The Eventual Poetry Page
*Lyrics removed 5-18-03* Poetry written by myself will be posted here. I've never done this before, but I do enjoy writing my poems & now hope you'll enjoy reading them :) The "Artist's Corner" that I have following some poems just gives a little insight into maybe why I wrote the poem & a little info about it. Don't think about stealing any of these either. All poems written by Shaundra. (me)
IF ONLY YOU KNEW, written May 7th, 1996
When my eyes met yours, what I felt at that instant was too incredible for words
If only you knew
From afar there was a chemistry, this I felt
But what were you thinking?
If only I knew
From what we had in common, I thought I could see your inner-most thoughts
But I was too blind, blinded by the sweetness you showed me
Why would I give up when I couldn't see?
If only you knew
But now you're sweeter than ever
You're leading me in your spell; I follow close behind
You have me reassured I could call
Why won't you take those calls?
Am I too persistant in this chase? Do I follow too close?
If only I knew
We talk about life, whatever comes to mind
But what about thoughts? Do they not count?
What I feel, no one knows
My feelings are ready to explode; they're tearing me apart
If only you knew
If I could see you again; just one time is all I ask
To look into those eyes, just one last time
To hear your laughter, your voice...
Please, just one more time
To be caught up in your embrace, your hug so sweet
I beg of you... just one last time...
What I feel today, you may never know
This burning desire, the torch I burn only for you
What I feel, you'll never know
Deep feelings for you, locked away without the key
If only you knew...
***AUTHOR'S CORNER: This is the longest poem I've ever written (you should see the hardcopy!). The person implied in the poem was a key player in the shaping of my life from that point on. The feeling wasn't really that of love, but of extreme adoration & longing. I no longer have contact with this person, but I don't hold that against him. He helped me look at life from a different perspective, something I'll appreciate forever.
SEEK AND YOU SHALL FIND, written May 18th, 1999
This poem will be published in the Riverside Arts Poetry Anthology book.
Two worlds
together, yet so far apart
Look at me now,
look into my heart
It is only here
where you will find
the driving forces that occupy my mind
No one knows of
such love
You don't know of
my love
How can I explain
with but one word
the feeling I have
now
the feeling others deem absurd
But I care for you
in the unexplainable of ways
I fumble for the
words to let you know
Continue to try as best I can
Search these eyes
and offer a hand
Look past the
depths of the window to my soul
Here you may find
some answers,
the ones you're
looking for
The ones I have
yet to find
To these driving forces that occupy my mind
***AUTHOR'S CORNER: I consider this to be my best piece to date. I wrote this completely from the heart, and I feel the message is fairly clear. I wrote this about one very dear person in my life, before they realized how I felt about them. (wanna guess who it is? hehe) These were just some words I felt I should share with this person, and I did. This poem expresses some strong feelings, the beginning of love before it's actually experienced.
SOMETHING ELSE, written May 27th, 1999
I am restless, I'm
hopeless, fearless, careless
Careless in the
sense I have no cares
I'm careful with
all that I touch and all that touches me
I'm fearless now
in this moment of time
Why should I fear
you
though sometimes you appear to fear me
I'm hopeless when
it comes to having hope
All I hoped for is gone. I'm tired of waiting for you
I am restless now.
No hope to occupy my every thought,
no fears to bring me back to reality. No care in the world
I am restless as I
wish to hope, hope to fear,
and fear I still care for you.
How do you do the
things you do without trying?
Quit messing with
my mind
I'm stronger than
you, something you'll never see
I'll recover with
time, though you'll continue to torture me
I'll try to move
on when my fear is gone
I'll continue to be restless from then on.
***AUTHOR'S CORNER: One day, I sat out in the sunshine on my deck and just wrote. This was the result. The result of feeling so many different things at the same time, about love, life... It starts out showing I don't know which direction I want to go in, but then it goes on to show I return to my strength (& senses) by knowing what I want to do. It's just a matter of whether I actually do it or not, which isn't answered.
THAT OLD FEELING, written May 27th, 1999
How do I
experience happiness?
Not in the same
way you do.
I'm happy as a
thinker, a dreamer
I'm happy with
things that surround me to make me happy
People enter and
leave my life
Most imprint a
happiness in my mind, or is it my soul?
You've made me
happy, though I'm not sure why
Say you'll stay
now that you've captured my eye
When you leave my
life, you leave more than that
It's easy to part
and keep bruising this heart
Don't do that to
me. Make me happy.
Say you'll stay.
Don't go away.
