Intoxicated - Possibility

Everytime I look at you
I wish you looked my way
And flash me that dazzling smile that
really makes my day
But of course it's just a dream
a dream that won't come true
and for unrequited love I wrote this song for you
I always think of how it'd be
if we were together
You and me holding hands
(It's a dream)
I can picture it right now
You and me,
It's a dream,
It's a possibility...
When I look out of my window
I hope you look up at me
If only you could read my heart
My love so true you'd see
How empty my life would be
If I don't have you
And for unrequited love I wrote this song for you...
..it's a dream... it's a Possibility...

Really like this song from Intoxicated (an all gurl band from Malaysia who has since broken up). The song is Possibility. No matter how many times I listen to it, I like it as it really has a lot of effect on my life and showed me how love really is.

Feeling much better today thanks to cigarettes and friends help (advice). Very surprised to know that there are actually people who actually check on my homepage once a day and read every single detail!! I'm touched by all that. You guys know who you are. Thanks!! I guess that's what true friends are all about. Happy to hear Bernard has gotten his "P" license already. Congrats dude!! The information you put up comparing you and I are very very true. 85 % of what you said about me is true. Met a lot of new and nice people today. Mostly girls from the new intake. A lot of people made comments about my hair style and colour. 75 % said the previous hair style was better while the leftover 25 % said this is the "bestest" EVER. Haha...

Met a girl called Adele who is in my Business Stats tutorial class. She was my pet sister from online. Met her once last time. Got attracted to her but too bad, she was my friend's gf at that time. She is like, REALLY HOT. You can say one of the top 5 in Monash....Too bad that she can't recognise me anymore.

Had a very nice Business Stats tutor who actually gives us encouragement that we can get a "Distinction" for our Business Stats subject, hehe. Went for the Micro-Economics replacement tute, the teacher is a HOT lady, man!! As good as my previous tute in the previous 2 semesters. Really nice lady too, but too bad she isn't teaching me but another tutor is.

Oh ya, from the previous diary, I didn't mean to "flame" or just criticise people. I just write what I was currently feeling that time. So, if I had offended anyone, please tell me and I'll put it down. I couldn't believe myself when people started to call me and asked me what went wrong. I was like, how the fark did you know? I swear I didn't tell anyone. They said they checked my diary. Thank you for your advice, my dear friends. You guys are the best. Thanks to some college friends who have gave me support such as Jane and such. Hate to say this but, eventhough there are 2 people who is getting "real close" to me, I'm sorry to say that I still have feelings for my ex, Jessica, no matter how much she can hurt me. Yeah, you may say I am foolish or what, but I am still waiting for her "answer" patiently...

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

Got the above from my ex gf who send me a mail. Thanks for the encouragement. I'm sure you send it to me to cheer me up, perhaps? I personally like 2, 4, 6, 7, 8. 9. 10, 11 and 12.

Just downloaded the video for Candy Lo duet with Wang Lee Hom "Hao Xin Fen Shou". Very nice video. Stupid Kenny told me there was only 1 video where she's all alone without the guy. Oh ya, my friend, Vivien even took the trouble to explain the lyrics to me, every single word from the beginning to end. Thanks a lot. It's nice having a new friend like her this semester. She even helped me to teach me how to do Business Stats. Pitied you for not passing the Summer School paper. Same with my other good friend who is a PS2 RPG freak, KC who got the same bloody exam results from last semester. Sorry to hear that you failed twice and have to retake it this semester once more. Screw the lecturer, ya?

GUESS WHAT? Just guess!! Final Fantasy X-2 is coming out in 2 days time!! Shit!! I'm going to line up and wait for it!! Can't wait!! The most awaited 2003 game!! Same goes with Silent Hill 3. Onimusha 3 stars 2 characters, something like Devil May Cry II and Resident Evil 0. It stars Samanusuke and 1 French dude. Hope it doesn't suck as bad as DMC 2. There is a fighting game based on the game Onimusha 1 and 2 too. Jubei VS Samanusuke anyone? :)

A group of college guys from One Academy stared at me while I was eating with a couple of new friends today at Ming Tien Sunway. They were looking at my hair and speaking in Chinese. Either they were amazed by my hair or they thought I was a hot-shot. Haha...........sorry, can't help it with my rantings and ramblings...

Going to stay up to study and watch WWE Raw. Tomorrow is a break for me. Every Wednesday is. Happy happy joy joy...

Eminem's new song, "Superman" really says a lot about my relationship. Sex anyone? Bitches anyone? Love CrazyTown "Drowning" song eventhough it's quite old already. The album "Dark Horse" is really good despite critics giving it lousy ratings.

Probably going to Empo this Friday. Heard there is something going on. Hitz.FM stuffs. A lot of local celebrities will be there. Game for it??

Still love Jessica very very much. No diminishing in my love for her. She is and was my best gf in my entire life beating Jamie and all my other ex...