But watching the doctors battle in vain to save Juliette, the moment they certified her dead was so painful, even though she had not know her well it bought back the memories of all the other colleagues that had died in the past 2 years, it re opened the healed wounds every time.
The only thing that had helped with the pain was the feeling of Jim with his arms around her, that old familiar feeling of security, the tingle within her body that his touch brought about each time he touched her, that kiss her planted on her shoulder as he held her, a brief moment in how it used to be, those feelings of warmth, security and more importantly love.
That feeling may have lasted longer if she had not appeared, that woman who is draining the life from the man she loved, the man she loves so much that it is breaking her heart to see so upset and hurting.
She relaxed back into the bath and thought of what had happen between them at the hospital, their emotions for each other unfreezing, the words that they spoke, they laughter they shared, it felt as if time had stood still and they were still happy and none of this nightmare had occurred.
She knew that Jim was being beaten by Marie and was upset that he could not tell her, she could hear those words he said � I would tell you�
She thought about it, would he really admit to his ex lover that his wife was beating him? Once upon a time Jim might have but not now too much had happened, too much had changed, or had it?
She knew how she felt about him, she had told him, she explained her hurt and anger. All she wanted was him to be honest to her. When he offered not to go home but stay with her was it a reaction to the situation or was he trying to be honest with his feelings, was he going to admit he still wanted her?
She had felt bad for how she had spoken to him, those words could have sounded so bitter but all she wanted was some signal that there was still hope for their relationship, anything is possible if you want it bad enough, there relationship had proven that.
Jim looked at Marie who was asleep next to him snoring like a pig, why had he not had the courage to tell June how he felt about her, he had the conversation with her in his head so many times, she was his first thought on waking and his last thought when he went to sleep, if only he could then he could stop this nightmare and he and June could be happen.
He got from bed, took his mobile phone from his pocket and dialled June�s number, only to cancel the call as quick as he had dialled it, he then rang the number to his house. He quickly picked the receiver up before Marie could get to it
�Yes Ma�am I will be there in 10 minutes� he said then replaced the receiver
�Who was that� asked Marie
�Sorry love I have to go into work�
�why�
�Um..it�s to do with Juliette, the one who was killed, they need to start some searches and they need us to go in�
�I suppose so, when will you be back?�
�Don�t know, I�ll ring when I know�
�Don�t bother, I�ll see you when you do return�
Jim took his phone from his pocket at typed the words I love you and sent it as a text message. He looked back at the house he was now sat outside, he watched the light go on, he waited a few seconds and sent the message again 3 times, he got out of the car and walked up the path, waiting for a response to the messages. He noticed the hall light come on, he rang the door bell , knowing that June would not answer it he rang her phone.
�Jim what are you playing at� June�s voice sounded angry
�Please, we need to talk, let me in Im on the doorstep�
�I thought as much, look this shouldn�t be happening, go home�
�June I love you and I am not going anywhere till I�ve seen you�
�Well you will have a long wait� and she hung up on him
5 minutes later June opened the front door
�Jim this is stupid, go home to your wife�
�No, I want to be with you, not her, I love you June, always have done and always will, I know you feel the same about me, look if you tell me you don�t I will leave now�
�I.....look you hade better come in�
They went into the kitchen and she began to fill the kettle
�June, I�ve been an idiot, I�ve been trying to tell myself that I didn�t feel this way but I do, what happened tonight has proved that life is too short�
�Its too late Jim I said that earlier�
�Its never too late June, it took us 18 years for our relationship to get to this stage, we have both admitted that we have always had feelings for each other and you cannot deny that they are still there, can you�
�It�s not as simple as that Jim, you are married, you are suppose to love your wife not me, this is not fair, you were the one who changed things not me, you were the one who married someone else and now you are telling me that you love me and don�t want to be with your wife�
Jim sighed �look at me June I�ve got a cut to my head where my wife hit me, she has done it before and will do it again, she knows that I have feelings for you and that I have made a mistake by being with her, why do you think she did this.....� He began to cry �I can�t take it anymore, I want to stop living a lie�
June took the sobbing Jim into her arms �Im so sorry.......we can get through this�
�But do you love me June?�
�Yes I love you, I love you so much that it hurts, but it is not as simple as this we have to do this properly, we need to do the right thing, we cannot rush this, you need to report Marie, its the only way�.
She looked deep into his eyes and saw the pain lift from his eyes
�We will get this nightmare sorted then we will sort out our relationship� she said as he kissed her softly on the lips, she felt a buss through her body as they were both hit with their built up emotions from the past months, it consuming their bodies and the soft kiss turning into something passionate and intense