Title:
Don't Fear the Reaper
Author: Ajay
Rating: PG ish for language.
Disclaimer: All characters in the BtVS
and AtS verse
belong to Josh Whedon and others who are
not me. I
just take them out for a walk sometimes.
Okay, so I
forget to Spike back on occasion but who
wouldn't
forgive me that?
Warning: Ummm, don't wanna do this but,
character
'death' and a little Buffy bashing.
Description: Post 'Fade Away' a wish is
made, a wish
is granted and everyone will pay.
Author's note: To everyone who reviewed
my first fic
'And the Beat Goes On' I appreciate all
the positive
feedback. Several of you asked for a fic
giving
Spike's viewpoint on the subject. I will
work on that
but for now this plot has had me tied in
knots for
awhile so I need to get it out of the way
first. Oh,
yeah. Please review and let me know if I
should
continue.
Many thanks to Ghosts Forge for the
amazing beta.
And special thanks to BOC for recording
'Don't Fear
the Reaper' which contains my all time
favorite guitar
riffs.
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Chapter One
In the library of a large manor in
of the former residents of
interrupted when two figures suddenly
appeared in the
middle of the room. A blonde woman seemed
to stand
behind a male figure. The man was blond
also, hair
bleached to an unnatural white. He was
dressed in a
very familiar manner, a long dark coat
fell to each
side of the chair he was perched on.
The youngest female in the room walked up
to the
figures to find that the hand she had
stretched out to
touch her former friend went right
through the two
figures, distorting the image a little.
"It's a hologram."
"Yes, I agree with Andrew. Although
I'm unsure where
it is coming from it does appear to be a
projection of
some kind." The older man took off
his glasses and
briskly polished them.
"But, is it real? I mean, Spike died
in Sunnydale.
How could he be...?" The redhead
trailed off turning
to look at the woman at her side.
Buffy stood there with wide eyes, tears
threatening to
fall from the lower lids. She slowly
approached the
image, running her hand across the hair
of the male
and down his face. She suddenly snatched
it away and
turned to the others in the room.
"This is beyond cruel! Who would
want to torture me
like this? He's not here. He can't be, he
made me
leave him behind!" She noticed
Andrew trying to hide
behind Xander. "What do you know
about this, Andrew?
Talk or I'll take your head off!"
She grabbed his arm
and pulled him into the center of the
room.
The young man threw a desperate look at
Giles. He had
reported his experiences in
superior as soon as he returned. He had
made the same
guarantee to the senior Watcher that he
had given
Spike. None of the others would know that
Spike had
been resurrected. Now, he silently asked
the older
man what to do.
Giles took a deep breath before minutely
nodding his
head. He knew Buffy well. She would get
the
information out of Andrew one way or the
other and
he'd rather not have to bring medical
into the
picture.
Andrew swallowed audibly. "When I
went to retrieve
Dana..."
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The Hyperion Hotel in
quiet, depressing place. It was the
perfect home for
the one resident who currently held rooms
there. He
sat on the old couch in the lobby not
even looking
around just ruminating on his past.
Thinking about
his failures: Doyle, Cordelia,
Connor-although he did
still have a link to his son, losing
Fred, Gunn's
death as well as Wes'. He had no idea
where
had gotten off to after the fight and
cared even less.
Buffy and her group no longer trusted
him. Spike was
all that was left to him and he had
managed to drive
him away two days ago.
~'Why are you still here, Spike? I don't
need you
here and I sure as hell don't want you
around.'
'I'm here to help you, you ponce.
Remember, saving
the world, helping the hopeless? All the
hero rot
we're both supposed to be doing?'
'Bullshit. You've always been worthless,
you little
bastard, and that sure as hell hasn't
changed. You're
just hanging around waiting for my
leftovers!
That's all you've ever done.' He looked
at the sheen
of tears in the other man's eyes.
'Christ! Now
you're going to fucking cry like a little
girl? Go
ahead. Prove just how much of a nothing
you are.'
Spike simply nodded his head, turned on
his heel and
walked out the front door.
Angel had taken a deep breath. He had let
things get
to him and had taken them out on his
Childe, again.
