Wednesday, July 31, 2002
8.46 PM

Last day of the last month.....you know the drill.....Reshuffling going to happen soon! q:)

Lack of updates because of college work, bloody streamy X inactive for 2 days, gurl friend, PlayStation 2 etc. hahaha.......

Anyway, big update's coming REAL soon....just wait.....hehe...

Oh yeah....my friend got sued by Guiness Stout for the Adam King scandal....lol...hope he's ok...

Car speakers spoilt......blast too much loud music, i guess...

Got picked on by my Business Law lecturer....bloody farker......always giving me a hard time....just because i like to wear colourful clothes and my hair's coloured.....SCREW HIM!!!!!

Had a few misunderstandings with my darling Jessica.......sorry darling.........i love you very very very much....

Celebrated my 1 month anniversary with her at Victoria Station at Damansara......bill's around RM 100...food's ok and just enough for both of us....hehe....first time parked at the jockey parking....gave the jockey RM 10....

Yesterday, a gurl asked me bout Jessica......Also, found out that she had sex with her bf after being with him for 2 months....haha.....not a big deal but......my friend's crazy over her.....he "dieted" because of her.....idiot.....

Was supposed to include some pictures on this DIARY page a LONG LONG LONG time ago...but was too lazy.....sorry......

MIGHT be meeting Jessica tomorrow night....i'm praying......PLEASE!!!!!

Got into a lot of deep shit.....this gurl at college which i used to have a crush on.....she has a "thing" for me now......but i don't wanna cheat on Jessica...or betray her feelings.....felt guilty.....finally, told this gurl that I'm very happy with Jessica and I can't be too close with this gurl......problem RESOLVED...i think! q:P

Jessica found out....and got a big worried...and disappointed...sorry darling..it WON'T happen again...PROMISE!!!!

Jessica gave me an e-card....so touching and nice......sayanggggggggggg *MuAcKz* Love my Bee Bee.....hehe....

Jessica's my best gf..............in the world!!!!!! My only wife too in the future.....I'm sure......i know i know, don't walk the walk but talk the talk....I'll make it HAPPEN!!!!!

Tomorrow's my brother's buffday....haha.....going out for dinner and celebrate it.......he's going to be 8 years old on the 1st of August......HOORAY!!!!! Happy Birthday Eve Pujing!!!!! Haha.....

Which one sounds nicer? Darling or Tiki???? I dunno.......I think Jessica doesn't like Tiki...sigh, it took me a long time to make that name up....Darling's too common too.............Any suggestions Mr/Mrs Reader? q:)

Wanted to start playing online Counter-Strike again....but trying my best not to touch that "drug"........don't wanna get addicted again.....tough to be #1 in the stats position now......

Went to Jessica's house with her friend last Monday......saw 2 of her aunties and her cousin sister....oh my God.....nearly died and had a heart attack.....damn scared and shy!!!!!!! But it turned out to be OK!! Hehe..........

A couple of so called "old" friends ditched me....because I have a gf and they have a problem with me and my gf being together......like the saying goes "You can't please everyone in this world"......

Went to Bernard's house.....bloody far....around 60 KM from my house lah!!!!!! Haha.....borrowed his PS ONE....

Another note, heard from my Dad that petrol price is gonna increase by RM 0.10 per litre effective fom 1st of August....sigh.....this sucks!!

Quarrelled with my Dad a couple of times this week.......he got irritated with the uncountable love-bites on my neck from Jessica...and he found cigarretes in my car.....

Jessica darling told her Sis in Canada through the e-mail about me......dunno yet what's her Sis' reaction yet....first time she's telling her Sis that she has a BF...that's what darling told me...

Saw a couple of her ex-bf photos....One really good-looking (looks suspiciously like a Hong-Kong celebrity) and others...OK lah......! Luckily she doesn't wanna see my ex - gf's photos.......haha......

Did ya hear? Michelle Yeoh's gonna destroy any pirated VCD of her movie "The Touch" if she comes across any pirated stalls selling any....BIG words...for a woman....if i were her, never mess with the UnderGround people.....eventhough i am a DATUK or what shit.....

