| Light suddenly pollutes the darkness, Invading my sanctuary and gloomy countenance. I look up from the pillow, Harsh words aching to leap from my lips, And scold whoever has disturbed my brooding den, And see instead you, Siloetted against the door. I look at the clock, After two again, They kept you out late. You peel off your shirt, Soaked in sweet, Bathed in tears, And crawl into bed. You arms find me among the sheets, Draw me close, And smile. I breathe deeply your scent, And feel instantly comforted, Safe forever in your arms. I wish I could do the same for you, Hold you safe against me, For all time, And never have to worry, If today would be the last, The last night together, The last love making, The last kiss, Or the last hug good bye. Don't keep me guessing, I can't win anymore. The darkness is coming, It will over power me one day, So you will come home to me, No more. How many times, Have I had to pick up the broken pieces? And how many times, Have I had to put back together, These shards of my life? And when will I know the true dreams, From the decadent fantasies, That fill the graveyard of past relationships, Where you now lie. "Don't, it will only make it worse", Oh, if only you knew how much that cut, How close to the bone that went, You better check my pulse, To make sure I live, For that stroke may prove fatal. The most spiteful thing I know, To counter that blow, Would be to live, And not die, To prove you wrong, Show you that I am strong, And banish you from me. So this will be the last of you I write, My blue eyed, sandy haired, rugged youth, And if I still see you in my dreams, I'll kiss you spitefully, And laugh, As I turn to him. Miss me in your thoughts, For only there will I live. |