| My thoughts on Love and Friendship |
| When it comes to love, I am a die hard romantic. I have always believed that there was that special someone out there for me. In the past, I would get frustrated because I wasn't sure about the details. Had I already met this person? If not, when and where would I meet this person? And so on and so forth. I have been lucky to have had men in my life that I have loved. I have fallen in love a few times. Everyone I have ever loved has taught me something about life and about myself. I have learned with time that there are different ways falling for someone can come about-and how it can change your life. And I am happy to have had the chance to grow from these experiences. I am now very happy with my honey, my soulmate...my one and only, my Charlie. Charlie has the truest heart but has at times let life's hardships muddle what his life could be. The love he has for me and the kids has made him a stronger and better man. He is our world and we are his. I wish this kind of love for everyone as It is the best. The path we have traveled in our time together has not been one that is smooth, but we know that we are meant for one another. I wanted to write on here about the love I feel for Dylan and Aaron. I have always liked kids but I didn't know how it would be dating someone who already had two of his own. I instantly loved them and with time, they loved me . It amazes me how close we have become.. They are very spirited young boys and I hope the future with them and us is a good one. A quick note here to say what all who know me already are aware of. The love you feel for one you give birth to is unbelievable. I feel as if the whole time Kaitlyn was growing inside of me, I was growing too. And not just physically but emotionally and spiritually. I know that since her birth, I have made a lot of changes to the way I look at life and how I handle varying situations. I adore my little princess. I wrote on Kaitlyn before I had Logan. It was a different pregnancy with him because of Kaitlyn's birth. I remember feeling that sense of relief and absolute joy when I heard his screams once he was born. I asked Charlie if he was okay and the big grin on his face gave me my answer. Logan has also changed my life. Both of my children have taught me invaluable lessons. Children are blessings and my mother's heart is overcome with love. |
| I also wanted to take this space on the page to thank all of those people who have impacted my life through friendship. It isn't easy for me to allow people to get close and those few who have are truly special. Each friend contributes something different to my life. Special thank you's at this time go out to my Tina for being that one person who knows me inside and out..until that day when we are old in the rockers reflecting on life. blessing. To Sarah who now has stepped up from being my sister to also being a friend. To Missy M. who is always there to listen to me-and if you ask can attest to the fact that I ramble and often times make little sense yet she still listens. To Jenn who keeps me grounded, makes me laugh, and is just plain awesome. To Nikki who has a no nonsense attitude on many issues but is the sweetest girl and a great friend. To my friends in the HIESC Support Groups...you are truly priceless in the ways you have been there for me during these troubling times. To my daughter Kaitlyn who has an enduring spirit and has inspired such love and hope. As Tina had wrote me, she has brought strangers together and is truly our little miracle. To Logan who gives me butterlies in my belly when he giggles and has shown me many aspects of life in wasn't sure I would be able to experience. He is my little man who I adore. |
| "Real love will devastate you. If love does not shatter you, You do not know love." |
| "Never frown because you never know who is falling in love with your smile" |
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