| Prolougue------Confessions |
| Jessica Rodrigues dried her tears for what she hoped was the last time. Two months ago her boyfriend of year told her he couldn't see her anymore because he was still in love with his ex. She was totally heartbroken. No matter how hard her or her friends tried she just couldn't act like her old self again. She loved him so much, he always told her that he loved her but apparently it was all a lie. It was always so hard being away from him when he toured, he called and wrote to her everyday. Jessica visited him everyday but her being a college student limited her visiting days. If you haven't figured it out by now her boyfriend was a musician. He was in a "vocal group". Not just any group he was in one of the biggest vocal groups (a.k.a. boyband) in the world. He was a backstreet boy. Which one? He was the one with the pelvis thrusts that drove the girls crazy. He was the one that changed his hair color everyday and had all those crazy tattoos. But to her he was just Alex, her Alex the most sweetest most kindest and love-able person should would ever meet. She loved him so much and thought the feeling was mutual, she was obviously wrong. They met when she was 16 (she's 19 now) and he was 19 (he's 23 now). Her best friend Vivian (she's a singer) used to open for the backstreet boys a few years ago (she was 16 she's now 19) introduced them, well really she introduced her to all 5 members of the group but her and AJ stared a real tight friendship. A friendship that lasted two years until Jessica became 18 (legal) and AJ asked her out she obviously said yes. That relationship lasted one year. The best year of her life until that one day. The backstreet boys had just finished touring and were finally coming home. They all lived in Orlando. Brian and Kevin lived with their wives and Nick Howie and AJ lived by themselves. Although Jessica practically lived in AJ's house even when he was on tour she stayed there sometimes. She did though live with her best friend Vivian in her house which was like 5 minutes from AJ's house so it all worked out. She was so happy about finally seeing her baby, she hadn't seen him in about 6 weeks. She just wanted to tell him how much she loved and missed him and for her to hear the words back. She had a class though so couldn't meet him at the airport. Her class that day seemed unusually slow, when it was finally over at 3:00 she ran to her car and sped away to see her boyfriend, only god knew how much she missed him. When she finally got to his house she fumbled with the keys he had given her and fianally managed to get in the house without breaking the door down. Then she saw him, he was sitting next to a picture of herself and him on there 2 month anniversary when he took her to Disney world. He stood to greet her and she went over to him and hugged him and told him how much she loved/missed him. But when she went over to kiss him he pulled back. A look of surprise and confusion quickly formed on her face. "sweety what's wrong?" she asked afraid of the answer. Did he stop loving her? Did he find someone else? al these questions and fear started jumping in her head "Jessica we need to talk." He led her to the living room and sat her down. "I don't know where to begin." "start from the beginning" she replied now growing serious/scared. "Jess you know i love you. You mean a lot to me, god this is so hard, I I I can't see you anymore, I'm sorry." She just sat there not knowing what to say or do, so she just sat there. Dumbfounded. She couldn't believe Alex the love of her life just broke up with her, so she just sat there hoping to god this was all a dream. Those few minutes were like hell to AJ. He didn't expect her to react like this he expected he to cry to scream to something, but not this anything but this. "Are you ok?" she just looked at him like that the stupidest question anybody could ever ask her. "How the hell do you expect me to be ok?" "I'm so sorry..." "why?" "excuse me." "Why did you brake up with me? you never told me" He didn't want to tell her. She was terrified of the answer but she had to know what she did wrong. "Well? What the fuck happened?" she asked now rising her voice. He took a deep breath and hoped to god she would somebody be able to forgive him, he slowly started the story. "two and a half months ago i got a call from an old friend, an old girlfriend she said she wanted to talk to me in person. We started catching up and i started having feeling for her again. Apparently she felt the same way because one day she told me our friendship had to end because i had a girlfriend and she didn't want to come between us. I told her that i had feelings for her and she told me the same. " Jessica couldn't believe what she just heard, slowly tears started forming in her eyes. So he did meet someone. He loves her not me she thought. He apparently wasn't done. "over the time stuff happened and we eventually" he couldn't say it just looking at her made him feel lower than dirt. He wanted so badly to make all her pain go away but couldn't, it was too late. She shaking uncontrollably and tears just kept coming out of her eyes. She couldn't take it anymore. "eventually what? Did you sleep with her is that it? Did you fuck her brains out?" She was obviously pissed. "I'm so sorry." was all he could say. " How could you. How the fuck can you screw her then tell me you love me.. For god's sakes Alex how could you do that to me?" He just sat there silent he frankly couldn't answer that question. He seriously did care about Jessica but he did love... "who?" His thoughts were interrupted by Jessica. "who the fuck is she?" "Amanda." She couldn't believe what she just heard. |