| "Getting Closer" This is a poem about where I am in 2002. I know the things I need to do to make myself a better person, but I have no clue how to get there. I can see the end, but I am stuck. |
| I can idealize others but not myself And I can tear down others in order to feed myself It's the irony of looking for love from others when it has to come from inside Of always choosing the painful route when what's easy is where truth resides I keep waiting for a big change but maybe it's small steps over time The light's at the end of the tunnel but I can't tell if it's getting closer I still base my opinion of myself on how others see me And I still fear rejection from those who treat me tenderly It's the irony of trying to please others when being yourself is enough Of having to see that you are what you desire from others Sometimes things have to fall apart so we can build them back the way we want them The light's at the end of the tunnel but I can't tell if it's getting closer |