in my mind some might be songs, others poems, others just
stupid stuff I write down. Any ways, I wrote all of them
unless I put otherwise.....
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in my mind some might be songs, others poems, others just stupid stuff I write down. Any ways, I wrote all of them unless I put otherwise..... |
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I hate my emotions, I hate my curiosity, I hate devotions, And I hate luminosity, Night is best, Night is grand, For the clinically depressed, And the shaky in hand. As my mind whirls round, I try to find, A corner that is sound In my unstable mind, A nice place to hide, From those damned feelings, So i don�t have to abide, To the stupid old reeling�s, Of an unconscious mind. Every Single Time Every single time the sun rises over here, Every single time the sun sets on the other side, Every single time I take a breathe of fresh air, Every single time you see the ocean tide, You�ll never find my mind, where its supposed to be, You seem like the kind, who�ll always be close to me, If anybody wonders, where my mind has gone, Think about the blunders, in the life I�ve drawn, Then think about the thing, the one person in the world, That�s made my life worth living, the most beautiful and perfect girl Progress You sit and watch the world go by Whiz right past in the blink of an eye You wonder where the time has gone Since you�ve watched the setting sun For now you�re stuck in relentless gears Always cranking for years and years For cogs in a machine are what you are So that progress continues up and far Just remember better days are up ahead Rewards will come for the life you�ve led So keep to it and don�t give up For what you�ve earned will soon pay up Do You See What I See? Do you see what I see? The fire, the fire of hell burning bright Torturing everyone in sight Torturing everyone in sight. Do you hear what I hear? The screams, the screams of people�s pain and fright, Echoing throughout the night Echoing throughout the night. Do you feel what I feel? The pain, the pain, growing deep inside, Making me wish I would die Making me wish I would die. Your Voice At Night Your voice at night So soft and sweet Chases my fright �Till the day we meet Hold me close Pull me near Your love it shows When whispering in my ear I say it all day long It comes straight from my heart Its in all those songs, That I sing in bits and parts So look into my eyes And reach into my heart So that all my doubts die And I know we will never part I just want to get lost in my babies voice I just want to get away from all the noise It feels like the whole world is screaming at me I need to get away I need to be free I can�t help but worry if she�s ok I got used to talking to her everyday I wonder if she thinks of me If her love will always be Or if it will fade in time If i cant go online I feel as helpless as can be Ii need to get away i need to get free All i want is to see her face To hold her hand to be in my place The drive to her isn�t very long Maybe at most a couple hundred songs I need to see her i need to hold her I need to be there for her... Forever The dread of waiting the dread of not knowing. If she is better or her problem is growing The noise yells the road beckons I could be gone in a matter of seconds Yet i stay i don�t know why For another day till the one i die I feel it in my bones from my head to my feet I need to get away i need to be free This wander lust is killing me I need to get away i need to get free Mind Of an Angel She has the eyes of an angel And a mind like one I�m sure I feel like I�m in hell But I�ll always care about her. Hangin' Hey don�t leave me hangin� here, Lookin� like a fool Makin� me live out my greatest fear By using me as a tool As I sit in silence waiting for you Surveying everything honest and true Unfortunately your love is nowhere in sight Makes me wonder if you know what is right I love you and I always will But it�s running past you like your standing still |
My heart breaks, My life ends, I guess no more it could take, No more it could lend. I thought she loved me, I really did, I thought I could see, Who she really is, But I couldn�t move, Not even a sway, When she said �You fool, Now go away!� I then felt the familiar pain, Deep in my chest, I didn�t think I�d feel it again, I thought she wasn�t like the rest. My heart breaks, My life ends, I guess no more it could take, No more it could lend. As I lay in my bed, In the darkness of night, I feel it in my head, I see it in my sight, I know what is to come, And I let it come quick, I close my eyes, to help prepare some, As the pressure grows with each passing tick. Deep inside the pain grows, Beyond compare, I should get help I know, But she made it so I don�t care, I turn over, hoping not to feel, Any pain in my coming ordeal, I know what is to come, And I let it come quick, I clench my fists to help some, While the heart attack grows with each passing tick. My heart breaks, My life ends, I guess no more it could take, No more it could lend. Shining Knife The stars are shining bright tonight But none of it is reaching me 'Cause she packed up and left in the dark of night Now that�s where I�ll always be She said her love was never ending Never to be repaid I learned her love she was only lending As I watched it fade away Now my world is darker than shit It feels as though there is no sun As I lost my candle that was lit As I reviewed the days of fun Now the only happiness that I see Is the end of life The death of night is were I�ll always be With this shining knife I Have To Sneeze!! I have to sneeze Oh yes I do. I have to sneeze And go �ACHOO!� But if I do I ask you please, To be kind enough to say �bless you� Our Very First Fight Our very first fight, we knew it had to come. As I layed quiet at night, I thought alot and slept some. You know I love you, Or atleast I hope you do, And for being jealous, I am very sorry, You are so loving and understand me, Yet I repay it with selfishness. I not only ask, but I beg for forgiveness. Yesterday before I left, I gazed at your picture, Wondering when I'd see it next, In my head over and over "God I miss her" Now there are two ways this could end, I have waited for days to see if we will mend, Yet I still wait, and I will forever, 'Cause your my fate, and my love will never be severed. So here are the two endings, which I have written up, two possible directions, down or up... 1. Our very first fight, I hope it never happens again, I know that it might, But just remember, I'll love you forever, Amen. 2. Our ver first fight, Probably our last, You are my light, But now I'm just your past. Real or Fake? Just makes you wonder If all this is real My love is for no other And this is all i feel This is like a dream You and all you do �Cause all this love it seems Is all new and completely new You never loved me before You told me you never would Why must you open old sores? That�s the worst you possibly could So is this what you feeling real? Or is it all fake? Are you after my money to steal? Or my heart to take? Last shot of bourbon All hell has broken loose Can�t fit my head in the noose So I guess I�ll just sit and stay Drink my life away All I feel is this pain As though I�m going insane This really sucks �Cause I�m down to my last buck So if you ask me Why I look so crappy I�ll tell you I�m up to my neck in hurtin And I�m down to my last shot of bourbon And I realize she ain�t comin back So I got my stuff in a sack And I�m headin out to find her And my lost shot of bourbons goin to So now I�m on the road I bought my ring she sold Now I need some money For gas to chase my honey But she has emptied the bank She�s also gone and drank All of my sweet, sweet bourbon Then those wheels started turnin I�m up to my neck in hurtin And I�m down to my last shot of bourbon And I realize she ain�t comin back So I got my stuff in a sack And I�m headin out to find her And my lost shot of bourbons goin to |