greentone
tuesday, may 29, 2001
i just got my NYC photo's back. nothing brilliant, but it's fun to see snaps of the drag queens from bar d'o, the maury show taping, postcard photo's off the top of the empire state building, the nbc entrance, the ed sullivan theater w/dave letterman signs, neat buildings, graffiti.. as i said, nothing mind blowing, but nevertheless, cool to have.
not many are scan worthy, but i'll put a few up later this week. there are two funny super close ups of me in my pink sunglasses a friend took of me to finish off the roll. they make me want to design a website, though (probably the usual white background, black text, but with 70ish pink and orange details), so that's something for me to do.
i'm incredibly lazy right now so anything to activate me more is welcome. last summer i spent over four months unemployed and it almost drove me bonkers. this complete sense of non-interest in anything, of being so stagnant and unconnected with anything becomes too much. it's a luxury complaint, i know, but waking up for another day of not getting excited by anything, just sitting, watching, thinking without any new threads, any new input can be devestating. with nothing to occupy your head, things fester.
see, for a while it is so exciting -- staying up all night to read a book in one sitting is fun, or getting hooked on late night series, or hell, day time series.. but eventually you are so still, so embalmed in not having anything to do that there aren't any books that hook you into reading them even for an hour, the shows all blend in, you get up later and later and forget what it feels like to get up early and feel energized by the shere fact that it's morning and you've got a whole day to DO things in..
heh. and to think - it's not even june yet. hooray for me?
