Story: Shadowdarke--- Darke Pleasures
by J. Darksong
I shifted slightly in my seat, as Mr. Jenkins finished speaking to our
newest client. Soon to be a junior partner in the firm, I had been one of the
hottest new prospects to come out of Harvard in the past ten years. I had
chosen this firm because of the prestige, and the long list of high profile
clients. I had built a steady track record of wins for the firm, and quickly
moved up the ladder. A few more impressive victories and I would become a
FULL partner. Smiling inwardly, I thought of the new name: Gempler, Madison
....and soon-to-be Preston, Attorneys at Law. I was on my way to the top!
Sipping champagne, I glanced at our client. Mrs. Rebecca Printon
wished to divorce her very wealthy husband of three years, citing
several incidents of infidelity. She had been suspicious of him for a
very long time, and had hired a detective to follow him. Her instincts
had been correct, as the successful businessman was spending his
nights working late---working on his kept mistress, that is. I had
seen the photos of the other woman; she was obvious street trash,
bleached blonde hair, layered mascara and eye shadow, clothing that
barely covered her doctor-enhanced cleavage, even the four inch
stiletto heels she always wore. The woman had 'fuck me' written all
over her...literally! A small tattoo of the words 'FUCK ME' was
visible on her chest in one of the pictures. I was much looking
forward to this simple open and shut case. I had never been
married---with my busy life I didn't even have much time for
dating---but I had no respect for loose sexual perversity, man or
woman. I suppose it gave me personal satisfaction of a sort to be able
to help this woman get revenge on her cheating husband. It would give
me great pleasure not only to help my client win her due, and gain
another win, but also to plug that cheating lowlife of a husband and
his floozy of a mistress for every cent they had.
He must be loaded if his estranged wife can afford to bring us
to this fancy place to dine while we discuss the case, I thought idly
to myself. The champagne was excellent, one of those two hundred
dollar a bottle kinds, the kind I would be able to afford myself after
this case. I was listening to Mr. Jenkins go over the final points of
our case when I noticed something odd from the corner of my eye. At a
table just to the left and behind mine, sat a man and woman. The man
was handsome, kind of average looking, with raven Darke hair, golden
bronze skin, and deep brown eyes. He was a bit underdressed for this
establishment, in my opinion, wearing only a dress shirt and slacks,
not even a tie. But the woman was the surprise. She was dressed
exquisitely, in a tight-fitting scarlet sequined dress, off the
shoulders, molded to draw attention to her ample breasts. Her long
platinum blonde hair was stylishly cut and styled, her makeup totally
perfect, down to her manicured and polished nails. She almost looked
familiar, like a model or perhaps an actress. She was the picture of
poise and charm, and for a moment I found myself envious of her good
looks. But what came next totally blew me away.
"You look totally ravishing tonight, my dear," the man said,
idly caressing her soft pale cheek. "I'll have to see to it that you
are well RAVISHED later," he added with a grin. The woman laughed,
blushing cutely. Personally, such a candid remark would have made me
upset, but the woman apparently liked it. "Dinner will take a little
while," the man continued, "so I think we will have to satisfy
ourselves with appetizers."
"Oh," the woman said, pouting, almost like a little girl. "But
I'm hungry, NOW! Please, can't I have a little something to suck on
right now until the food comes? Please Master?"
Master? Did she just call him Master? I thought perhaps I was
hearing things at first, but to my surprise, the man smiled a totally
evil looking smirk, and chuckled. "Well, you HAVE been a good little
slave the past few weeks, so I guess I can oblige you this once. Go
under the table and have your treat." To my utter shock and surprise,
the woman smiled grandly, slid to the floor of the restaurant, crawled
under the table, and proceeded to unbutton the man's pants!!
"Did you see that?" I whispered softly to Ralph Jenkins, sitting
at my right. He glanced up at me, a mouth full of salad,
frowning. "The table behind us," I whispered again, harshly, pulling
his arm to keep him from turning around now. "No, don't look they'll
know we know what they're doing!"
