This takes place after Jackie and Hyde break up. shows a more "stalkerish" side of jackie.
/i picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
and falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
and being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
and trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in /
I�m watching you sleep. Mix emotions are flooding my body. My head hates you. My heart loves.
You finally did it. You told me you loved me. But did you think it would make me forgive you? You hurt me so much.
When it all settled in, I couldn�t stop the crying. I have NEVER cried like that over anyone.
Damn you Steven Hyde. Didn�t you see what you had? So maybe this isn�t how you imagined your love life to turn out. But it�s what you got. And you loved it. You told me. You told me you loved me. So why did you ruin it?
/May God's love be with you
always
May God's love be with you /
Oh, I know. Would you like me to tell you? Because you didn�t trust me. A relationship is built on trust Steven. And I trusted you. I did. But you, you didn�t. Why would you ever think I�d betray you? With Kelso. I told you I loved you.
YOU STEVEN. Not Michael Kelso. I was just being a friend. And you just took it the wrong way. You didn�t even talk to me first! Instead, you ran away and you ended up in some hotel room with some skank, and ruined not only your life,but mine. I hope God is with you during this, because you need all the help you can get.
/i know i would apologize if i could see your eyes
cause when you showed me myself i became someone else
but i was caught in between all you wish for and all you need /
I love you Steven. That hasn�t changed. But..my trust for you has.
Steven, if you would have just stayed when you saw me and Kelso. If you would have just asked me what was going on, I would have explained!
I�m sorry for telling you I didn�t love you. I love you, and I�m not ashamed of it. I am ashamed by you cheating on me though. I know you love me though, Steven. I know you do...But I�m so confused. If you love me, then why did you do that?
You changed me. You made me better. In so many ways. I wanted to be everything you wanted. Everything you needed. Maybe I didn�t stop to realize the problems. The lack of trust. Maybe if I would have just, stopped trying so hard...then...NO. That�s bullshit. You should have trusted me.
/i picture you fast asleep
a nightmare comes
you can't keep awake /
Are you having a nightmare? I hope I�m in it. I hope you see me crying in it. I hope you see how much pain I�m in because of you.
/may God's love be with you
always
may God's love be with you /
I�m sorry. I�m being out of line. BUT SO WERE YOU. You were way out of line for sleeping with that whore! God Steven! The more I think about it, the more I wonder why I�m still in love with you!
/cause if i find
if i find my own way
how much will i find
if i find
if i find my own way
how much will i find
you
I�ll find you/
It�s hard not too be. I don�t want to be without you Steven. But maybe I have too. Maybe I have to go and be on my own for awhile. But what good will that do?
I know what I want, and that�s you. But it�s going to take time to forgive you. And you�re not even trying to fight for me yet. And you know what? I deserve a lot from you right now. You should be kissing my ass right now. Trying to make it up too me. But you�re not! So until you do, I will not show any sympathy towards you. I will make your life miserable Steven, until you know how it feels to...to feel like this.
/i don't know anymore
what it's for
i'm not even sure
if there is anyone who is in the sun
will you help me to understand
cause i been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
maybe you're not even sure what it's for
any more than me /
You know? Maybe I should just forget men. Look at my past. Kelso, cheated on me many of times. And he was my FIRST boyfriend. And you, you were my second one...the one that mattered the most. And look what you did.
Is it me? Do I send off this vibe that screams �Cheat on me. Cheat on me.� Is that what attracts men to me? Do they know I�m easy to cheat on?
What is it for anymore...I don�t know what to do. I love you, but I can�t be with you right now. I want you, and I need you... But I also need me.
As corny as that sounds, I need me so I can grow stronger and not be some weak girl anymore to men who cheat on me. I need self-respect Steven. And going back with you,it�s just like going back with Kelso.
Obviously, you have trust issues with me. I know people have abandoned you Steven. But I wasn�t about too! Did you think I was? Did you think I was going to leave you for Kelso? Are you blind? Do you not see how mad I am about you? You need to understand that I am not like them. I have been abandoned too. You were there for me! You were the one that comforted me! YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE I LET! And look what you did! YOU did what your parents and my parents did to me. YOU abandoned ME.
Quite a predicament you�re in Steven Hyde. Your a hypocrite. You go on and on to me about being abandoned and how you will never do it..and look what you did. You abandoned me, you abandoned us.
/may God's love be with you
always
may God's love be with you/
Steven, you need help. And I can�t be the one who gives it too you. Not until I feel that you are worthy enough of my love. Oh yes, thats right. I said it. Or..thought it. Whatever. As of now, you are not worthy of my love.
I want you too be. I want you to be so badly. I just want to go up to you and kiss you and forget everything. But I can�t. You need to be punished for what you did to me, what you did to us.
So buckle up and be a man, Steven. Fight for me. Prove to me you love me. Because, telling me you love me after telling me you cheated on me...that doesn�t count Steven. I knew you loved me. Steven, you�re not all that great at hiding your emotions. You know what was the first big sign? Remember when you didn�t know how to deal with me when my dad was at jail... you didn�t know what to say....you remembered what I said about your beard...and you shaved it off, for me.
I knew you loved me right then and there Steven. The little things. The things you wouldn�t think I would see through. I saw through them and I knew you had fallen in love with me.
So come on and fight for me dammit. It�s the least you could do! I want to be with you Steven. But I need time to think. Time to be alone. And you need time to suffer. And to show me you love me. So be a man and fight for me.
/may God's love be with you
always
may God's love be with you /