Feel so farking depressed. Had an argument with Jessica again. Really sad. She wanted to get a tattoo but I disagreed. So she said she'll get one soon eventhough I told her not to. I mean, I really don't like my gf to have a tattoo. Which bf would accept it? OK, you might be say I am being childish but I really don't want to see her get hurt and suffer the pain.

Just pierced my ear twice today. Didn't hurt at all. The only hurt and pain I feel is from the bottom of my heart. Really no appetite to eat or mood to study. Very sad. Probably gona get a tattoo this weekend. Fark it if it hurts. I really fed up with life already. Wish it can end faster. No point in living. Wish I got someone to talk to or consult me. I have everything, money, looks, gf, superb parents, car.....but all this still doesn't bring me happiness. Looks like money can't even buy happiness.

Been thinking so much. Can't sleep at all. Just tossing around the bed thinking what did I do to deserve this? If Jessica wana get a tattoo, I don't feel like going on with the relationship. I wouldn't want ppl talking behind my back about her. I hate the farking world. HATE you GOD!! Fark the world, fark fark fark fark. God damn everyone who is happy!! Feel like cutting myself sometimes.

All my life.....wasted, just like that. Back to smoking again I guess. Conclusion, if Jessica is getting a tattoo, I'll end the relationship and be single till I find Mrs. Right. Hate you Jessica, hate everyone, hate every single mutha farker in this planet. Get out of my farking site!! Fark everything!!