inside of me
would you approve
of what you have done
of what i have become
of the woman i now am
of my view of you
do you really think it matters
do you think i care
what you think
means nothing to me
nothing at all
the thought never really
occurred
not to me
i don't often think
of such things
what if it's true
never will it be
not in this light
nor in this life
i long for you not
not anymore
why i ever did i know not
you abuse
you manipulate
now you annoy
go away get
far away from me
i do not need this
i do not need you
never come back
i want to be alone
at least without you
for the rest of my life
no this is not harsh
this is the truth
you hurt me
please go
go far away
never to return
i do not like pain
sometimes it is too much
the hurt is unbearable
if i never love again
it will be no thanks to you
i hope you are happy
with what you have done
with what you have created
this sullen mass
and mess of a woman
who used to be yours
by her own poor choice
i thank you not
i leave you with this
nothing
just what you deserve
nothing