Glitter

You pushed me away just
because you know I needed you.
So I pushed you away
because
I thought that was waht you wanted me to do.
So here I am; Here I stand:
the victor of a barren land.
I did the best I could and it
was never good enough
for you: was there ever
any way I could've won?

Now I feel like you were against me
right from the beginning
and now I think I'm happy,
happy to be free,
but I wouldn't know
without you there to tell me so.

Your skin is so soft, covered with glitter,
and when I start to look back
things start to look a little bitter.
I can see the streaks left
by your tears
as you talked to me,
as you spilled out emotionally.
Did you feel you could trust me?

I pull back now, myself now covered with glitter as well,
and my tears leave no streaks
because i hold them inside:
God forbid you think me weak.