"Well what ARE they doing?" Mrs. Printon asked loudly, glancing
around wildly. Inwardly I cursed, wondering at that moment if the
woman's lack of tact was why her husband had started cheating on
her. Sighing deeply, I pointed to the table behind us, down at the
pair of red satin pumps visible beneath the tablecloth. Mrs. Printon's
eyes grew wide, and her hand went to her face. "Why...why...that's
disgraceful!" she sputtered. "Behaving like that in public, of all
things! I just don't believe it!" She turned around and glanced at the
man, who smiled and waved at us. The audacity of it all!
Mrs. Printon was beside herself. "Have you no shame?" she
yelled, loud enough that several people glanced around at our two
tables. Nonplused, the man continued to smile, sighing softly in
pleasure at what was no doubt going on under the table.
"Actually, no. I don't have any shame whatsoever," he commented,
leaning back in his chair.
"I'm going to get the manager and have you two thrown out of
here!" Mrs. Printon said, bubbling over with rage. "Of all the
nerve!"
I stood up from the chair, grabbing Mrs. Printon's hand before
she could walk towards the maitre'd. "Wait, Mrs. Printon, please," I
said frantically. "Let's not make a scene." Or a bigger one that the
one she had already caused. "I'm sure we can all talk about this
calmly, without having anyone thrown out of here." I glanced back at
the man, hoping he at least had the good sense to call his woman back
to his seat, and found him smiling still, his head cocked to the side,
as if slightly amused at my predicament. I was tempted to call the
manager myself, but the uproar of the whole thing would bring unwanted
bad press to the firm, which would seriously hurt my upward
rise. "Let's move to another table where the view is not
so...disturbing."
We quietly got up from our table and sat down at an unoccupied
table about ten feet away. The waiter noticed us moving and came to
inquire what the problem was. Before I could respond, Mrs. Printon
again let loose with a mini-tirade. "That...that..BEAST of a man
sitting next to us had his woman doing...DISGUSTING things, under the
table! Your manager should know about this! How can such a fine
restaurant like this allow such a person as HIM to even come
inside---"
"HIM?" the waiter gestured at the man, who again smiled and
waved at us. "You MUST be mistaken, Madame. That is Doctor Jonothan
Darke, one of our best patrons. He is the epitome of class and charm!
He was in fact the very first customer we ever served here, and he has
been coming back ever since. No, Madame, I think you must have made a
mistake."
"Mistake? MISTAKE? Go see for yourself! There is a LADY
underneath his table giving him oral sex!" she said, again, so loudly
that everyone stopped and stared. I groaned inwardly, imagining
tomorrow's headlines: Famous Law Firm involved in Restaurant Scandal!
Young promising lawyer, Shelley Preston. jailed for attempting to
strangle wealthy loud mouthed woman...
Wordlessly, the waiter walked back to the man's table, whispered
for a while, then knelt down and lifted the tablecloth. Even from this
distance, we could all see the woman underneath, still going at it
with apparent vigor. The waiter shook his head, and walked back to
us. Mrs. Printon smiled smugly, her arms crossed, obviously expecting
an apology. The waiter didn't seem the slightest bit apologetic to
me.
"Excuse me, madams, and sir," the waiter said stiffly. "I do not
know why you wanted to embarrass me and that poor man with such talk,
but I looked for myself and saw no one. I will ask you all to sit down
and await your orders, or kindly leave. But I ask you not to bother
Dr. Darke again." Turning stiffly, fists clenched at his side, he
walked away. Mr. Jenkins and Mrs. Printon were too shocked to even
respond, but I was not about to let this go so easily.