Looks like my Sis is back with Victor (ex-bf)? Yipee? Hmmmmmmmm........

Monash Ball coming soon...next month....might or might not be going.......

Darling lend me her Esprit bag, Calvin Klein wallet and her Nokia 8310 handphone.....nothing to say...no comments.....only thing she took from me was my Nokia 8250 handphone......

Nothing else......major update coming soon....read my lips....or read my words....hehe.....too happy...

Miss miss sayang sayang manja manja and love love my darling / tiki Jessica very very very very much.....*MuAcKz* + *huGZ* + *mua*

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p/s: Never typed so much in my life..except for last-minute assignments...haha.....off to play Heroes 4 and do my college homework....damn!! Until then, take care and happy reading......hehe.....

Friday, July 19, 2002
12.52 PM

Failed 2 subjects, Economics and Business Statistics....damn, have to re-sit the 2 subjects again.....

Told Mom, didn't scold me....instead she advised me to push myself harder.....thanks Mom......you're the best!! q:)

Going out with Jessica everyday without fail.....until 5 AM....what do we do? Dunno lah!! Hehe.... q:P

College starting next week on Monday...back to seeing wannabe's, show-offs and such....

Finished downloading the whole Briana Loves Jenna porn movie....so happy....

Finished Eternal Darkness on the GameCube......heard that the Japanese version of Sunshine Mario for the GameCube is out already.....that'll be my next target...hehe.......

Blowed RM 1000 in this month already.........don't ask what i spend it on....... q:P

Love my darling Jessica very much....if possible, FOREVER too...........*MuAcKz* + *huGZ* + *mua*...hehe....sayang and manja too......

I've a picture of Jessica and I....but too small lah....tried scanning it....but it's a bit too small......should I upload it into here? Haha...............

Lalala....more updated later........ q:)

Monday, July 15, 2002
12.28 AM

I feel like my sanity's giving in............

HELP!!!!!!!

Feeling lousy the whole day.....thinking of Jessica...i'm worried that she'll dump me for her ex....or even worse, get bored of me.....

MUST feel optimistic...MUST!!!!!!!

I still love her....but.....

I really wish our relationship is like in the beginning......where there's no sadness but only happiness........

A guy can only wish right??

A lot of my friends would love to see me break up with her...but fark them...like i owe them once...pukima.....i hope our relationship is still solid.....this is probably God's challenge to me to see how i solve this problem of mine.........

I don't wan to leave her..or let her go.......Jessica's too precious....and she's worth more than that...........

Ever since i went with Jessica...friends started to desert me.....and ignore me...WHY????? Life's just unfair sometimes....

I have a good and a very happy life......why must i give in to this stupid voice in my head telling me that something's wrong with Jessica and I.............

Conscience......leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, i hope Jessica's reading this........if you are, I still LOVE YOU very much...and if possible...FOREVER......

I really wonder where's all the happiness that i had with Jessica..........like the first few days, i used to smile everytime to everyone i see......

After typing this, i'll change....and be like my old self.........like the saying goes, a frown uses 64 face muscles while a smile uses 4 face muscles.......

I think i'm feeling a lot better now...since i've let everything off my chest...........

From now on, JASON LYK+ JESSICA LSY = FOREVER + EVERLASTING.....fark those people who want to see us break up....

Darling, I'm sorry for doing this to you.........forget about the Emporium thingie on Friday night........pretend it didn't happen at all okay? I'll always be there for you........

I trust Jessica...........................and i really hope Jessica trusts me too.........to the one i truly love, JESSICA......FOR LIFE!!!!!!

I'll never dump or break up with her..it's not worth it....she makes me happy.....and brings a new life into me..........

Hehe...........JESSICA, I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH..........

Ok lah, i think that's all.....DARLING, you're the only one i want and promise that there's no one else.......that can REPLACE you as my gurl-friend....

