Today is the tenth. yep all day. I have nothing to say so I'm just going to talk nonsense for awhile. Julia and Kris are playing 52 card pick up and we are going to go see a movie. Adam and I went to a Christmas party tonight. They had all the pizza venders in town there serving pizza and subs. It was great. Also they had free beer, champaigne, and soda. We decided to not partake of the beer and champaigne. Yeah, we didn't win the door prizes or the money drawing. Rats! That would have been cool. So I have about and inch and a half to kill before I need to archive my journal. So What should I talk about? I have a cold... I took these pills for cold and now I feel a little lite headed. Okay you know what? I don't have anything to say and you know the saying about having nothing to say...
So Today was a day that gave me many stories. I laughed a lot, really. At work this funny little man from Japan came in selling laser tin foil pictures as a fundraiser for missions work. I'm such a softy when it comes to things like that. Anyway as I was choosing my picture this man & I were conversing and he suddenly asks "where are you from?" I pause and answer "Well, from here." he replies "oh well you have a very lovely tounge" Wow, did that through me for a loop. It took me a second to realize that he meant my accent. I almost started laughing at him, but I didn't (be proud of me). I waited until he left. I forget that people have a different way of speaking in other countries and what they say doesn't always translate to english well. Anyhow, that's neither here nor there ... just a funny story. Alrighty then, I don't think I have too much to write about (the other stories would take to long to tell, so if you're curious you'll just have to ask me!). I went to lunch with my friends Will & Amy who are visiting from Italy where they are stationed. I can't believe how much I missed them. But we were able to pick up practically where we left off. One thing that is worth mentioning, I tried Rocky Mountian Oysters at lunch yesterday! Yuck it sounds terrible and its hard to get past knowing what you're eating but they weren' too bad. Not that I will every eat one again! Its an experience I can tell my kids and grandkids about. I need to go I'll write again soon.
In my mind I am struggling through so many things. Sometimes I just want to sit down and give up, crying. Life is so frustrating it makes me sick and I wonder why once, just once, my life couldn't be uncomplicated. I know God never promised easy sailing for our lives but I am running out of hope and faith at the moment. I have to struggle to make ends meet and make hard choices of what I can sacrifice and what is absolutely necessary to live. I know God expects us to trust in Him for everything but at the same time we aren't to lay around waiting for God to take care of us. So when do I overstep that line for doing things on my own and trusting God to take care of things? I know this must sound very childish but I'm so frustrated with myself and a little with God. According to the bible God has a plan for me, one to make me prosper and not to hurt me but really, I'm not seeing the good here. Perhaps I just need to relax, look at this from a different perspective. Maybe things will look different in the morning.
I had a good thanksgiving yesterday. Our family got together (minus my uncle and cousin who were ill) along with the Freiers and the newly wed Maders who might as well be family. We didn't fulfill one of our traditions this year (bowling) due to everyone being tired. Which is too bad because I was really looking forward to it this year. Oh well there is always Christmas! At one point during the day I had to sit back and remind myself what I was thankful for and why. Its easy to let a bad attitude slip in with out realizing you let it get there. But I have plenty to be thankful for: my freedom to worship God, Having a relationship with God, My family, my friends, a home , a job, IV, and I could go on and on. I won't though, not here.
Today I wanted to stay in bed and not get up for work but responsibilty won out and I made it here. Only its very slow and I'm the only one here right now. That just never happens. Its always busy. I guess that's something else to be thankful for because I'm tired and I think I would completely mess up anything I tried to do.
I got an interesting email today from someone I obviously don't know or at least hope I don't know. It was about my website and this fellow decided that my website wasn't up to par on his level. Here is my message to you (I know you'll probably be back to see if I took your advice) I am a novice when it comes to computer programing and/or graphics. You may well be right that my format needs to change, but that isn't the point of my website. I don't care if my site looks like a five year old put it together. My purpose with this site is to allow my friends and family the ability to keep updated with my life and to express myself in my journal. It serves a practical means to do all of that. I am not out to win awards for my website. But sir, if you have any suggestions on how I can improve this site than by all means share them with me (this is why I have a contact page). I'd be happy to go over them and see if they could work with me and my personality, not to mention my ability to actually update your suggestions. This site is always a work in progress. Thank you for taking the time to check out my site.