No words can explain what I feel now
Just as the words Inadeqices were prominent then
Love turned to Timeless memory
timless memory turned to stone. Blown away forever
by lonlyness or worse
Hopelessness I should have realised
But never grasping, Needing more than a subtle hint
or more than that even
Feeling Hollow once again
Bursting with a Fevour ,fever, Hate, Remorse...
Collapsing to burnedout love, bitter kindness, Crying hope...
not for us, nor even myself... only... You... perhaps..., it is
no use
words choke before they begin
buried deep somewhere I can not find
Memory, a bitter remorseless Enemy
Not willing to let go but crushing escape even,
And a new swell of emotion threatens this time
to burn out all capacity of love...
Choked words do not do justice
to dying emotions. Memorys saddened
Hopes long scattered, revive only to be crushed by far more force.