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Uvitajen (4:12:53 PM): so what? you wanna know what I think
VaGodiva (4:12:58 PM): yep
VaGodiva (4:13:07 PM): please
Uvitajen (4:14:13 PM): well
Uvitajen (4:14:14 PM): lemme see
Uvitajen (4:14:24 PM): I think that maybe, just maybe he's not worth it
Uvitajen (4:14:25 PM): hahaah
VaGodiva (4:14:37 PM): LOL
Uvitajen (4:14:38 PM): and if you REALLY like him lots and you dont think you cant live without talking toh im again
Uvitajen (4:14:42 PM): then call him and try to work it out
Uvitajen (4:14:45 PM): but honestly,
Uvitajen (4:15:06 PM): I can almost guarentee you that he is a dickhead and he does this on a regular basis. I dont have much respedct for him
Uvitajen (4:15:14 PM): however, if you want to continute to be friends with him
Uvitajen (4:15:17 PM): then, why now?
Uvitajen (4:15:18 PM): not?
VaGodiva (4:16:49 PM): That's right...I forgot you disliked him even before this episode
VaGodiva (4:17:15 PM): no, seriously though...there's a V. large part of me that thinks and knows you're probably totally right
Uvitajen (4:17:40 PM): yeah, but you gotta do what feels firght
Uvitajen (4:17:41 PM): righ
VaGodiva (4:17:46 PM): grrrrrr
Uvitajen (4:18:23 PM): yeah, TRUST me
Uvitajen (4:18:28 PM): I KNOW how you are feeling right now
Uvitajen (4:18:31 PM): I KNOW

     So Jen wasn't very excited about the whole idea, and granted she is probably right, "that he is a dickhead and he does this on a regular basis", but I still think that there had to have been some part of him that was truly interested in me. I mean, how many frat guys would wait around at some house, that wasn't his own, until 4am while you wait for your friend to finish hooking up with some guy? Or how many guys(not just frat boys), wouldn't jump you if you're both wasted when you spent the night? Not many I'll bet. So taking this into consideration, and then Marisa's insistance that I "Just call him", I did.
     Over all the converstation went extremely smoothly, something along the lines of this:

Sean: Hello?
Miss D: Sean. (pause) Hi. It's D.
Sean: Hey! How's it going? What have you been up to?
Miss D:(Laughs)Nothing.(pause) Listen, I was just calling because I wanted to finally appologize for the way I behaved last Saturday. I was so dunk and said so many things that should NEVER have been said.

(then I can't really remember what was said, but I think it was):

Miss D: So why did you put me on your block list? Was I really that bad? Are you really that pissed off at me?
Sean:(Pause)I put you on their because you said I'd hurt you, and I didn't want to do that at again. So I figured the best way to do that was not to talk to you and not to see you and to leave you alone.
Miss D:(Laughs at the silliness of the whole thing) Sean, you didn't hut me. I said so many things that just shouldn't have been said whether I was drunk or not.
Sean: well it seemed to me like you needed to say them.
Miss D: No. I didn't. I said things that just should never have bee said. It was rude and very uncalled for. I feel so bad because I caused such a big scene and I was so mean!(pause) Are you really pissed off about the whole thing?
Sean: I'm not pissed off, just weirded out about the whole thing. I mean, like all this just came out of nowhere.
Miss D: yeah. I'm sorry.
Sean: hang on a sec. (Pause) Hey listen, my step dad is here to help me move stuff, can I call you back later?
Miss D: yeah, sure. Will you take me off your block list?
Sean: yeah, sure.
Miss D: thanks. That would make me feel a lot better.
Sean: OK, bye.
Miss D: Bye.

     So over all I was pretty happy with the way the whole converstation went. Some parts, like the whole reason for why he blocked me make me go yeah, right, you're lying like a dog. But I think I'm more inclined to believe him than not just because of look where listening to shit has gotten me so far. So I think this time we're gonna go with trusting him.
     But there are some problems still. First, it's been over 24hrs and he hasn't unblocked me. Second, He might have called back last night while we were at the show, but I don't know b/c if it was him he didn't leave a message(which is a major reason why I think it was him, but last time he called me I told him not to leave a message b/c I didn't have phone mail), and the phone doesn't tell me the number that called. So my current question is do I call him and say, "hey did you call me back last night?" and if he says yeah then what? But even better what if he says no and I look like an over attached freak who was waiting for him to call!? SO I just don't know. That's where I am right now going call, don't call, call, don't call, like usual.

5-7-01- 11:50am - In the computer lab

     While looking up the definition of Hamartia and then tragic flaw, came across picture of evil Ms. Elliot taped underneath the definition of "troll". Now that, was funny! Wish I could have scanned it on here to share, but no such luck.
     So yippie skippie! I'm going to beach week! Wa Hoo! Me, my best friend Caitlin and 6 random guys including my prom date Lee from last year(that's him in the pic with me looking frightened :). It should deffinately be an interesting week! Not that I'll remember much of it, with the quanities of alcohol that they are talking about I'll be luck if I remember any of it. I think it's time to order that crochet string bikini from Victoria's Secret. After all, it doesn't matter the guys you go with, it's the ones that you pick up on the beach that are important! LOL! :)
     Oops. Note to self: Typing after using finger to put on lipstick is not a good idea. The keys are now Bath & Body Works "Coffee Break" tinged. Hmmmm...I'm sure no one will notice!