"Alice In The Looking Glass"
This seed for this poem was planted when a professor of mine was telling me to go on for my PhD because she regrets not getting hers. She said not having those 3 letters has held her back in her life.
I see time pass through these windows as I watch my family fade with the sun;
they don't even turn around to see me wave my good-byes
My hands begin to leave silent reminders on the pane
so I turn to my mirror to face the only company I have left
Standing here looking in the mirror I see Alice in the looking glass,
living in the present but dreaming of things that only exist in memory
I remember looking in this glass and laughing at the Halloween costume
of the old woman I didn't realize I would one day become
If dreams and memories sometimes get confused I guess that's all right
but since Willie passed on I seem to only believe in things I can no longer see
I feel like an old shoe orphaned in the lost and found,
rough around the edges and always missing its companion
I can't stand it when people see I look good for my age
I guess they don't know how I struggle with it everyday
Friends used to say my voice was soft as a rose petal
but now it wears my life's pain and things time has yet to wash clean
Each of the lines on my face and hands could tell a story unto themselves
about worries undone and anger and fears built up by time
I never had any letters after my name so I felt trapped in my career
and discovered time will pass you by like a finger rolling over a map
I talk to the moon because he seems to understand
and he's always up for the night like I usually am
When he fades behind the clouds I know he's shedding a tear
as his family of stars isn't around to keep him company
I'm biding my time until the day I lead the parade
Then I will reunite with Willie so I'll feel no sorrow on that day
For now I'll wait for the future that shall come to pass
That's what life is when you're Alice in the looking glass
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