"Just what do you think you are trying to pull here?" I asked
the waiter, catching up with him. "Are you actually trying to tell me
that he and that woman were doing nothing wrong? That is bullshit! She
was clearly there, sucking his COCK, and everyone in the line of sight
saw it!" With a snarl, the waiter grabbed my arm, pulling me off to
the side. His grip was tight on my arm and I yelled, jerking
away. "Who do you think you are messing with?!?" I screamed. "Get your
manager over here NOW! I'm a lawyer, and if you don't want this place
closed down, you'll---"
"That's quite alright Henry," the man, Dr. Darke, said. I hadn't
seen him approach, and apparently neither had the waiter. "I'm sure
that this young lawyer and I can settle this without resorting to
harsh words." He patted the waiter on the shoulder, and smiled. "Go on
back to your station, and just forget about this whole incident." A
kind of glazed look flashed through his eyes for a moment, then
smiling stupidly, the waiter walked away. "Now then," he said,
addressing me. "What seems to be the problem? You didn't like the show
we were putting, I take it?"
I crossed my arms and glared at the man. "So, you admit to it?
That this woman was pleasuring you, and that you talked that waiter
into looking the other way."
Dr. Darke shook his head. "You see things so
one-dimensional. Yes, my lady friend was going down on me under the
table. She wanted to, and as she had been a good girl the past several
weeks I decided to let her. You see, its a thrill for her, being able
to do things like that in public. She's a bit of an
exhibitionist. With me, she gets to do things she would never have the
guts to do alone. As for Henry there," he said, gesturing to the young
waiter, "he's a good kid, I've known him all his life, and he couldn't
bring himself to believe anything bad about me."
"Well good kid or not, he lied when he said he saw no one under
your table. Half the room saw her, and no amount of denying it will
make it go away! Damn you, I am a lawyer entertaining an important
client here for dinner, and this little stunt of yours is going to
ruin it! Hell, its no doubt already ruined, and this whole thing will
no doubt end up in tomorrow's paper!"
The doctor smiled, placing a hand on my chin, turning my face
slightly to the side. I was stunned for a second at such a personal
touch from a stranger, but coming back to myself I jerked away. "What
the fuck---"
"Calm down, young lady," he said smoothly. "I was merely
admiring your profile. I have an eye for beauty, and I can see yours
shining through. Its hidden well inside that stuffy proud exterior of
yours, behind those horn rimmed glasses and that heavy starched
business suit. I was just thinking about Lisa, the girl back at my
table. She was just like you, at first, believe it or not. If you saw
a picture of her a year ago you wouldn't believe its the same person."
He turned to walk back to his table. "I wonder how you will look when
you finally come out of your shell."
What do you say to something like that? What COULD I say?
Anyway, when I went back into the room, he was back at his table, and
his date...his SLAVE, he had called her...she was back as well, both
eating dinner like nothing had happened. I made my way back to my own
table, shuddering to think of what Mrs. Printon would say about the
whole incident. To my utter disbelief, she smiled when I returned. "Oh
THERE you are, my dear," she gushed in a soft girlish voice. "Ralph
and I were beginning to think you had gotten lost. That nice waiter
brought our order while you were away. I think your earlier
presentation was more than adequate, and I'll agree with whatever
course of action you want to take, but I have changed my mind about
the settlement. Instead of ten million dollars, I only want two
million, enough to establish myself and live comfortably. He can keep
the rest, after all he deserves it for putting up with me!" She
laughed long and loud, and I wondered if perhaps she had lost her
mind. Moments before, she had went on and on about taking everything
including the shirt off his back, and now...a complete one eighty!
"Mrs. Printon, do you realize what you are saying?" I asked her,
ignoring Ralph Jenkins and his impatient glare. "You have him caught
on film with another woman. You have him dead to rights. I know we
could win this case for you, and get you ALL of it. No question! Think
about it carefully before you decide to settle for a measly two
million!"
"I HAVE thought it over, Ms. Preston," she told me, softly. "I
am quite sure. I have made his life miserable for the past three
years...I loved the money, not him. No, I'm not going to take
everything he worked so hard for out of spite. Two million, it is." I
knew my jaw must have hit the table because she smiled at me. "Don't
worry, Ms. Preston, you'll still get your commission, and your company
will continue to handle all my needs, if you want the business. I've
just had a change of heart, that's all."
Drinking deeply from my glass of champagne, I wondered on
that. Until then, I had assumed she had no heart at
all.
