how their Bright stars would look together shining in the sky. With both knowing full well that they might in the end never shine together.

      Jim knows that without risk there can be no reward. This now is a closer place to where Jim is in his life and so it seems that we may chose this place here, not to end the story but to put aside the writing of and to get back to the experiencing of it. Not the end but��.just the beginning.

      One more piece of food for thought This story is for all the friends that I have come to know and respect for all the warmth and understanding that they share with me. This story is for Carol whom I know in my heart will not accept the path I have chosen. This story is for Carol whom I share my Pixey dust and would be devastated more if she were to stop sharing hers with me than it would be for me to go through this adventure I�ve chosen to take and not have it come to a place that I would like it to go.
                                                                 ~Jim Ferrell