Waves crash over my body
as thoughts
tangle my mind.
A knot of fear
forms in my stomach
leaving me limp and gasping for air.
As I rise,
the scorching sun
violently
brings me back to distorted reality.
I flow to the foamy outlined shore,
but closer
the undertow rips me from firm ground.
Harsh words
are etched in my mind,
but the thought of open arms awaiting me
comforts the pain.
The thought fades from my mind.
I become intoxicated
by the scent of my burnt coconut skin
sprinkled with tropical air.
In thought,
the tight grip
loosens.
I become one with the sun.
The ocean, like so many
rejects me.
My body becomes the water,
my mind the sphere.
Again I sink.
My last strength pushes me
barely above.
In this whirlpool of emotion
I lose control
while the peaceful world
stays far from where I am afloat.