January-2009

Another year has gone by. This past year saw the loss of a most precious woman, Jenna's Grand Aunt Lorri. Lorri was an angel on earth and I can only imagine that she is at peace with Jenna looking down on us wondering why we are so sad.

The pain in my heart still exists, but is not apparent most of the time. It is carefully tucked away only making it presence known when days like her anniversary are at hand. Something has changed over time though. We know we can truly appreciate and enjoy life and be happy. That feeling comes from within; from a place I thought was lost with Jenna's passing. Our lives are constantly changing and moving forward. Knowing that Jenna and Lorri are helping us along in that process brings me peace and comfort.

Remember Jenna always. Share you love and take with you the knowledge that life can change in an instant. Never take one moment for granted. Love one another.....always.


January-2008

Five years have come and gone; five years since Jenna left this earth. It seems like such a long time and I can't even begin to find the words to express how it feels. A lifetime ago; a moment in time; a burden that has been molded into every part of my being; nothing really fits. Quite a few things have changed but the one thing I notice most is that we are enjoying life again.

Everything I do is overshadowed by what is missing. But the shadows cast are not as dark as they used to be and the light shining through has shown me joy and happiness that I never thought I would ever feel again. It is a genuine happiness.

Life has brought us so many twists and turns since Jenna became an angel. We are witness to the daily blessings of her sister whom I love in ways I couldn't possibly imagine. Nothing is a "given" anymore. Each moment, whether good or bad, is noticed and not one thing is taken for granted. While we have been blessed in so many ways, we have had struggles too. Everything is taken in stride; not for one day at a time, but instead one moment at a time.

My heart has mended some, but there is a scar there that will remain forever and it will carry the pain and the love I have for my Jenna. My dear sweet girl who will live in my heart always.

January-2007

On January 11, 2007, it will be four years since our little Jenna has passed. Despite our great sadness, our lives have somehow managed to continue on. Not a day goes by where Jenna isn't remembered or loved.

When you have a child your life changes drastically. When that child dies it completely changes again. You really have to learn how to live all over again. During Jenna's short life she taught me so many things. Now in death, she is still teaching me. My life lessons may have changed, but the growing process is still there. Isn't that what we do all of our lives? We grow; we learn; we love.

During my grief journey I have encountered some of the biggest hearts in the world. It is amazing what people do in honor of Jenna or in her memory. People want to do nice things for her. That shows me that my little girl is still making a difference in this world and it lifts my heart to know that.

While our journey of grief will never end, these days the road seems easier to travel. While we try not to think that far into the future, Kelley gives us so much to look forward to on the road ahead. She makes every step of this journey a little brighter than the last.

Jenna is never far from my heart and she is with me wherever I go. She helps me to live, love and laugh every day. Thank you Jenna for being one of the most precious souls I will ever know. Thank you for blessing me with your love. You are one of life's most treasured gifts.

From the bottom of my heart, I would like to thank you for remembering my precious little Jenna.

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