Fark fark fark...Farking hate the world. Farking hate my life. Fark fark fark. Farking sad after Jess and I broke up. Why why why? Why must it happen to me? What the fark went wrong? Is this what LIFE is all about? Feel like committing suicide!! Money can't buy happiness. My MISTAKE!! Never should have "gone" into the farking relationship too in. Once you're too "in", it farking kills you slowly, like a farking drug. LIFE SUCKS!! :(

Depressed like shit for weeks!! Couldn't farking sleep, eat, picked up smoking again, turning back to clubbing and other STUPID habits like drinking. Been chain smoking 2-3 packets a day.

You may ask, WHO DUMPED WHO? For me, it really doesn't farking matter. Pitied Jessica's ex, Wai Kin who's studying in the US for what I did to him last time. Heard he's coming back this coming May.

Overall, do I farking deserve the hurt and pain I got at the end of the relationship? DO I? DO I? Is it because of karma from GOD for what I farking did to all my other "EX"?

Been listening to Candy Lo "Break Up" song duet with Wang Lee Hom. Listening to it makes me feel sad and makes a grown man crumbles to his farking knees begging, crying, shouting, screaming...The list goes on...

So, is this the END? Jess said she's still thinking whether she wants to continue the relationship and give it another SHOT. It might take her weeks, months, years, decades, centuries to give me the answer...

So many things happened already, but all is not as BIG as this farking shit I'm going through now. If there are no more updates, it means I'm dead. I've already killed myself or someone helped me to end my life.

Why must you treat me like this, Jess? WHY WHY WHY? What did I do wrong? All the words you said still runs through my farking head like a vacuum, do you know that? Don't you feel any remorse for doing all this? Don't you have feelings a human being has? Don't you see the picture here?

I learned a lot of things from this relationship. Never have I ever been in this weak, stupid, happy, sad, angry, cheerful, thankful, disappointed, foolish...You showed me the true meaning of "part of life". You showed how to earn a trust from a person, watch it slowly fading and dissipating. You actually made my life not worth living at all. Pain pain pain...

-JaSoN LuVs JeSS-
- BaBe LuVs TiKi-
June 02 - Feb 03
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