Be Warned

This is the person that I am now. Everyone that gets to know me from now on, will know this person. The person that I am now.

On the outside, I am the same person, it is until you get to know me you will think I am a different person. I still like to do what I used to do for fun, but now I do those things with a different attitude. I do things with an inner fire...I wieghtlift to let out the burn. To cause a physical burn and pain to cover over the inner fire and deep pain in me...To put out the raging fire that is inside me...Nothing is working completely nor will ever...

My longing for
it is so deep
and so pure
That I hear it
in every cell in my
body calling out for it

A longing that was
buried so deep I never
even know it existed in me.

Now I crave it
more and more
Each and every day

It is building up
with in me like TNT

I crave it more
than a man craves
water when he is
dying of thirst.

I crave the burn.
I crave the fire.
I crave the pain.