We Belong To The Night || chapter 1
by Jewls13
AN. Ok, so this is my first Rory/Jess fic and I am
nervous as hell. This is also my first NC17 fic. It’s rated R for now-just to be
safe, but it will become NC17 if I don’t loose my nerve. I hope to god this is
in character.
I wanna thank a few people too.
D_beaux: for being
my sound board when I need one, and for inspiring me to try NC17
Also, to
all the people who I beta read for, (there are too many to name) for their
encouragement to write my own stuff, (it’s been a while since I’ve written my
own fics) and for giving me the time to do so.
Ok, that all being
said
Disclaimer: I own nothing, although anyone that knows me knows that
I wish to god that I did. And in my dreams, I do. Luke/Jewls/Jess dreams,
ummmm…ok, enough of my perversions. (Dana, shut up, or I will have to make your
Trike obsession public)
Enjoy, and PLEASE
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Rory got out of the shower and went into her
bedroom. As she was walking to her bed, she passes the full-length mirror
hanging on her wall. She stopped and looked at herself. Teeth chattering, wet
hair, and covered in a pink towel. She felt like crying.
When Dean had
first shown an interest in her, she had never felt more beautiful. When he
looked at her with adoring eyes, kissed her on the check, held her hand-it all
felt so magical. She would hear girls talking about sex, and making out with
their boyfriends, they made it sound like it was the best feeling in the world.
While being with Dean was nice, she never felt that feeling.
Once, while
kissing her, Dean accidentally kneed her in her pelvic area. He apologized
profusely, but the truth was, Rory never felt pleasure like that before. It was
one second, one time, and that’s all it took. Kissing Dean wasn’t enough. She
wanted more. She wanted to feel what else her body was capable of feeling. But
whenever she was with Dean and tried to take it further, he stopped her. She
knew that he meant well, but in trying to be nice, he only made her feel cheap.
He made her feel like she wanted was wrong. He made her feel ugly, and that’s
exactly what she saw in her reflection.
“What’s wrong with me?” She asked
herself out loud. “Why doesn’t he want me?”
She began to turn back to her
bed, when her towel came undone. Rather then fix it; she let it drop to the
floor. She turned once again to face herself in the mirror and stared at her
reflection. Not being able to take the sight of the girl in front of her, she
closed her eyes as tears started to fall slowly down the side of her face. When
she opened her eyes again, she gasped. Peering into the reflection she saw a
pair of dark brown eyes starring at her.
Jess had been passing by
the Gilmore house as per his usual schedule. It had started out during his first
week in Stars Hollow. After sneaking out of the tiny apartment he shared with
his uncle, he decided to walk around the town trying to find any place that he
could feel normal. He found it outside Rory’s window. He would watch her for a
few minutes. Sometimes she would read, other times she would be doing work, and
sometimes she would be sleeping. He never stayed for long; just long enough to
feel his sadness and anger melt away. He knew it was wrong, hell it was illegal,
but he couldn’t help himself. She was the one person in this town that didn’t
make him feel like a pariah. During the day, he couldn’t really watch her.
Either Luke was there, or Lorlai, or Dean. But at night, she was alone, and just
seeing her made his heart feel less heavy and his life seem less
tiresome.
That night, he really needed her smile, her peace. He had
spoken to one of his friends from back home earlier that evening. After hearing
about what they were up to, he was unimpressed. He didn’t have anything in
common with those people anymore. They would tell him about raves and fights,
and all he could do was roll his eyes and think of excuses to get off the phone.
He knew that he didn’t belong in Stars Hollow, and now he realized that he no
longer belonged to the place he had always considered home either.
He
found himself outside Rory’s window around midnight. As he approached, he saw
that the light was on in her room. Stepping up to the window, he expected to
find Rory reading, but instead saw something that made his eyes grow wide and
his knees go weak. There was Rory, standing naked in front of a mirror. Jess
knew he should look away, but he couldn’t. He saw her close her eyes, and when
tears started running down the side of her face, he couldn’t stop himself from
crawling into the window. He walked over to her, and stood behind her. All he
wanted to do was to touch her, hold her, wipe those tears away. But he did none
of that. He just stood there, looking at himself standing behind her beautiful
naked form. And suddenly, he was looking at her eyes staring back into
his.
“What the hell are you doing here?” Rory cried,
grabbing the towel and covering herself.
“Sorry,” Jess stammered, “I was
walking by and I saw you and I…..I’m sorry”
“What the hell is wrong with
you?! You come into my room, invade my privacy….after everything, I thought we
were friends Jess, god!”
**This is it**, Jess thought. **I was wondering
I’d screw this up and I got my answer. Shit, just when she was starting to like
me**
“I’m sorry Rory, really. I just…you were crying and I tried to walk
away but I couldn’t. I’m sorry. I’ll go now, bye”
And with that Jess left
the way he came, leaving Rory to stare at the open window.
Truth was,
Rory was less angry at Jess’s invasion on privacy and more embarrassed that he
had seen her like that. No guy had ever even seen her bare breasted and here was
Jess having seen everything. She was humiliated, but when their eyes met, she
felt a charge. A vulnerability that she never felt before. She turned off the
light, and crawled into bed, not knowing what to think or feel.
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