| "It's Not That" This is one of my most honest poems. I wrote it years ago, and it is about how I am in some relationships and how, for all people, small things represent larger issues. I read it now and see how in tune I was with myself even though I didn't realize it. |
| It's not that I don't want you to be right It's that I can't be wrong It's not that I don't want you to change It's that I don't know how to deal with a different you It's not that I don't care about your friends It's that I'm jealous and you don't have to prove yourself to me It's not that I wanted to tell people your secrets so they'd laugh It's that I'm embarrassed by mine It's not that I was mad at you for telling people I'm a virgin It's that I wanted the focus off of me It's not that I'm upset with you for saying you think I made her up It's that you found me out so easily It's not that I had more E-Mails to write It's that I didn't want you to think you could control me It's not that I really wanted to go bowling It's that I didn't want to let you get your way It's not that I don't or can't care for you It's that I won't allow myself to feel it |