This is Jackie's POV. Takes place pre-breakup w/ hyde.
/It's not
What you thought
When you first began it/
The first time I met Michael, I instantly wanted him. He was so hot. All I thought about back then was looks, and popularity. And Michael was popular. When he showed interest in me, I fell head over heels for him. He was one whole year older than me. In another grade than me. I thought it was the coolest thing. It made me feel special. I thought it would be special...
/You got what you want
Now you can hardly stand it though,
By now you know
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up/
Key word: Thought. So I got Michael. I got the relationship I wanted. I got someone to love. I got someone to love me back. I got someone to hurt me. I got someone to lie to me. Someone to cheat on me. Someone to make me cry. Someone to deceive me each time I gave him a chance to prove himself.
Wow. I sure did get what I wanted, and a hell of a lot more than I bargained for...
/You're sure
There's a cure
And you have finally found it
You think
One drink
Will shrink you 'til you're underground
And living down/
I thought he would change. The first time we broke up, the first time I took him back. I thought he�d change...I thought he would realize he loved me and only me. And that he�d change his ways. I thought I could make him love me. I thought I could make him stay.
I even thought I could live without him. But then I thought �Well I love him. I need him back. Who am I without him?�
/But it's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up/
Who am I without him? I can answer that now. I am stronger, more wiser Jackie Burkhart.... But I didn�t know her then. No, I needed to get hurt repeatedly to find her.
I should have known he couldn�t change. I should have known the hurt wouldn�t stop. I should have known...
/Prepare a list of what you need
Before you sign away the deed
'Cause it's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up/
I needed something else. I needed someone else.
I needed a relationship. A real relationship. A true, honest relationship that would make me see what love truly is. To make me see that it�s not all about trying so hard to be loved, or getting hurt so much and never getting anything in return. I needed to see that love was a good thing. That it came in the least expected places. I needed to experience true love. And I needed someone to show me it...
/No, it's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
No, it's not going to stop
So just...give up/
So I wised up. Michael and I stopped. I gave up on him. I gave up on us. That relationship stopped for good. That cycle of us getting back together stopped. I met the stronger, wiser side of me. The Jackie who Steven Hyde brought out. He showed me, and is still showing me, the true meaning of love. And how important it is. And how rare it is. And how precious it is.
It�s so different now. He doesn�t hurt me. I�ve realized that love takes time. And not to rush it so quickly. He has yet to profess his love too me...but, I�m not worried about it. Yes, I have told him I Loved him. And Yes, I mean it. But I am not going to force it out of him. I am wise now. I know that forcing a guy will only lead to false hopes and dreams. I don�t want it to be fake. I want it to be true. And if that means I have to wait... I will wait. I�m wiser now. I know what I have to change. I know what I have to do. And it�s not going to stop.