Hope you feel a lot better...and remember, BABE will always be by your side.......................................if you let him be.....hehe...... q:P

TO JESSICA : *MuAcKz* + *huGZ*

p/s: Babe wants to smell darling's hair...........hehe......................and more love-bites.....!!!!!!! q:)

Saturday, July 13, 2002
7.19 PM

Farked up day yesterday turned out to be.........

Darling got drunk.....until she collapsed....fark...3 people including me had to bring her to the car from Emporium...darling and her friend stayed overnight at my house...we also had to carry her from the car to my house...shit...embarassing...

Vormated for the first time...drank too bloody much.....smoked like fark also...i think i'm screwing with my life.....

How did it all start? Firstly, saw darling holding other people, dancing with other people, drinking with other people and hugging with other people....how the fark do you think i feel? I'm CRUSHED.................

Drank to drown all my sorrows...drank around 10 glasses of Henessy White straight without stop.....went to the mamak nearby...bought 2 packets of fag.....smoked non-stop...around 20 sticks...

I willingly paid my friend who was driving RM 100 because darling messed up his car (the new Toyota Estima, very nice and big vehicle indeed, rich bastard!!) and for his petrol which was empty...

Came home...at 6 AM....couldn't sleep...woke up, play the X-Box alone, talk to Mom and Bro..bathed for half an hour...washed my hair twice...stinks of fag...

Darling finally woke up at 10.10 AM sharp.....i think she had a hangover...stayed with her till 2 PM.....

Fetched my Sister to 1 Utama because she wanted to do some shopping for the IU night tomorrow...

ZzzzzzzzzzzZzzzzzZzzzzzz.........................

Friday, June 12, 2002
1.05 PM

Not really in a good mood........

College exam results are coming out next week...on the 18th to be exact....shit....hope don't fail any bloody subjects...

Going clubbing tonight at the FHM magazine big party bash and Emporium with darling.....don't know what will happen and hope that nothing bad will happen.....

Just came back from college with Mom....to settle my farked-up next semester subjects......

Went out with darling, darling ex bf, Kenny, and Gay to Ming Tien near my house to 'yum cha'...stupid Gay nearly screwed up my relationship with darling last night...Bastard...darling kept on showing them the love bites she gives me....bloody embarassed..wonder what she was smoking last night...sheesh..pity her ex bf who was there...he acted cool and calm...if i was in his shoes, i would have left the farking place...dunno what's darling's problem.....later, fetched darling home....

Talk to Nabila on the phone when i reached home...telling me her problems and her life...talked bout a couple of hours...called darling next...she was ZzzzzzZZzZz already as usual....

Nearly died today..couldn't find the bloody course planner today...nearly farking died..shit.....

Pity my Mom who must endure all this shit.....farking dysfunctional family.....promise to myself that would get Mom a S320 Mercedes coupled with a driver when i grow up....promises can't be broken.....

Luv you Mom......for everything in my life.....i hope i won't dissappoint you anytime or anywhere in the future............

College reopening on the 22nd...shit........

Gotta pay the fees tomorrow or next week.....deadline's on the 26th i think........

So many games..so little time....

People can't be trusted....DTA..Don't Trust Anybody...just an advice...

It's a cruel world out there......................

Off to playing Eternal Darkness on the GameCube......more updated later...

Thursday, June 11, 2002
10.05 PM

Happy, happy, very happy, farking happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday, went out with darling to Sunway Hotel expensive mamak....met Austin and Chong Meng...hehe...still look the same...and friendly as always... q:) Thanks to Austin for paying for the drinks....love ya!!!!!!!

Next, went to E-Zone cyber cafe with darling to meet Kaveh...i wanted to play CS with Kaveh but...stupid God damn place charge RM 6 per entry eventhough you are not playing...the bloody cashier wanted to charge my darling for going in eventhough she wasn't playing or touching the computers at all...i then took the visitor pass for darling and I....met Kaveh with his friends......CSing as usual..........all guys there..no gurlz......SIEN!!! Left the place...

