| Chapter 3---Back to your Heart |
| Jessica and AJ had gone back to his house to talk. On the way there nothing was said. Jessica ate her food silently asking herself why she was there but then knowing the answer. Her and AJ had gone through way to much. She knew she didn't love him anymore. She's known that for a while. But that was the fact that scared her. She had heard of the backstreet boys back in 1993 when they first came out and she had an immidiate crush for the "bad boy" of the group AJ. For as long as she could remember she always had him on her mind. But when it all ended she was devistated. But she was fine now. It took her a while to realize it but she was fine. She still cared about Aj she just didn't love him anymore. AJ on the other hand was trying to figure out what he was going to say to her. He didn't want to mess this up. He just couldn't. He messed up once he hoped he didn't mess up what would probably be his last chance. He parked his car in the garage and she followed him in. The door in the garage was connected to the one in kitchen so Jessica took the opportunity to throw away the food there. They went inside to the living room.Jjessica was surprised to find that all her pictures were still up. She started to look at the one taken a year and a half ago. Before they started dating. They were at Kevin's pool party. They were wet and they looked like a mess but they were having fun. Right after the picture was taken by Brian, Aj pulled her inside the pool. They then proceded to have a water fight. She smiled at the thought. She really did miss him. "You want something to drink " She was startled. she forgot that he was there. "no thanks." "AJ can i ask you something?" "Anything" "how come my pictures are still up?" "I never wanted to take them down." "why?" "because i love you to much." There he said it. She looked up at him. That was not what she expected to hear. "what did you just say?" "i said i love you Jessica. I never stopped and never will stop loving you. And i know i made a mistake a huge mistake but Jess please find it in your heart to forgive me. I regret what i did J. Please give me another chance." "What! Look AJ i really don't think getting back together is the answer to all this. I mean we have to talk." "Alright i'm sorry. Let's talk." "Alright now can you please tell me what actually happenned between you and Amanda you never did tell me." "right. Well i basically made the biggest mistake of my life. I cheated on you Jess and there no excuse for that. So I hope that you could find it in your heart to forgive me. we can take it slow if you want but please let me back into your life, and maybe hopefully back into your heart." He was looking straight into her eyes. Those beutiful brown eyes that he loved so much. The same eyes that he could now see the love that was once there, didn't exist anymore. That hurt more than anything. But he was going to get her back. No matter what the cost he was going to get her back. Jessica couldn't help but look into those puppy dog brown eyes that she just couldn't get enough of. She could still see the love he had for her there. She couldn't stop heself from thnking that maybe it could work. Maybe she should give him another chance. But that wouldn't be fair for him or for her. She may not love him anymore but she still cared for him, she couldn't do that to him. "I still love you Jessica" AJ said. "Alex, i care about you i really do. But i don't love you anymore. When you told me you cheated on me i was hurt. You hurt me AJ. And i can't go back out with you knowing you still love me but i don't return does feelings i'm sorry. The only thing we can be right now is friends." "Alright. I told you we can take it slow, and if the only thing i can give you right now is friendship then ok." "I better go." "I'll take you" "You don't have to i can walk." "I don't mind" "Let's go then." They got up and AJ out of habit grabbed her hand. He felt electricity run through his body. She could always do that to him. To his suprise she didn't let go of his hand. He wondered if she felt the same way. If she could feel the electricity. Probably not. He answered his own question. But he was wrong. Jessica did feel it. It was like they were starting over. She knew if she got to close she would end up loving him again, probably end up getting hurt again. She couldn't let that happen. But yet she couldn't bring herelf to get her hand out of his reach. Maybe i could give him another chance. She thought. She'll have to think about it. They held hands the entire way to there. Jessica couldn't help but have a small smile plastered on her. Maybe it could work. Maybe, just maybe. Next Back Home Back To story Back to Fanfiction |