* * *
Ralph Jenkins grinned from ear to ear as he placed the
receiver back on the phone. "That was Mr. Madison himself, Shelley,"
he said excitedly. "With Printon under our wing, you have just earned
your junior partnership. Congratulations, Ms. Preston, you've earned
it!" He shook my hand, and I grinned trying not to preen at the
attention. I had earned it after all, it had been a long hard
struggle, but I was being rewarded. "Thanks Ralph. I appreciate your
helping me with the depositions. You and I are a team, and I'm taking
you to the top with me."
A devilish smile crossed his face---and for a moment it reminded
me of the look that doctor had given his lady---SLAVE---in the
restaurant earlier this evening. "Glad to know we are staying a team,
Shelley. I wouldn't want to work with anyone else...or ON anyone
else." I giggled at the foul-mouthed little scoundrel. Ralph was a
good man, and a good friend, and for months he and I had bantered back
and forth, playing a teasing game. I knew he wanted up my skirt, but I
wasn't looking to play the Mistress for a married man. He knew how I
felt as well, but it didn't stop him from making the occasional lewd
remark and obvious come-on. I didn't mind. I knew it was all in fun,
and we only bantered when we were alone. Besides, I secretly loved the
attention.
"Come on, you heathen. We're the last ones to leave, except
Madison and Gempler, and they practically LOVE here! I'll buy you a
drink."
"Sorry, my dear," Ralph sighed, shaking his head. "The wife has
opera tickets for this evening. She said come hell or high-water, we
were going this time." I tried to hold in the laughter, but it spilled
out anyway. "Oh thank you, soooo much, for your sympathy," he
commented sarcastically. "I'll see you on Monday. Have a good weekend,
and enjoy the free time. Starting Monday, you start the REAL work." Oh
yes, I thought to myself, work. Junior partner kind of work. I was an
executive, now. First thing in the morning I needed to go shopping for
clothes to match my rise in station.
Stepping into my car, I thought again about that strange man,
and the events of that day. It was all so unreal, it seemed like a
dream; even now I could barely recall his face, other than a vague
general description. The thing that stuck out the most in my mind was
the woman. That lovely, vibrant, sexy young woman, who looked as
lovely and as self confident as I longed to be. Yet that self same
woman had begged her...her...Master? to be able to suck him off under
the table in a crowded public restaurant. I had passed her again
leaving the place after the luncheon, and she smiled and winked at
me. She hadn't been embarrassed in the least, even though she must
have known the incident it had nearly caused. The man had hardly
seemed to mind either. It was all so strange. But for some reason my
mind wouldn't let go of it. Like a song stick in your head, the image
of that woman giving him a blowjob under the table kept flashing again
and again in my mind.
"Its your own repressed libido that is obsessing over this," I
said aloud to myself. When I am alone, I sometimes talk aloud to
myself, to help argue points. It helps when preparing for a case to
hear my own thoughts aloud. "You haven't had sex in over a year, and
suddenly its flashed in front of your face, where you can't ignore it
anymore." I had to admit, I was right. I wasn't a slut by any means,
but until graduating law school I had certainly never been
chaste. Maybe what I just needed was a good lay, to get my mind and
body realigned again. "But where can you find a guy you'd like to be
with out of the blue?" Hmmm...good question. Ralph was nice and a good
friend, but my personal views on cheating prevented me from even
contemplating it. "Then why did you even THINK of him in the first
place?" Another good question. "And why does the thought of doing it
with him make you feel...kinda nice? And a little wet?" A VERY good
question. This wasn't like me at all. The image of the man and woman
at the restaurant flashing in front of my eyes again, and I groaned as
I felt a tingle deep inside.
A blast from the horn of an oncoming car broke me out of my
thoughts, and I swerved back into the correct lane. Damn! I had nearly
killed myself thinking about this. What the hell was wrong with me?
"Nothing is wrong with you," I said to myself. "Its normal to get kind
of freaked out seeing something like that." True. But Ralph Jenkins
and Rebecca Printin seemed to have totally overlooked the incident,
not even finding it worth mentioning. Almost as if they didn't even
remember it. "But I do. I remember all too well. So why me? Why am I
so hung up on this thing? And what is it that I am so hung up on?" Was
it the daring, fearless way that the woman had went after what she
wanted, without thinking or worrying what everyone else would think?