Next, went to darling's house...went INTO her room too....erm, her room's nice...her bed's bloody comfortable...put on some music....switched off the main lights leaving desk lamp on (nice lamp too)....then, *censored* Sorry!! My darling will kill me if i type what we did....... q:P

Scariest part in my life happened yesterday too...bloody hell!! Her cousin brother who's older knocked on the door a couple of times..he wanted to take something..a folder or some shit...i had to hide under the sheets...i nearly died in shock....i swear man!! My heart was thumping 400 times / sec...shit...I don't wanna die so early..and at a young age too.....hell, it was more scary than playing Resident Evil or Silent Hill...ok, maybe i am talking crap here...hehe....

Stayed until 3.30 AM...i was too tired until i ZZzzZzzzzzz for a while...darling watched over me..damn embarassing...reached home at 4 AM...talk a bit with darling on phone...KO'ed...slept until TODAY

Today, woke up...played PS 2...fetched bro home from school...went out with old school friend, Meng Chuan to SS2 Coffee Bean...talked about old times..turned out he's doing the same course as my darling...Meng Chuan's friend gave his opinion bout my darling but Meng Chuan's not telling me...BITCH!!

Played GameCube whole day too........................

Thanks to darling for giving me 2 lovebites.....love love love love you very much!!!!!!!!!! And forever too, i HOPE!!!!!!! q:)

Nice screen saver too darling..hehe...it has something to do with me..

Another note, good mood / bad mood....on and off...dunno lah....no mood to continue typing already....i think that's ALL........

Monday, July 08, 2002
5.32 PM

Bloody lazy to update my diary......sorry haha q:)

As usual.....love love love love love love love my darling Jessica very much.........

Jessica visited my homepage...bloody hell..she gave me a piece of her mind hehe q:P

She doesn't mind though that i post all this stuffz....the only thing is she hopes is her and my enemies see it...you know who you are!!!!

She even asked me not to put her name Jessica in here....but put darling instead..ok darling...i'll do that from now on.. q:)

Just came back on a date with darling at MidValley.....had lunch at Dave's Deli...bought some magazines...saw her lan - c friends at the magazine shop who were apparently too bloody 'action' to say hi to her...cowards!!!!!!!! They used to 'kacau' my darling..and used to like her too......hehe......Waited for Daphne, Ivy and Yinn Pin (people i was supposed to meet for lunch) who i have not seen like......8 bloody years since primary school...long time eh? They are still the same..hehe..no major changes, that's good!! q:)

Yinn Pin and friends watched the movie "The Eye" which i've watched last week already with my darling...so i watched "Scooby-Doo" with darling...yes, i know i've watched it already..but there's no harm in watching twice with my darling right? Hehe....bought pop-corns.....we did the usual lah in the cinema...back seat..don't need to say anymore......' nuff said.... q:P

*Ahem Ahem* After 3 noticeable lovebites, we then proceeded to meet up with Daphne, Ivy and Yinn Pin at MPH book-store..bloody hell!! Guess who i saw!!! The Prodigy Gamer Of The Month, Aidan Chew.....hahaha...i have not met him for 8 years too!! He still looks good-looking and nice...It's a wonder he still can recognise me after all these years...he was with a friendly guy called Aaron and his gf, Pui Cheng, who i've not seen for 2 years...it's a small world after all eh?? q:)

Aidan teased me about the love-bites..haha...he even teased my darling...asked her why she doesn't have one...not that i don't want to give my darling.....but...she's afraid her aunt will see those "things"..hehe..guess i'll have to give my darling love-bites in a "secret" place hidden from the eyes of others.........i wonder where?? q:P

Said bye to Yinn Pin and friends..Yinn Pin too teased me about the love-bites..hehe...my darling and i just ignored him...proceeded to car park...hehe...fetched her home..so bloody happy!! My darling doesn't dare to give me a kiss in front of people watching..guess she is just shy..hehe...nevertheless, i always get a lot of kisses everytime and everywhere from her...

