I was thinking it might be interesting to write a little on how I have been feeling throughout my pregnancy. The first month I didn't know I was pregnant so hard to pinpoint any exact feelings there. The second and third months were not fun as far as sickness goes. I had trouble keeping much of anything down. I believed the baby hated me. Seeing the ultrasound during the fourth month was touching. The baby was moving around and so much bigger than my initial ultrasounds. Also being able to listen to the baby's heartbeat made it more real for me. My hormones have gone haywire. I am up one minute and down the next. But life is stressful at times so that lends a part. I am excited to be a new mother but afraid too. There is so much I don't know about. I want to make sure that I am a good mom. I guess that is my main concern. That I am able to provide enough stability and love for this baby. I worry quite a bit about labor. I can't imagine it quite yet. Everyone who knows me knows I am not good at handling pain and that in and of itself terrifies me. But this baby will come regardless of that. It is fun for me to keep getting more baby stuff. I have the stroller, car seats, some bibs...etc. It makes everything more real. I am starting to show now so that is fun for me. I want to feel the baby kick. I keep hoping for that. I read to the baby. I think that is good. I talk to him/her all the time. I say her but it could be either. If it is a him, I hope he doesn't hold that against me. I doubt it though because my mom thought Katie was a boy because of all the movement and she is indeed a girl. Pregnancy is an experience all its own that is a fact. I think I will end with that and write more when I can. The baby is moving a lot more. Today I had an ultrasound and the lady said she thinks it is a girl. This is what Charlie and I want. But it is not a guarantee. But what is these days. I am getting more excited but also more nervous. Such changes are in store. I hope that I can be a good mother. That is what concerns me now. I am now two weeks away from my due date. The baby fascinates me...worries me just as much. My tummy resembles a roller coaster most of the time. I am huge. I have seen bigger but I am much bigger than before. I am anxious for labor and delivery. All I can do now is wait. I had a wonderful baby shower. Lots of friends and family, lots of fun. Took all my energy. Got lots for the baby too. I have decided on Caitlin Lee for a girl and Logan John for a boy. I guess time will tell with that. I am sure I will write more on here. Nothing in the world could have prepared me for what was to come. Kaitlyn Lee Walker entered the world on November 27th, 2002.
Kaitlyn's story can be found on her website which can be accessed below. My pregnancy with Logan was different, that is all included within the journal history at Kaitlyn's site.
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