Was it the man, that dark stranger that such a woman called Master, a
man that could make her do something so humiliating in public, so calm
and confident even when faced with angry irate people, condemning
them, judging them, without any idea of what was going on? "Just like
you did, at first, judging them, so shocked to see such a lovely woman
degrade herself that way. But she didn't seem at all degraded or upset
or embarrassed afterwards. She was happy, and completely at peace with
herself." So, was it possibly a twinge of jealousy, of that woman's
ability to put herself above other people's concerns, not trying to
get into the good graces of everyone around her? "Maybe. Maybe all of
the above in some part. What the...where in the hell am I?":
I stopped the car, peering out into the dark sky at the view
before me. The car was parked in front of a strange house, a large,
expensive, three story manor house, the kind I always pictured for
myself once I became a partner. The odd thing was, I had been never
been here before in my life! Somewhere along the ride home, I had
become lost in my thoughts and driven by some reflex or something to
this place. Furthermore, it had been only a quarter after six when I
had left the office, with the sun still above the horizon, and now it
was pitch Darke. Glancing at my watch, I found to my horror that the
time was now, nine thirty! I glanced at the house again, to find the
door now open, and a familiar man standing in the doorway, still
looking amused. "Don't be so frightened, Ms. Preston," Dr. Darke said
chuckling. "Its amazing how time flies when you get lost in
thought. And you really WERE lost for a good while. Come inside, and
I'll answer some of the nagging questions that you're just itching to
ask."
I don't know what shocked me more, his knowing my name, which I
had never mentioned, him expecting to see me here at his home, a place
I had never been to before, or that he actually had ANSWERS for all
the insanity that had just occurred. It didn't matter. Still in shock,
I moved my legs enough to get out of the car, and follow him
inside. My shock grew as I saw the woman from the restaurant lounging
naked on the sofa, smiling and waving as we passed by. Another woman,
a brunette, was cooking something in the kitchen, naked save for a
long apron. Moving into what was obviously the master study, I sat
down stiffly, while he closed the door and handed me a small
glass. "What are you in the mood for? Brandy? Sherry? I've got a nice
Cognac that I was nursing myself earlier. You didn't get to have that
drink with Mr. Jenkins earlier, so hopefully I will do for a
substitute." His words echoed in my already numb mind, as he poured
some liquor into my glass. I didn't even know which one, until I
tasted it. Brandy. Nice. Very smooth, with a nice bite to it. Rousing
a bit from the fog, I turned to face him.
"What's going on here? Who are you? And how do you know all
these things about me? How did you make me come here?" I felt a tide
of hysteria building up in me, and I had to fight to keep it
back.
He seemed to know what I was feeling. "Calm yourself,
Ms. Preston. Drink more of the brandy, it will calm your nerves." He
moved to sit down in a large leather easy chair, taking a small pipe
from a stand, lighting it and placing it between his teeth. "Now then,
let's start with the first one. 'What is going on here?' At the
moment, you and I are talking, you searching for answers for why you
seem so preoccupied on the incident earlier, and why you left for home
and ended up HERE instead. There are no simple answers to either
question, I'm afraid, I can only tell you what I know and let you make
the best of it that you can."
He took a deep drag on the pipe for a moment, as if searching
for the right words. "I noticed you at the restaurant. By that I mean
you stood out enough that it attracted my attention. It happens now
and again. At the restaurant, after that little...unfortunate incident
brought about by your friend, I had to step in and handle the
matter. I spoke with you for a little while, do you remember? I said
when I left that I wondered what you would be like when you finally
came out of your shell, when you finally let the TRUE Shelley Preston
out to play. So, I fixed it so that you would seek me out whenever you
felt that hidden part of yourself ready to come forth. And here you
are." He stopped and began smoking again.
