" From Loving You"
By: Mandy
I had you; I had everything,
I ever needed.
The day was a blur of tears and condolences, pats on the back, and sympathetic looks from family and friends. I simply nodded at all of them, talking was beyond my capability. For five years I had had her by my side; those were the best five years of my life. I can remember so clearly the day we met, on the beach in front of Nick's house. She was chasing her Labrador puppy and I was walking Tyke. After my split with Leigh 6 months before; I wasn't looking for love, but it was looking for me that day.
*Flashback*
"Hi...need some help?" I asked, bending down and calling the dog, who came straight to me.
Her eyes were wide with shock, " That's strange. He isn't usually so friendly with strangers." She smiled and bent down to my level, petting the pup." Miranda." She held her hand out and I shook it.
" Brian, say do you want to accompany me to my friend's barbeque? He lives right up on the hill." I squinted in the sun, trying to see if it was frown or a smile that was now crossing her beautiful face.
She brushed her long blonde hair back, and now I could see it; a smile, " Sure. Do you mind if Travis tags along?" She petted the puppy's head again and he wagged his tail and looked up at me with those big chocolate eyes of his.
" No problem, he'll fit right in with Nick's dogs." She laughed standing up and brushing the sand from her. I held out my arm and she looped her arm through mine.
That�s how it all started. Four months and three weeks later, we were engaged. I know it sounds fast, but you'd just have to know Miranda. She was a wonderful an amazing women.
It wasn't until a year after we had been married that she had her first episode with it; with her leukemia.
From that first look I knew,
I'd found heaven in your eyes.
But who was to know,
The way it would go.
I have no regrets.
" Baby, angel are you okay?" I rushed into the bathroom, holding her hair back from her face as she vomited from the treatments. When she was finished she brushed her teeth and rinsed her mouth, finally falling into my arms crying, " Shhh angel...it'll be alright. You'll get through this; I promise." The guys warned me at first about the heartache I would face when the inevitable occurred, but I wasn't willing to let her go that easily. She made it through the first two years great, even the doctors had high hopes. But after the birth of our first and only child, Brianna Nickole, things took a turn for the worst.
Glad I let you in,
Wouldn't have missed
one single moment.
I would do it all over again.
I held Brianna in my arms that night as I watched them hook my angel up to a dozen different machines. The doctor stepped in and I swear he sucked every bit of hope out of me when I met his eyes, eyes filled with sadness and pity.
"It's her heart, Brian. It can't take the severity of the treatments. She's only got three months. I'm sorry." I nodded mutely, my whole body numb. Brianna started to stir in my arms and I blinked back tears as I kissed her forehead. Miranda had three months; Brianna's third birthday was in four.
"I want her home, Dr. McKinley. I want my wife home with me and our daughter." The doctor started to argue, but I stopped him, " No, I want her ready to leave in the morning." He nodded and closed the door as he left. I slumped down in the chair, sobbing quietly as to not wake Miranda.
" Why cry daddy?" Brianna's soft voice broke through my cries and I quickly wiped my eyes.
"Because he's sad, sweetie. But don't you worry angel, mommy is coming home." Brianna smiled at me, that big bright smile that everyone said was exactly like mine. " Wanna give mommy a kiss?" She nodded and I leaned her over Miranda, careful not to disturb any wires.
I had quickly nipped the doctor's orders to keep Brianna out of the room in the bud. She was going to see her mother and that was all there was to it in my eyes. And as I watched Brianna sweetly kiss her mother's cheek; I knew I had made the right choice putting my foot down.
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