Dad,
Life just isn�t the same without you. I miss you so much. I�ll never understand what was going through your mind the day you left us. My only hope is that you are at peace and free of pain now.
Josh and I go fishing and he will say �I bet pa is looking down at us and smiling�. My eye�s tear up just thinking about you not being here fishing with us. He will never have the memories like I do of all our fishing trips. There are so many things in life that I will miss. I miss our talks when I was having such a bad day, the countless hours we spent playing cards, but most of all I miss hearing your laughter, jokes, that mile long smile and your HUGS.
Memories are what get me through the day. I have 33 years of them. The most precious memory I have is of you holding Josh on the day he was born. You were so happy to finally be a grandpa. I also remember the huge smile on your face when you found out that you had a granddaughter. You were such a proud grandpa.
I�m so glad that you were my dad. Things weren�t always easy for us but we were always there for each other. I hope that you know how much I did appreciate all that you did for Josh and I. Times are so hard without you here. Whenever I have a bad day I just want to pick up the phone and call you but reality sets in and I know that I can�t call you. I dream about the day that we will be reunited. That I will once again be able to feel your hugs and hear your laughter.
I know you had such a troubled life and we didn�t quite understand what you were going through. No matter what happened in life I was proud of you as my father. You truly were my best friend. There were times we would get so mad at each other but then turn around and laugh about it. We had the best father/daughter relationship. It is one thing in life that no one could take away from us. I am thankful that I had 33 year�s with you but I am also selfish because I wanted so many more.
I love and miss you dad!!! Forever daddy�s girl, Jennifer