Being with you,
speaking, sharing...
All make me happy
Happy in this way
I can speak of
sorrow and still be happy
knowing you're still here
***AUTHOR'S CORNER: I tried to put what I felt about happiness into words. I also linked happiness with the important people in my life & the fear I have of losing them. That is one of my greatest fears. Also, happiness can be as simple as just being with such a person. That is an insurmountable happiness.
WISHFUL THINKING?, written June 30th, 1999
I made you a wish
today, and one for me too
I made us the very
same wish
Hoping my wish was
the same you hoped for you
I wished for sheer
happiness, tired of all I've become to know
All I asked was
this simple wish
the one thing to
make us glow
Why does happiness
seem so distant now?
Where did we go wrong?
It seems the days
are all the same
and I hear this
same old song
All I want is a
smile and to feel everything belongs
All I want is for
you to be happy
so we both can
carry on
I made you a wish
today
and one for me too
I know fate
brought me to meet you
Some wishes really do come true.
***AUTHOR'S CORNER: I wrote this poem as a result of noticing how similar me & a dear person felt at the same time. I thought happiness, "sheer happiness," would cure any down feelings we had. So I made this wish. It seems that just everyday things get sickening after awhile, but it's easier to make it through the day if you have such a special person in your life.
THIS I DO, written July 14th, 1999
I do know what
it's like to long, to want something so bad
To feel you need
just this one thing
Something no one else has had
I do know how it
feels to want to love
love being a
feeling so strong
You make me want
to love
I feel as if we both belong
I do know my
feelings run deep
the feelings I
have for you
The feelings so
hard to put into words
Care greatly for you, I do
***AUTHOR'S CORNER: This poem basically is saying, you don't always have to look so far for love. Two people are feeling the same thing at the same moment, but one may be thinking of someone else. I think part of this was inspired by an email I was sent. Feelings can sometimes be expressed simply, as I expressed them here. Plain and simple: love should be obvious, but isn't always.
UNTITLED AND UNFINISHED, started July 29th, 1999
You can't actually
say the words "I love you" to my face,
but you say you
feel it too.
That's ok. I know
what you mean.
Some of the best
feelings remain unseen,
to everyone but
us.
Things do change
with time,
but there's one
thing I hope never changes.
I hope you'll
always be mine.
Come on, say it.
Tell me how you care.
Or should I go
first? No, you. I want to hear it from you.
I'm scared. I care
so much. Just say it. You know I can't.
Not yet. But I do
love you.
I don't want you
to think I'm feeding you a line.
Like I sound like every other girl. Cuz I'm not.
BLANK SQUARE, written 10-17-02
Stumbling toward the empty void
Surprises ignite the way and soon fade
Too good to be true? Too impossible to consume.
Waiting cannot last forever, but forever never comes
Impulse guides the inspiration; fools cannot wait
Practicality takes over, removed by the excitement-
of something new, something better
All is weighted down heavily by what you
already know to be true
Tomorrow never comes, yet today does not stay
Rambling through the confusion...
Reach for a sure thing
Only to see it fade...
JOURNEY OF THE SOUL, written 12-3-02
Journey through the halls of time
Take a look at yourself in the future
What is it you see?
A happy, successful life?
Is there room for me?
You do not need to decide now
Just tell me what is in your vision
Everything you have dreamt for you
We made a commitment to make this work
Can you promise to be true?
In you I have found a joy in life
Something I have searched for far and wide
You are an answer to all those prayers
I turn to you as an ear to listen
My rough times are now merely small cares
Dedication and understanding are the keys
For keeping all we have safe
When times are tough, I think of that grin...
Your eyes, windows to your soul
And know, this is where the journey begins.
YOU BRING TO MIND, written 12-4-02
Of all the things I want to say to you
Something comes to mind
That isn't said enough
And that is how much you mean to me
"I love you" means a great deal
But there is more to it than that
You are patient and understanding
Sweeter than anything else on this earth
Honest and trustworthy
More adorable than my cutest dreams
Your eyes are deep and kind
While your smile forever shines
You brighten my entire day
And make my life happier
I feel truly lucky and blessed
All because of you
Being a part of my life
Thank you
OVER AND OVER, written 2-3-03
This present little melody
The soundtrack in my head
Of all my thoughts
And all my dreams
Of where to go instead
It appears in my sleeping mind
And shows when I'm awake
A figure I've heard
A figure I've seen
This life I could forsake
To see such an adorable sight
And laughter that makes me smile
The day will come
It's drawing near
For content to last awhile