I�ll always think back upon our time together fondly. When we were only four or five, the three of us would run around the playground together. I�d tease Joey, and you�d try to stop me. We had this perfect dynamic, the three of us. Somehow we�d all been thrown together in this odd group and we�d made the best out of it; Joey and I being the social outcasts of Capeside and you being the dashing hero, always ready to save the both of us. We all saved each other in many ways, as Joey and I kept your feet firmly placed on solid ground.

There were no secrets. If I told you I�d be at your place for movie night, you knew I�d be there. We shared everything together and the very notion that something could tear us apart seemed ludicrous.

Everything we experienced, we experienced together. You getting your first dog, and having it hit by a car only months later, Joey buying her first bra and refusing to wear it, me running away from home and walking aimlessly around the block because my parents wouldn�t let me cross the street.

Thinking back on all those times together, I know I have you and Joey to thank for even making it through.

That day out in the woods when I brought Doug�s fishing knife, having �borrowed� it for a time. Joey wanted to come with us and you didn�t have the heart to say no. So the three of us found a small place to camp and stayed over night. When I suggested being blood brothers you thought it was a great idea. �What films are made of�, you said. Joey didn�t think that way. She thought we were insane. She couldn�t understand how we could cut ourselves to make some lame ass promise to one another�but that didn�t stop her from joining in.

�I do so solemnly swear, to always be your best friend, from now until forever.� Ok, so the speech I wrote was a little on the cheesy side. But it was the thought that counted. Even Jo thought it was sweet.

We were so young then. I can�t believe how fast it has all come and gone. Yesterday we were swinging our legs off your dock eating your mom�s brownies and today we are adults, our childhood a distant memory.

We were always together. Day in, day out, and we never thought it would end. I remember one day when this big kid teased you for carrying an ET folder and Joey and I beat the s.hit out of him. We stuck together. If one was hurt, the others were too. It was like we were three parts of a whole. A whole that could never be tarnished, much less broken.

It never ceased to amaze me how much our friendship could endure and still remain intact. I was never supposed to fall in love with Joey. She was never supposed to fall in love with me. We were to stay those wide-eyed innocent children that we were that day in the woods.

And who could forget the PSAT debacle?

�If we�re gonna beat the crap out of each other, it should at least be over a chic.�
How true those words turned out to be. The very day I woke up and realised my feelings for Joey, I rang you. I rang you and you told me about some documentary you�d seen the night before. I tried so hard to suppress my feelings. All I wanted was for everything to be the way it was. The way that it was supposed to be. The way that was right. You, me and Joey; the three musketeers. No one feeling more or less for any others, no one feeling betrayed, no one in love. But as Joey always says, things have to change. People move forward and they grow apart�and some things grow together.

The year after the mess that was our senior year, your father died. After all that had happened between us who would�ve thought that our friendship could still be so strong, that I�d be one of the sole comforts for you. Me and Joey that is. Days like those make me realise how very lucky I always was and still remain to be. I had you and Joey in my life. I had friendships that many others can only dream of. I had a family outside the dysfunction that was my own. You are the brother that helped me through life Dawson.

It�s strange how things turned out between us. Then again, it all worked out just as you�d scripted, except that I�m with Joey. You became the box office wonder that we all knew you�d become. And Joey really made something of herself. She�s an amazing lawyer. I watch her in court sometimes and I get shivers down my spine, she�s incredible. The part I can�t figure out is how I became a singer. I could never sing. Remember how I tried to sing �New York, New York� for the beauty pageant? You and Mitch talked me out of it. Now I�m making money for doing something oddly similar.

We live so many miles apart but I can still feel your presence whenever I watch a good movie or feel like analysing things to death, much like now.

�Growing older doesn�t have to equal growing apart.�

�Some how it does.�

And it did, for us anyway.

That promise made all those years ago still lies close to me.

�I do so solemnly swear, to always be your best friend, from now until forever.� Forever isn�t here yet Dawson and I want you to know that I am still here for you. I saw you that day, at Joey�s and my wedding. You stood up the back, thinking we couldn�t see you. I saw you smile. I never thought you�d come, and Joey didn�t believe me when I told her. I guess she believed you were still hurt. And if you are, I am truly sorry. But sometimes we have to do what we know is right for us, even if that means losing some thing as amazing as our friendship along the way.

But if I could have even one moment with you back, one laugh, one hug, one word�I would give anything.