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I went for a day out once
With some people from the ward
Four nurses, a social worker and a doctor
Were on board

We were all lined up like children
To make sure we were all there
Once we were all counted
We headed of to Ayr

The staff they took the first four seats
Then ignored us all the way
We knew it was a hassle
Because they all had to work late

Eventualy we got to Ayr
We were counted once again
One guy talking constantly of voices
I thought "You're a fuckin' pain"

We all lined up for photographs
Like exhibits in froma a zoo
We really did'nt want to
But the staff all thought we should

We went into a pub somewhere
I can't recall the name
Because it didn't even interest me
I just wanted to go home

One nurse went to buy a round
Of fifteen pints or so
He said "We thought we'd take the patients out"
"They were feeling a little low"

I thought "God that's a brilliant start
The whole of Ayr now know
That we're all fuckin' loonies
From some psychiatric ward"

They then got one lad up to sing
I thought "God this isn't real
They've forced this poor sod up to sing
Like some performing seal"

All the punters clapped and cheered
They all said"He's so clever"
The only reason that was said
Was in case he had a clever

We then went to the fairground
We were given two pounds each
Then after we were counted
They said "Don't forget reciepts"

By this time I couldn't handle it
I said "I'm going for a walk"
One nurse said "Don't go to far
We're afraid you might get lost"

By this timeI was fuming
I said "Who the fuck are you"
To tell where I musn't go
You're not a fuckin screw"

Eventualy the day was done
I said "Thank Christ for that"
I've never thought I'd be so glad
To be in the ward at last
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HOLIDAY

Once I was in london
With no medicine at all
It started as a holiday
Ans ended up in hell
I thought that I could handle it
As I was feeling good
But living with Jack's sister
I could feel my changing mood

I know that Jackie's sister
Didn't mean to make me mad
But locked up in that little flat
Things started to go bad
I found her overpowering
She was trying to be kind
She was taking my control away
And screwing up my mind

Helen didn't realize
She was suffocating me
I did not know how to tell
That a locked room makes me freak
I tried to calm myself down
By watching some TV
But my heart was beating faster
And my mind was gathering speed

I tried to play it down a lot
But eventually I cracked
I knew it wasn't Jackie's fault
I tried to remember that
I shouted "Let me out this fucking door!"
"Or I'll tear this place apart!"
The only thing that was on my mind,
Was to get out of that flat

The whole thing really frightened them
They'd never seen me like that
And as I stormed past them
I tripped over on the mat
This made my anger hotter
I cursed and swore and spat
I'd never been so angry
I could have torn the world apart

I must have walked for hours
Well into the night
I landed in a park somewhere
It was agay guys pick up site
This gay guy sat beside me
He said "Do you want to go in there"
I said "I you don't get to fuck right now"
"You'll be in intensive care"

Then I started walking back
To Helens little flat
I didn't know what to tell her
I felt a complete pratt
They were really glad to see me
There was no doubt about that
They only thing that I could say was
"I must be heading back"

Once I'd settled on the coach
And was heading of back home
I Thought of Jackie sitting there
Trying to explain it on her own
I should have tried to sort it
I really should have done
But the only thing I was fit for
Was to cry all the was back home
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