I walk to school in the pouring rain, angry with Doug for refusing to give me a lift. As I round the corner to the school I see her. I don�t want her to see me. She can�t. I wouldn�t know what to say. So I rush into the school building and head towards my locker.

�There you are Pacey.� Andie approaches me from behind. Andie. My girlfriend. Had I forgotten about her through all of this? I hate that I forgot about her. She�s so important to me.

�You are completely soaked.�

�You�re telling me.� I agree as I rush to get my books for first period.

�Where did you get to last night?� she asks. Last night. Don�t remind me of last night.

�Home.� I lie and bolt down the corridor before she questions me about it. It had all been innocent, that much I swear. I never meant�I never meant for anything to happen.

�What�s wrong?� I ask. She�s sitting on Dawson�s dock crying. Jack, Jen, Dawson, Andie, Joey and I had all been inside having a movie night when Joey walked out. Half an hour later and she still hadn�t returned so I stepped out to check on her. This is what I found.

�Nothing, I�m fine, go back inside.�

�I don�t believe everything�s fine Jo, and on account of that, I�m staying.� I take a seat beside her and wonder when she�ll speak.

�You ever going to tell me what�s wrong?�

�Nope.�

�Fine.�

�Shut up.�

�I didn�t say anything!� I protested.

�Well go away.�

�I think we just established that that was not an option.�

�Make it an option.�

�I don�t think you understand this Potter. I am your friend. And in possessing that title, I can�t in good conscience leave you alone when you are crying. A good friend would never do that.�

�And since when did you become the dutiful friend Pacey?� She snapped.

�I guess when you stopped looking.�

�Look, I don�t need a friend right now ok? What I need is to be left alone!�

�You may feel that way now, but believe me, from experience, that is never the best thing. So why don�t you just tell me why you�re crying so that we can make it home in time for Ed. You know I won�t leave until you do.�

�Okay, okay.� She gave in. �It�s just�well�y�know?�

�Dawson?� I guess. She nods solemnly and looks up at me.

�I know it�s pathetic and that I should be over him by now, especially given that I was the dumper and he was the dumpee, but��

�I understand Jo. I really do. And it�s completely normal. Trust me.�

That�s all I was trying to do. I was only trying to be a good friend and make her feel better, I swear. I guess looking back; I know that�s not entirely the truth. As I said, if only I�d seen it coming!

I see him stare at me outside the school building then bolt inside when he realises I�ve noticed. I can see the future now, us avoiding each other for an eternity all because of last night. Last night. Ughhh! I don�t want to think about it, I just don�t. but as Dawson leaves me alone so that he can talk to Jen, I can�t help but remember�

�What I need is to be left alone!� I tell him when he just won�t give up.

�You may feel that way now, but believe me, from experience, that is never the best thing. So why don�t you just tell me why you�re crying so that we can make it home in time for Ed. You know I won�t leave until you do.�

Ed? Who watches that show? Isn�t about a bowling alley?

�Okay, okay.� I give in. �It�s just�well�y�know?�

�Dawson?� he reads my mind.

�I know it�s pathetic and that I should be over him by now, especially given that I was the dumper and her was the dumpee, but��

�I understand Jo. I really do. And it�s completely normal. Trust me. You are far from pathetic, he meant something to you and just because you broke it off with him doesn�t mean that you still don�t care about him. You just have to try and not feel guilty about it Jo, because I know that�s what he�s doing, he�s trying to make you feel guilty and you don�t deserve to. You made a choice that all of us have to make at some stage and you shouldn�t feel guilty for that.�

�But I hurt him, how can I possibly�?� I find myself lost for words when I realise he�s staring at me.

�Pacey? What are you thinking about?� I ask. Without taking his gaze off me points to the rowboat.

�I�m thinking about how much I would just love to row the hell away from here. You with me?�

�Definitly.� I smile. We climb into the rowboat and Pacey takes the oars.

�So�where to?� He asks.

�Home Jeeves.� I whisper. A huge grin spreads over his face and he begins to row.

�Yes Miss Daisy.�

We row in silence for the entire journey. I�m looking at the stars and I can feel Pacey is looking at me. I wonder what could possibly excite such intrigue in me and try to shake off the weird feeling that is growing over me the entire time. Eventually temptation gets the better of me and I look him in the eyes. There is something behind them that makes me desperately want to read his mind, while at the same time, dreading what he may be thinking.

We dock and he holds out his hand to help me out of the boat.

�I can manage.� I snap.

�Well excuse me.� He bites back.

Without any warning, he pulls me into a kiss.

I maintain he took me by surprise, because had I not frozen in shock, I definitely would not have kissed back. I�m going to hell, aren�t I?