I rose to my feet. "Fixed it? How? What did you do to me? I
didn't know how to get here, I just CAME here. I couldn't drive this
route again if my life depended on it!" Poor choice of words. I had no
idea where I was, with this strange man I didn't know. Suddenly I did
fear for my life.
"STOP THAT!" he said forcefully, and I obeyed, sitting back
down, calming a little, and to my surprise, growing slightly wet
again. "I am not going to harm you. Believe me, Shelley Preston, if I
wanted to hurt you, I could certainly have done so without dragging
you all the way here to my home. As I was trying to explain, I merely
want to help you explore that hidden side of you. I know some of what
went through your mind on the drive here, the constant thinking about
Lisa and how she dealt with the whole incident as if she had not a
care in the world. I brought you here because I think you would like
to share in that freedom." I had to swallow a bit. He seemed to know
my very thoughts, the inner working of my mind. "Its all up to you. I
will not force you to accept me, it must be your own choice. But you
don't have to accept now. There is still much more you should know
first.
"You asked, 'Who are you?'" He smiled, that same evil smile he
had flashed in the restaurant. "I suppose I could simply say I am
Dr. Jonothan Darke and go on to the next question. But you asked, so I
will be honest." He blew out a ring of smoke, which drifted my way,
making my eyes water. I blinked, and for a moment I thought I saw his
eyes glow strangely with a light of their own. Then it was gone. I
shook my head to clear it. Most likely just a trick of the
firelight.
"My name is...hmmm...it has been so long since I even thought of
myself by that name that I have forgotten it. But the name that best
describes me, the name that I earned in my Ascension Dance, is
Shadowdarke. 'Childe of darkness, childe of luminus, childe of
bothe, childe of either...born to a world of human, and Other,
belonging to bothe, to none, to neither.' That best describes me."
Pause. "There are Those Among Us that are not human, not men or women
as you know it." Another pause. "Suffice it to say, They have powers,
the likes of which you cannot imagine, the type of power that could
drive you mad in terror if you perhaps understood it completely." Long
pause. "I have this power also. My father was one of Them, and my
mother a human. So I guess that would make me a mixed breed of
sorts. Both my parents were Gifted, however, my mother too, and thus I
have my own unique powers." He paused once again, and then
blinked. The spell was broken, and the scenes of his early life
vanished. We were back in the study again. "I think that answers that
and the next two questions as well."
"It doesn't even BEGIN to answer my questions!" I blurt
out. "Who are these mysterious people? Where did they come from? What
do they want? Where do their powers come from? What---"
He held up a hand, and my words and thoughts froze instantly, as
if someone had pulled the plug. "Enough. To know everything about my
kind would take a lifetime...and you do not have long enough to
learn. Suffice it to say, many of Them, like myself, entrench
themselves in the world of men, content to simply live out our
lives. Some of Them lust for power and control, and in several
countries they are the unknown rulers that control everything. They
attack each other, killing Themselves off, trying to rule it all. But
I've spent my life content with what I have, seeking only to keep it,
not to expand. I watch, I hide, I live. Always in the background, like
my namesake." He lowered his hand again and my mouth and my brain
unfroze. "As for your unspoken question about Lisa and Mary, and my
other little ones. Yes, they are my slaves, and I use my powers over
them to some degree. But I love and care for them all, they are
basically their own persons, except they accept me as their Master. If
necessary, I could make any of them into a mindless puppet, but why
rob them of their individuality, when that is what makes them so
special and so attractive in the first place? They serve me of their
own free will, and I use my Gift only to enhance their pleasure, and
their servitude."
I was intrigued, but mostly I was scared. On the one hand it
sounded crazy: special people, aliens, some unknown race of super
beings, living secretly among us on the earth. It was the plot for a
science fiction novel! Yet, how else could you explain all the weird
things going on tonight? He could be a very good hypnotist---after all
he was a doctor of some kind! Still, it seemed impossible to hypnotize
EVERYONE in the place with just a glance, no matter how good you
are. And it would explain why Jenkins didn't seem to remember anything
out of the ordinary happening, as well as Mrs. Printon's unexpected
humanity towards her estranged husband. "Did you do something to the
two people---"
"Yes," he answered before I had even fully asked. "That woman
needed a light attitude adjustment, and I was more than happy to
oblige her. As for your friend, everyone that witnessed that little
incident forgot about it, noticing nothing at all out of the
ordinary. Except you, of course. And you can go ahead and ask your
next question as well, even though it isn't exactly a flattering one,
considering everything I have told you thus far already."
