Could You Cry A Little For Me?
by Jewls13
AN: I wrote this after last week's episode, after Rory goes to see Dean in
his room. The grammar sucks and I'm sorry about that, but I really wanted
to post it and I got really lazy-sorry. This probably sucks (I've NEVER
done a Dean POV, and I never thought I would. I'm die hard R/J) but I
wanted to give Dean his due. He's a good guy; he's just not the right guy.
Song-Cry by Faith Hill
COULD YOU CRY A LITTLE FOR ME?
I loved you more then anything. And seeing you with him; it just broke my
heart. Did you even care? I love you so much. I loved you from the moment I
saw you reading, so engrossed in a book that the world didn't matter. I
thought that was amazing all the focus that you could have. And for a while
I was the focus, but then, it was that very focus that broke me. All you
could see was him. You couldn't see me anymore. You couldn't see how much I
loved you. You couldn't see how much you were hurting me. I believe that. I
believe that you never meant to hurt me, but that doesn't matter, because
you did. I tried to tell you, but you couldn't listen, you couldn't see
what you were doing. You were falling for him, and I loved you too much to
admit it to myself. When? When did you stop seeing me? When did I loose
you? Was it with Tristan? Was it Jess? Or was it me?
//If I had just one tear running down your cheek
Maybe I could cope maybe I'd get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Maybe all my misery would be well spent//
Do you even care? Do you care that we're over? Do you? You have no idea how
much I loved you. I loved you so much that I became this person that I
didn't wanna be. I'm not a jealous guy, not when I knew that you loved me.
But then he came, and you wanted him, and I can't stop hating him. But I
can't blame him either. I know what it's like to be him. To see you, to
love you, and want you. I was him once. I was bad once too. Your mother
hated me too, just like she hates him. But you, you made me better. You
made me want to do anything to be with you. So I followed the rules. That's
how badly I wanted to be with you, and look where that got me. What now?
You like him because no one else does. What else is there? sSo what happens
when he starts following the rules to be with you? Are you then gonna move
on to the next guy? To the next challenge? You've already beaten me. You'll
beat him. And then what? God, you don't even know. You don't know how bad
you make us want to be with you. You make us crazy. And you don't even
know. You can't see. You don't want to see. I loved you, more then anyone
else ever will. And you just....
//Yeah....
Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I gave now I'm wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me//
You said I was the perfect boyfriend, but I wasn't enough, was I? I would
have done anything, ANYTHING for you. I would have been anything, I would
have giving anything to make you love me. To make you look at me the way I
always see you looking at him.
//If your love could be caged, honey I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me
And you'd hunt those lies
They'd be all you'd ever find
And that'd be all you'd have to know
For me to be fine//
You lied to me. You told me that you didn't want him, but I knew better.
But I let you lie. I let you lie to me and to yourself. I kept hoping that
maybe, just maybe, it would come true. If you told me that you loved me
enough times, that it would be true again. But that was stupid wasn't it?
Saying things over and over doesn't make them true. I can't even remember
how many times you said you didn't want him, and we both know how that
turned out.
//Yeah....
And you'd cry a little
Die just a little and baby I would feel just a little less pain
I gave now I'm wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me//
Are you even crying because you lost me, or are you crying because you
think you should. Are you even crying? Do you even care? You want me to
stop hating you, I don't even know if I do. I know that I still love you,
and that makes me hate you.
//Give it up baby I hear your good-bye
Nothing's gonna save me I can see it your eyes//
Are you with him? Of course you are, but I asked anyway. Hoping for that
comforting lie I've become so accustomed to. Hoping I was wrong about
everything. I'm not as smart as you Rory, but I'm not blind. I was hoping
for a miracle, but I guess I only get one per lifetime. And my miracle was
you. That you loved me. Once.
//Some kind of heartache Darlin' give it a try
I don't want pity I just want what is mine//
He doesn't deserve you. He won't treat you the way I did. He won't love you
the way I did. He can't, but you want him anyway. He's trouble. He'll never
make you happy, and you know that, but you don't care. You want him anyway.
//Yeah...
Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I gave now I'm wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me//
I want you to feel bad. I do. You deserve it. I want you to hurt, I want
you to hurt exactly the way I am hurting. I hate you for what you've done
to me, but I still love you. I don't want to, but I do. Do you care enough
to feel bad? Or are you just so happy that I made your choice for you?
//Yeah...
Could you cry just a little for me//
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