He never meant half of what he said to
the blond and
now cringed when he thought of the ugly
words he had
just screamed at Spike. He gasped in
horror when he
realised it was daylight outside and the
other vampire
had walked out without protection. He
rushed to the
door and looked out but could see neither
the black
duster walking away, nor a pile of dust
where he might
have met his final death. He sighed.
Spike would be
back soon, he'd apologise and maybe
they'd be able to
figure out how to go on together.~
He waited on the couch for two days
thinking about
ways to make it up to his Childe. He
remembered when
he'd first turned Spike, having to
correct Drusilla's
misguided attempt. He had initiated the
young man in
the ways of vampire Lore, had taught him
everything he
needed to know and had shared hours of
passion. He
recalled the first time he took young
William to his
bed. Drusilla had wanted to watch but
Angelus, in a
rare moment of compassion for another
being had denied
her this after seeing the fear and
humiliation in
William's eyes.
The younger vampire had quickly learned
all of his
lessons and become as proficient a lover
as he was a
killer. If the gypsy's had not cursed
Angelus he and
Spike probably would be ruling the world
right this
moment. Angel didn't regret that the two
of them were
no longer killing any human in their path
but he was
racked with guilt that he had not given
Spike the
chance to show him the good that was now
in him.
No, that wasn't true. Spike had showed
him repeatedly
that he was now a warrior for good. Angel
had just
refused to acknowledge it. He had to show
Spike that
things could be different. If he would
just come
back.
The sudden appearance of the two blondes
in his lobby
startled him. He quickly realised that it
was an
illusion but he couldn't figure out how
it was being
projected.
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Spike threw his head back and snorted.
"Why don't you
just get on with it? Tell me what you
want and
dust me already!"
The blonde woman looked down at him.
" I already told
you I have no intention of killing you,
Spike."
"Whether you do personally, or have
someone else do
it, I'll still know it was you who was
responsible."
She walked around the table to take a
seat across from
him. Levelling flat brown eyes on his
face she
reached to take his hand only to have him
snatch it
back so violently he nearly turned his
chair over.
She sighed.
"Spike, I'm offering you a chance at
a different sort
of redemption. One away from these humans
that don't
appreciate you, from a Sire that won't
even
acknowledge you..."
"I was the one who denied him, not
the other way
around."
"He left you when he 'got a soul'.
Isn't that denying
you?" She tilted her head in a near
perfect imitation
of the man in front of her. "Then
you followed in his
footsteps: went to Sunnydale, helped the
Slayer,
fucked the Slayer, got a soul. But, you
outdid him,
didn't you? You died for the humans, for
Buffy the
Vampire Slayer and you wanted nothing
more than to
remain dead, didn't you? But, Lindsay
McDonald
brought you back, to continue in your
Sire's
footsteps. To be a 'hero' to the
people." She
smirked.
He growled.
"And he got stuck with you, didn't
he? He tried to
make you go away, offered to kill you for
the Black
Thorn, set you against
Are you sure your Sire didn't deny
you?" She stood
and walked behind the vampire. "You
know you'll never
be as important to him as anyone else is.
You were
never as good as Drusilla or Penn, Darla
always came
before you, and Buffy, Gunn, Lorne,
Cordelia, Fred
even Wesley, who betrayed Angel so deeply
that he
tried to kill him, they were all
considered more
important than you. Cherished far above
you. He
would have been so happy to have you die
in any of
their places, wouldn't he?"
Spike stood abruptly, pushing the chair
back into the
woman. "I would have happily died in
any of their
places. Angel knows that! If it would've
brought
Fred back I would have traded places with
her in a
second." He kicked the chair into
the wall.
"Charlie was a friend and Percy
became one of the few
people who ever treated me as an equal in
this life.
And, and if I could have died for Buffy
before I did I
would have! I'd do it again now if she
needed me
to."
The other occupant of the room took a
deep breath.
She had him exactly where she wanted him
to be. "Yes,
I know. Just as she does, just as Angel
does. And,
I'm giving you the opportunity to do just
that."
The audience sat there holding its
collective breath,
each of them silently praying. All of
them knowing
that the man in front of them had a
martyr complex a
mile wide.
