Indigo Eyes 4
“WHAT!” I shrieked at his proposition, scrambling away from Duo who still sat on the couch.
Duo looked alarmed at my reaction and hastily grabbed my hand before I got too far. “Please, Heero, listen to me,” he said, trying to sound soothing. “I… I just need someone to hold me tonight. I promise I won’t do anything, I… I just don’t want to be alone.”
The tone of his voice went from soothing to desolate. I could see his eyes pleading and the small tremor of his shoulders. Duo, my guardian angel, my knight in shining armor… He needed me now. Who did I think I was turning him down in his hour of need? I got up off the floor, still holding his hand in mine and hugged him. It didn’t matter that it was still afternoon, we didn’t live by the clock, if Duo wanted to go to sleep, then that’s what we’d do.
“Let me go change.” I said to him, making him smile. I’d do anything for that smile.
A short while later found us both in our sleepwear on Duo’s bed. I was slightly uncomfortable the Duo only slept in boxers, but with my being in sweatpants and a t-shirt, I felt marginally better.
I felt Duo’s arm snake around my waist and tensed up. He was warm and his movements were sure, making me a bit alarmed at where this was going.
“Heero,” he whispered, “If you’re that uncomfortable here, I can understand.” His voice was so fragile as if one wrong move on my part would shatter him.
“No, I’m okay,” I said, trying to sound convincing.
I then felt him move and held my breath. His arms wrapped around me and his head rested on my shoulder. I felt trapped, but Duo needed this more than I needed to be free.
“Why were you sitting all alone in that diner two weeks ago?” he asked quietly. The lights had been turned off and only a slight glow through the heavy curtains from the sun gave any sort of illumination in the room.
Had it really been two weeks already? Funny, I didn’t miss my old life at all.
“Heero?” He asked, his body shifting so he could look up at me.
I realized I hadn’t answered and sighed. “I was kicked out of the house,” I told him.
I felt him tense, “Why?”
“Because I told my parents I was gay.”
I felt the sharp intake of breath and tried to rub away the tense muscles on his shoulders. “Isn’t… wasn’t there somewhere you could go, a friend’s house maybe?”
I shook my head. “I didn’t really have any friends. I had a fiancée, whom I refused to marry, which is just as well because she resented me for being her betrothed and the one person I had some sort of friendship with is now overseas. He had to attend a funeral and I couldn’t disturb him for something like this.” I sighed. I hadn’t thought about this since I came to live with Duo. It was as if my old life had just vanished and was nothing more than a half-forgotten dream.
“I was kicked out too,” Duo said quietly, his voice broken.
“Do you want to tell me about it?” I asked, sensing that this was important for Duo.
He nodded and held me tighter as if I was some sort of overly large teddy bear that he had to cling to.
“When I was very little, I was orphaned and sent to live in a home. No one ever wanted me because I was too old and ‘no longer cute’ enough to merit a chance at having a family again. But the place that I stayed at felt like a family with Father Maxwell and Sister Helen always there, playing the part of parents to all the children. Then one night when I was about thirteen, there was a fire… The fire marshal said it was electrical and an accident, but that didn’t help anyone feel better. Few of the children survived despite the efforts of Father and Sister; they had all inhaled too much smoke. Because of their heroism, a memorial was built for them, but they didn’t survive.” Duo let out a shuttering breath and began trembling a little. I didn’t dare interrupt him because I knew there was more to come. “The ones that did survive were sent to different orphanages, but the one I got sent to, was a far cry from what it had been like with Father Maxwell.
“The man that ran the place was very strict and heartless. If you misbehaved, he’d beat you with his walking stick until you couldn’t cry any more. The one day, when I was fifteen, the man caught me being molested by a man who’d come to the place with his supposed wife to adopt a kid. Needless to say, they were denied a child. Professor G, as he was called, came to my room that night and beat me for what I had done. He told me that Queers were not to be tolerated in his institution and gave me rest of the night to gather my meager belongings and get out. So I did.
“I walked around aimlessly. I was tired and hungry with nowhere to go. I was only fifteen at the time and no one would give me a job at that age. Luckily for me I had managed to get a GED while I was with Professor G, otherwise, I’d have never finished High School.
“I don’t know what exactly I was thinking about when I ran into a handsome man with hair down to his thighs…Literally. My own hair had been long but it only reached the small of my back, his though, was like a curtain of golden silk. I apologized hastily and helped the man up, or maybe he helped me up, I can’t quite remember. In any case, he asked me out to lunch to apologize for running me over. I told him everything then, not knowing who he was and he gave me a place to stay. He was twenty when I met him and had his own apartment and everything. I didn’t know this at the time, but he was one of the two Peacecraft heirs. He took care of me and he set me on my feet. When he found out I had a passion for art, he sent me to study more on it and by the time I was eighteen, he set me up with a young but talented agent.