Came home, rushed to the computer and allocated my next semester college course timetable.......*whew* done it in 10 - 20 minutes......and it's a very nice timetable too...thank God!! No Friday classes at all!!! I'm feel so farking lucky today...........

Oh yeah..yesterday..my dad saw the lovebite that darling gave to me on Friday night before i left for Ipoh (grandpa's birthday)...hehehe..he asked whether it was the old one (refer to previous diary!!).....i jolly well told my dad it's all new..haha...in fact, 4 new one too......hehehe!!!!! Dad just laughed.....luckily my dad is so bloody sporting...

Dad wanted to take me out for a drink with the uncles...the path to become a real man, i presume...but...mom didn't let...hehe..

Er......darling and i had a lot of fun on Friday night..at my house....guest room...hehe...not telling...too "hot"..sorry....that was the happiest day in my life...*you know, i know lah*.......

Darling gave me a sweet e-card last night....thanks...love ya darling...

If you're reading this darling..i love love love love love you 4 EvA and 4 LiFe!!!!!!! *MuAcKz*...i hope one day i'll marry you...haha...i'm going a bit too far i know...but it MAY happen...just wait and see......like Utada Hikaru's song... q:)

Tuesday, July 02, 2002
3.33 PM

Finally reindexed my diary..haha..what a lazy bastard i am!! q:P

My mom encouraged me to read a book on how to become rich..haha..thanks Mom!! I love my Mom!!!!!!

Friend, Bryan / Han Wing is coming back from Australia at 9 PM tonight..probably gonna pick him up at the airport with my darling Jessica. Haha, wait till he sees Jessica with me, holding hands and kissing..haha. Han Wing's coming with his cousin though and hell yeah!! He is bringing 1 porn DVD which costs RM 140 for me which stars my favourite porn star, Briana Banks!! Hooray!! I'll watch it with my darling tonight, haha, just kidding!!

Promised to bring him to Papaya Farm at Puchong or Sunway..haha..sick bastard!! I'm not going, only Han Wing and his cousin..haha..

I'm gonna ask my Mom permission to let me bring my gf home to my house..she'll probably say "YES" i tell you! :)

Haha, wanted to bring my gf home last night, but my mom was awake watching TV. I came home at 4 AM and she was still awake..haha unlucky me!! Thanks to my sis for acting spy for me and checking who was awake..love ya sis!! Sorry to disturb your beauty sleep, haha.......i owe u one!!

Went to Jessica's house..pretty nice!! :) She gave me a goodbye kiss twice too..hehe

In his diary, Bernard said my gf is not pretty but cute..hehe..funny guy! q:)

Wait till i see your Keily you freak!! Haha..i am just too happy!! q:)

Bernard took one of my PS2 home and a couple of pirated and original games, promised him long long farking time ago..but always postpone haha, sorry dude!! Happy playing my PS2? If my PS2 is screwed, you know who's ass is gonna get screwed too! q:)

Going back to Ipoh this Saturday to celebrate my grandpa's buffday!! Coming back on Sunday. That means i can't go out with my darling in the weekends... q:(

Anyway, might be going out with Nabila and Natasha to Bangsar this Friday night, they called me out. God knows why when Nabila can sense that i am going steady with Jessica..weird!!

Met Wai Kin and his gf last night at UpTown..farked up..farking lan c and pissed me and my darling off so many farking times..he's gonna get it..i tell you..mutha farker..his gf is an air-stewardess working at Singapore Airlines..big deal..looks so old and puts on make-up to go to a mamak? That's farking outrageous..!!!! Might as well wear tube top, tiu!!

Probably gonna update my diary later also when i come back tonight..i hope so! q:)

Oh yeah, my darling just SMSed me and asked me to pick her up. Been waiting for like 2 hours already..she went for a hair treatment..gurlz, you can NEVER understand them..haha, she has piano class later..

Gotta rush..going to Sungei Wang with her, i'm going to buy video games..and chill with her..

Ciao!! Till next time..