The lone occupant of an old hotel in
in the lobby, blood tears rolling down
his face. The
bitch had the right of it. Everything
Spike ever did
was because of him. From his first kill
to the
predicament he now found himself in, each
moment could
be linked back to Angel. And, now it
appeared his
Childe was willing to give in to this
harpy. He was
letting the poison she was spewing make
the decision
for him. He never meant to make Spike
feel the way he
did. He just couldn't deal with the guilt
that
surrounded his relationship with his
Childe so he
placed all the blame on Spike. Now, it
looked as if
he was going to lose him just as he'd
lost every one
else that meant anything to him.
Spike threw the woman a calculated look.
He nodded.
"I'll take your deal, whatever it
entails. But..."
The classic squint, "I have a few
lasts requests."
"And, you want us to grant
them?"
"Can you? Can you guarantee that my
last wishes will
be fulfilled? If I give in. Give
up?"
She smiled, "Yes, I can. I have full
authority from
my higher ups to grant that."
Spike was skeptical but he was going to
go for it. No
matter what he knew he wasn't going to be
around much
longer. Why not try to go out with a bang
even if he
was the only one who knew about it?
He thought it over. Why not? "Fine,
then. First I
want some assurance that they'll all be
happy. All of
my family."
"Your family?"
"Don't be such a bitch! The Scoobies
and, and Angel."
"Angelus. So we're back to him. You
know that the
only thing that would make Angelus happy
is being with
Buffy, don't you?"
"Angel, not Angelus. And, yeah, I
know being with
Buffy would make them both happy, not
like I'm going
to be around for it to matter anyway, is
it? Besides,
that's not the ONLY thing that will make
him happy, I
just don't think you can do the
other."
She smirked. "And, what couldn't I
do?"
"Give him his family back."
She cocked her brow.
"Return Fred, Charlie, Wes and
Cordelia. Oh, yeah,
that first guy he lost, Doyle. That would
make me
Sire happy, it would."
"Are you sure? Buffy and his Crew?
Wouldn't that
make him too happy? Shouldn't you fear for
the rest
of your little Scooby family if that were
to happen?"
"It wouldn't." Spike smiled
sadly.
"Why would you think that?"
"Because, he'll always remember what
happened and just
brooding on that would keep him from ever
becoming
that happy again."
"Of course, being rid of you could
counterbalance that
and make him even happier, couldn't
it?"
Angel screamed and threw himself at the
projection in
the middle of the lobby. She had no right
to talk to
his Childe like that. Where the hell did
she come up
with this shit? He drew up short
realising that it
had been his own actions in the past that
had
presented that particular picture to
everyone.
Including Spike. He sat on the floor at
the feet of
the image of the younger vampire.
"I'm sorry, Will,
I'm so sorry."
Spike ignored her an idea suddenly
occurring to him.
"Dawn."
"What! It's no where near
daybreak."
"No, you stupid...Dawn Summers, lil
Bit. Dawn, happy.
The one thing that would make her the
happiest. I
wanted you to bring Joyce back. Glinda,
too." He
shook his head. "I mean
back for Dawn."
She laughed. "Spike, you do realise
that I'm humoring
you here, right? Don't get me wrong, your
conditions
will be met since I already gave my word,
but it isn't
really a requirement of taking you,
okay."
"In other words, you won't do
it?"
A long sigh. "Not won't. I can't.
Before you go off
again, yes I said I could return the
others with the
exception of Francis Doyle. The reason,
well, the
others were all taken outside of their
time by
supernatural means."
"But, Joyce died because of
Glory."
"No, Joyce Summers was predestined
to die at that
point in time no matter what. It had
nothing to do
with Buffy being the Slayer, or the Hell
God's
appearance or the monks' suddenly gifting
her with the
burden of another daughter."
"Burden? Who called Dawn a
burden?"
"Your precious Slayer. She's blamed
her 'little
sister' for her mother's death since it
happened."
"I don't believe you. Buffy
protected Bit. She loves
her."
"She protected her because she had
to. She's learned
to accept her but..."
"NO! You're wrong. She ..."
"Sacrificed her life blah, blah,
blah. Yes, we know.
Did you ever think that leaping off that
platform was
actually an easy way out for her? She wouldn't
have
to go through the pain of missing her
mother anymore,
wouldn't be burdened with an unwanted
sister, as well
as having the world depend on her to save
it from all
the big bads?" She laughed at his
expression. "She
was allowed to be resurrected because she
died an
unnatural death. Not to mention it was a
way to teach
her a lesson about living. She didn't
'come back
wrong' as you put it. She was wrong
before she leaped
into the void."