“Things have been good since then and I still visit him on occasion, but he was nice enough to sell me this building when I told him I wanted to make it on my own.”
I felt my heart beat faster, “Did you say Peacecraft?”
Duo nodded, “Why? Is there a problem?”
I licked my lips, “I…I was engaged to Relena Peacecraft.”
Duo looked up at me and laughed a little, “Small world isn’t it?” I felt Duo kiss my neck and tensed, “Don’t worry Zechs wouldn’t hold you to that engagement thing. I doubt he’d even care if you were betrothed to his sister.”
I nodded, willing myself to relax. I trusted Duo to keep his promise about not doing anything. “So you were kicked out of the house and given a place to stay by a handsome and rich benefactor too?” I said.
He laughed a little and nodded, “That’s why I sat with you in the first place. You looked like I felt the day I was thrown out of the home.”
“Thank you,” I said, hugging Duo to me. I don’t know what I’d have done had he not showed up.
Suddenly, a thought struck me, had Duo and Milliardo been lovers?
“Duo…”
“Mm?”
“Did you and… Were you and Milliardo lovers?” I asked.
His head lifted, he eyes peering up at me curiously in the semi-darkness. “Who’s Milliardo?” he asked.
“Milliardo Peacecraft, the man with the long, platinum gold hair.” I said.
Duo snickered, “Yeah, I’d change my name too if I were named ‘Milliardo’.”
“I’m not sure I’m following,” I said, a little confused.
“He goes by Zechs Marquise now and is the owner of several theaters and opera houses in the area,” Duo explained.
“Oh,” I frowned he still hadn’t answered and told him so.
“No,” Duo sighed. “We weren’t lovers. He had someone already.” Duo held me close, his lips brushing my neck, hair teasing my skin, and legs interlocked with mine. I was very aware of the fact that he could do anything to me right now and I wouldn’t be able to do a thing about it.
“You’re thinking too much,” Duo said in a tired voice. “I’m not going to molest you any more than I already am. I’ve been there and I know how unpleasant it is to be touched by someone that’s too old for you to ever want.”
“Duo!” I scolded, “You are not too old, so stop thinking it.”
“I can’t help it. I was always too old for anyone to want.”
I caressed his face, gathering the nerve to kiss his forehead, “I’m just very new to this… I… I’ve never been intimate with anyone and… and I… I just need a little more time.”
“Need time to get used to being in bed with an old man?” Duo said dejectedly.
He was really starting to infuriate me. How could such a handsome man have such a poor opinion of himself?
“Fine, have it your way.” I couldn’t help what came out next, “You’re an old man,” I saw pain flashing in his eyes and spoke out loud before my brain had even registered what I said, “and I need time to get used to the fact that old men turn me on.”
Duo laughed at this and kissed me soundly on the lips. I hadn’t been expecting it at all and had been caught with my mouth open. I hadn’t even realized that this had been the case until I felt Duo’s tongue in my mouth, teasing and caressing every crevice. He teased my tongue into moving and began sparring with it, making me moan in the unexpected pleasure of my first full blown kiss.
It seemed though that my moan broke the spell and the kiss. Duo stared at me in horror as I brought hand to my lips, my eyes wide.
“Heero… Heero, I’m sorry. I… I didn’t mean to get so carried away. P-please don’t leave me.” His voice was broken and tears threatened to spill from his eyes.
“I-” My voice was lodged somewhere in my throat, “I-”
Duo got on his knees on the bed, holding my hand and kissing it, “Please, Heero, you don’t have to sleep on my bed tonight, but please don’t leave me.”
“I won’t leave,” I promised.
He gave a choked laugh and hugged me tightly, “I’m so sorry, Heero.”
I hugged him back, rubbing small circles on his back, “Its okay, Duo… just unexpected.” Why was I being so easy? Jeez, Heero, I never knew you could be such a slut! I snapped at myself. But I’m not a slut… not really… I only let Duo touch me. Is that so wrong? “That was an excellent first kiss.”
Duo paled, “F-first kiss?”
I nodded, “Is something wrong?”
“I’m such an idiot… I’m so sorry Heero. I didn’t mean to steal your first kiss… I just thought… you’re so handsome, I thought you’d have already been kissed…I’m sorry.”
I shook my head, “Its okay Duo… you’re stressed… go to sleep, we’ll talk about it when you wake up.”
“Okay…” he said, not sounding convinced, “Are- are you going to stay with me?”
I nodded and patted the spot on the bed next to me, “I’m still here. Just rest. Everything will be better when you wake up.”
He got in bed and hugged me as he settled himself to sleep, “Thank you, Heero.”
Jess’ Rant:
There you go everyone. Next chapter up and ready for review. I’d like to thank everyone who takes the time to read and give me feedback, it’s very much appreciated. Oh, HAPPY NEW YEAR!