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She sat on one side of the bench, waiting for him to approach her. She patiently waited for a few minutes... and eagerly watched him as he finally stood up. He was approaching her, she thought. But just directly behind her stood another girl almost of her age, smiling the way she would've done if he came towards her. They both smiled for a couple of minutes before they were eventually gone. As for her, she just remained silent, still staring at the corner they were before they left.
Since she realized that it was getting late, she took a pen and a paper, and decided to write before total darkness enveloped her, thus disabling her to do so. She thought of drafting her speech but instead, this was how her words came to be: Jonathan, It took me four long years before I realized that everything before me way back then was really over, that it was never meant to be. It was then that you came. At the verge of the pain I felt, you were there. You were eager to listen to all the fears that brought all my tears. You were ready to lend your shoulder for me to cry on. You made me feel special the way nobody else did. We were inseparable. Yet there was still a part of you I never knew. I never dared to ask how you really felt about me and that made me hold back the true feelings I felt for you since the day you stood for me. I kept pretending that I was just your friend, though deep in my heart you were more than special that I could not afford to give you up. I did not want to see you get hurt, for every time you did, I felt twice the pain you felt. I was always there for you when you needed me. I gave all I could to please you and to make you happy, for I did not want to see "us" end. I always enjoyed spending my time with you. You never failed to complete my day just by making a smile come out of my face. You always laughed at all the nonsense I said, though I was really being prosaic most of the time. You were able to bear with all the crazy and uneven moods I often brought along with me. Everything was seemingly perfect for us, not until the day you told me that you were falling in love with her, and that we were never anything more than friends. I was hurt, though I admit I was to blame for all the mess I managed to create. If only I had told you earlier how I felt, maybe then there would have been chances for "us" to be more than just friends. We could've been spending the rest of our lives together, but I guess, just like before, this was still not meant to be. I am now trying my best to let you go, for I know I can, just don't expect me to do that too soon. I hope you know this is not easy for me, especially now that I am again alone like before. Don't ever think that I am to replace you with another guy I barely know. I can never do that because it's still you alone who can fill the emptiness in my heart. I wish you all the good things in life for someone nice as you deserves all those. I hope we could still be good friends as you've always wanted us to be. I can never forget someone wonderful like you. You are a treasure to keep for a lifetime. Thank you for existing 'coz by effortlessly doing so, you've made a broken creature whole. I STILL LOVE YOU... AND I ALWAYS WILL... Arjanne Tears rolled down her cheeks. She wept for a love that was never hers. She moved on her way, unaware that not so far away he was watching her with awe... wishing he really knew her... SO THAT HE COULD'VE LOVED HER MORE... | ||||||||