| Strawberry wine just likes the time I thought I had lost my mind But it was never mine to Begin with so nevermind What I said what did I say this time To drive you away? Im so lonely Im so alone This place has none of the comforts of home Purple carpet white walls No furniture no phone with which to call you To see what youre up to like youd Tell me anyway But I love you still even if I never Even get to hear your voice So beautiful and sonorous Hear you singing through telephone static Even though I chastised you for that habit I was wrong and I was a jerk but now I will do anything to make this work Ill slit my wrists Ill break my fists Ill do anything for a telephone conversation So I can hear the static silence while you Sing You ought to see me now I Wish you could see somehow Youd think me a living romantic or At least that I was a pathetic Wreck of mortality what I want you To see is me here now pure Thought hitting white paper in waves of messy ink And things about you are all I can think and I get this feeling in my chest that Threatens to kill me and tells me I need to rest And when my head hits the pillow I weep Like no willow ever could and I put my arm Around your beautiful body your gorgeous Flesh the memories still fresh on My mind when my skin feels the Sad coldness of my sheets I Know no time soon will I sleep---- And I remember you above me I remember how you touched me How you made me feel almost like I was somehow real I remember you hair falling all around me Tickling me as we plunged through ecstasy I remember you below me smiling up Eyes staring directly into mine I Relive that moment a million times And that feeling that hits in my chest! It moves And travels to my legs and I fall And travels to my ears as I burn to hear you call And travels to my fingertips oh my god to touch!!!! And to my heart please dear god its just too much And travels to my eyes how beautiful you are in that moment And travels to my memorynot many times better spent! And travels through me, breaking me down I would do anything to have you back around And that feeling hits over and over again Can things ever go back to the way theyve been? For the rest of my life I want no one else Everyone else is ugly in comparison And I would gladly sacrifice myself to Have you as my companion To have you back, to once More hear you sing Through the static---- My life in silence my life is static And I think Ive finally had it Up to here and I can hear You calling my name like you used to Like you used to love me And I remember you above me Listening to Siva and thinking euphoria Could never touch me like you And I feel your smell I can almost tell your mood by Your scent Ive never been This close to a friend and its My fault it came to this end this Sudden halt in the progression Of thought------ The songs on the radio only fuel me To think back further and write On farther---at least Im not alone But its no comfort when Im on my own And I know that Ive taken this to The utmost absurdity but You know me and I never want To have to say good-bye Perhaps because Im so afraid That one of us may die and never get another Chance to say hello ----- hello ----- Sing to me the songs of complete nonsense Siva and disarm whats the harm In remembering me? Plenty you say So I fade away but it was a HELL of A way to celebrate one year----- Siva and space boy and the morning light Pouring in on us as we looked into each other As no one else could nor ever again can and I cant understand why we Cant still be one like once before Nothing stops us but you, you say Fear and you Please please please come through Like your voice on the telephone Singing for Martha for me Through telephone static while I cried and I listened while I died. |