Buffy sank to the floor, stunned. Oh
shit. She
looked up to meet the heartbroken face of
the young
woman who had become her sister.
"Dawnie, it's not true. Not anymore.
I came to grips
with it long ago, really. I do love you.
You're my
sister, the only blood family I have
left."
Tears trailed from blue eyes, both the
ones in front
of the Scoobies and the ones in the
projection in the
middle of the room.
Spike didn't believe this evil bitch. He
knew that he
had made that promise, to take care of
Dawn, to a
Buffy who desperately loved her sister.
He refused to
believe anything else.
"After all she's done to you you're
still ready to
forgive her anything, aren't you? Hmm. Of
course you
are. You've forgiven Angelus."
"Let's just get back to the subject
at hand. What
about
did the Seer."
"Tara McKay died by the hand of man.
She was a victim
of the vagaries of human nature. While
her death was
not foreseen it cannot be undone without
revisiting
everything that happened since.
would have to answer for her actions in a
way that she
would not appreciate." That bloody
smile again. "Is
that what you want?"
"No. Red's paid for what happened.
And, she's moved
on, I guess." He was disappointed.
He would've
happily staked himself if he could have
seen Joyce one
more time, if he knew that she and Tara
were back
watching after his girls. "What
about Doyle? Why
can't he come back?"
"Doyle offered his life unselfishly
to save his
friends as well as the others that day.
Although it
was his choice, it would have happened
anyway. Angel
wouldn't have made it in time. Everyone
would have
died that day. So, Doyle changed the fate
of everyone
but himself."
"Then why the bloody hell was I
brought back? I
wanted an end! I went willingly, didn't
I?"
"Yes, you did. And, I'll even admit
you did it as
much for yourself as you did for Buffy
and the others
but you still had a purpose. You didn't
think that
Lindsay McDonald actually found the spell
on his own
did you? There had to be a reason for
bringing you
back."
"To help Angel with this latest
apocalypse? To stand
by idle while Fred died? To watch Gunn go
down
fighting? What was my purpose?"
"To come to this point in
time."
"You brought me back from death to
KILL me?"
"Once more, William Arthur Edward
Winstead, I am not
going to kill you. You're dead
already." She
laughed. "No more discussion. Here's
what's going to
happen. Buffy and her people will be all
'happy'.
We'll make sure they have successful long
lived lives.
You're woebegone Sire will get his
'family' back.
And, now it's time for you to pay the
agreed upon
price."
Spike huffed. "And, just take your
word that
everything will be all happiness and
light, eh?"
"Yes."
Everyone watching the illusionary play
screamed as the
woman picked up a wicked looking axe.
Several of
those present tried to throw themselves
into the
action, Andrew and Buffy knocked heads as
the figures
faded away between them.
Angel howled as his Childe disappeared
unaware that
the woman standing behind him was set to
strike.
No one saw the final act.
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She hadn't been in LA for a while,
wouldn't be here
now if it wasn't for a directive from
Giles. Not one
but three potentials in the same family.
She shook
her head. It was hard enough to explain
to parents
that you wanted to train their daughter
to fight
demons but to knock on the door, say
"Hi! I'm with
the Watcher's Council and I'd like to
recruit your
triplets as Slayers", was going to
be impossible and
probably dangerous.
She needed to let off some energy before
tackling
this. She stepped into an atmosphere of
loud music
and beer fumes. She still missed the
cigarette smoke
that used to accompany them. Yes, she was
a Slayer,
an adult and she was supposed to be a
role model for
the younger girls in her care. But, damn
she wanted a
smoke and a drink or three and she was
going to have
them.
Forty five minutes later she had downed
two beers and
spent at least half that time on the
dance floor. The
place had a variety of men and she had
danced with
most of them. She was headed out of the
rest room
when she collided with someone. She
looked down at a
dark curly head that was emitting a
hearty guffaw at
his predicament.
She reached a hand down to offer him help
to stand
back up. He raised his head and she
gasped. She
found herself looking into eyes she had
only seen this
close twice before. His laughter petered
out and he
cocked his head to the side to look at
her.
Faith finally found her voice.
"Spike!?!"