another no-show
wednesday, february 13, 2002
we distinctly agreed that i was to have my first radio show tonight, since i couldn't last week. did i? no! and i spent hours with the setlist, again. i'm secretly okay with the no-show, though. i want to rework the setlist a lot.
because of time restraints, i had to cut out lots of songs that helped paint the story of a doomed love relationship. out with the stalkers and murderers. poof. i'd like to work them back in. so. whatever. the setlist so far (will change, several tracks are being dropped or re-positioned):
valentine schmalentine
1. bjork--it's oh, so quiet
2. juliette lewis--hardly wait
3. lush--i wanna be your girlfriend
4. dead milkmen--punk rock girl
5. heather nova--walk this world with me
6. aimee mann--deathly
7. concrete blonde--when you smile
8. kylie minogue--can't get you out of my head
9. kate bush--hounds of love
10. pj harvey--this is love
11. lamb--gorecki
12. throwing muses--tar kissers
13. massive attack--teardrop
14. sarah mclachlan--ice cream
15. tanya donnelly--goat girl
16. smashing pumpkins--by starlight
17. the cure--burn
18. nin--we're in this together
19. david bowie--heroes
20. rasputina--diamond mind
21. portishead--sour times
22. pj harvey--who will love me now
23. fiona apple--get gone
24. rufus wainwright--april fools
(i have about 10 alternates, heh.) well WHATEVER. i'm just going to assume that the radio thing will never happen. that way if it does, it'll be a nice surprise. heh. besides. the setlist i really want to finish is the sex setlist.
i found myself putting aside sooo many songs that was originally for the valentines setlist because they fit "sex" as a theme better. and there are so many of them! (jeff buckley's "your flesh is so nice" always make me blush, though) oh la la. anyway. whatever.
in other news.. really, in other news what? i don't know. let's see. well, i've been e-mailing pretty much every day since november with what appeared to be a new friend. but then i stopped the other day. it was so weird. i feel fine.
i'm not hyper-funny, but i think i can be fairly entertaining in e-mails. not that it happens often, ha ha, but, y'know. sometimes. and so i'm writing e-mails and i think i'm funny and socializing and i get these one-liners back. what is that? i'm serious, what is that?
i write three paragraphs and get one line back: "Yes, go jamaca." .. i mean really, what am i supposed to do with that? so i did nothing because it just puzzles me. i could weave up a 3 page story about "jamaca" but i just dread another one-line response. so i guess.. radio silence? so odd.
it's the absence of upset that strikes me as funny. a natural stop to conversation that's flowed daily since november--that's funny. no ill will, no negative or positive feelings attached at all--just this gentle stop, it doesn't even cause my head to jerk back just a little.
people never seize to befuddle me. sometimes that's a good thing. sometimes it just makes me look for new shiny objects. i'm a fickle magpie. anyway. cin cin. �� 10:28 p.m.