He was stealing the thoughts from my head again, I
realized. "Why do you even bother to have me ASK when you already know
the answers?" I asked angrily.
Dr. Darke took a long drag on his pipe, then set it back on the
stand where he had picked it up. "In that case, why ask anything at
all? I can see the art of conversation is wasted on you somewhat." He
let out a dry chuckle which annoyed me, although I had to admit he WAS
right. What use talking at all, if you knew everything a person was
thinking at a glance? I thought for a moment on what it must be like
to be him, to have such power over everyone around you. He glanced at
me sidelong, as if he knew what I contemplated, but remained
silent. He had a solid confidence about himself, a sense of knowing
what to do or say in any situation. He was utterly in control, I saw,
and he knew how to make the best use of it. But then I thought on
everything else, living for so many lifetimes, never ageing, never
growing old...watching those around you grow old and die. An old song
from Queen sprang up in my head, "Who Wants To Live Forever?" and it
so seemed to fit what I somehow sensed in him. Despite being able to
have virtually any woman in the world at his beckoned call, he was
lonely. Then, it hit me, his words earlier, about wanting to show me
the same 'freedom' as his other slaves...but only by my own free
will. He wanted companions, not mindless puppets. It was touching, in
an odd sort of way.
"I think I understand what you wanted from me," I said slowly,
trying to let the lump in my throat pass. "But I don't think I can
simply give up my life and my control to you, just because you want me
to. I've put my whole life into my career. I haven't got time for love
or a relationship, or any of that. I have a job that I love, and
people that look up to me, that respect me, and I'm not willing to
give it all up."
"Yet you are here," Dr. Darke said, leaning forward a bit in his
chair, looking deep into my eyes. It was unnerving, considering his
powers. "The simple suggestion I gave you is that you would come to me
only when you were truly ready and willing to delve into that hidden
side of yourself, to release that repressed sexuality inside you. Do
you think there can be change without sacrifice? You will have to give
up much to gain more. So decide now, what you will do, what you
want."
It was so unfair, to make me choose right now. This was the rest
of my life we were talking about here! And I was torn two ways. He was
exciting, and dark and handsome and mysterious. He was powerful. and
that power drew me like a moth to a flame. The image of that
woman...Lisa? back at the restaurant, flickered in my mind again, and
I let out a soft moan of pleasure. How I wanted that to be me...but
the price for that kind of freedom was ironically enough, my own
enslavement. I wanted to have my cake and eat it to, I realized. I
wanted to submit to his power, to be his slave, and have him command
and raise such feelings in me, yet I didn't want to give up my old
safe comfortable life. It was all just too much.
Dr, Jonothan Darke rose from his chair, and stepped in front of
me, glancing down on me with a look of sympathy and love, but also
sternness. "You've had time to think," he said softly.
"Choose now."
And I did.
* * *
As I lay back in bed, dreamily, against his broad naked
chest, clutching myself to him as I drifted off to sleep, I smiled to
myself. I knew I still had a long and difficult road ahead, and that
my life was changing drastically. But strangely, I felt completely at
peace with it all. As I gazed upon the sleeping form of my Master, I
thought about that conversation so long ago, about the choice he had
given me. It had only been a month ago, yet it seemed almost like an
eternity. With difficulty I can recall the unease, the indecision, and
the fear, I once felt. I remember the life I used to lead, the
unfulfilling, boring, trivial life that I had clung to so
needfully. Jonothan had asked me to choose. To be his slave, and be
set free from that old constraining life, or to remain as I was,
living my dreary old life. I smiled again, stroking my Master's soft
handsome face. In the end, it had been no choice at
all.
>>>END.