Are you ready?!
Theres a place inside my mind, a place I like to hide,
you don't know the chances, what if I should die?
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain,
you don't know the chances, I'm so blind, blind, blind.
Another place I'll find, escape the pain inside,
you don't know the chances, what if I should die?
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain,
you don't know the chances, I'm so blind, blind, blind.
Deeper and deeper and deeper is all i'm turning
to living a life that seems to be, a lost reality
that i can never find. a way to reach my inner self.
I stay alone.
How deep can I go in the ground that I lay?
If I don't find a way to see through the grey that clouds my mind
It 's time I looked to see which was realized
I can see, I can see I'm going blind. 12X
I'm blind. 4X
[Ball Tongue]
There you are, alone, with no hope of ever having,
something to be proud of, something earned without begging.
Yes, I know you're a person, a person close to me.
Who do think you are? What more do you want from me.
Ball Tongue. 4X
Why are you at home, buried in your self-pity?
Why do you insist on making a mockery out of me?
Yes, I know you're the person, the person that took time with me.
Does it give you the right to expect your life revolves around me?
Ball Tongue. 8X
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (I'm not gonna give in)
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (I'm not gonna give in)
How can you fucking doubt me? But, not again... 8X
Ball Tongue. 8X
You're a Phyco-fuck. 6X
Ball Tongue. 8X
You're a DYKE!
[Need To]
I, I'm confused. I hate myself for wanting
to give in, to needing your help.
Skin cold with fear, feel it when we touch.
Outside, I know you but, inside, I'm fucked.
Can you see in me? Skin cold from touch.
Each day confronted with what I have done.
You pull me closer, I push you away.
You tell me it's okay, I can't help but feel the pain.
I hate you.
Why are you taken?
I loved you.
Why do I feel so helpless?
Why's it you?
Ripping my insides each time I'm with you.
Why, oh why do I cry? Why do I really need to?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Fuck you bitch!
need to, need to, need to...
Fuck... fuck... fuck... fuck...
I hate you.
Why are you taken?
I loved you.
Why do I feel so helpless?
Why's it you?
Ripping my insides each time I lay with you.
Why, oh why do I cry? Why do I fucking need to?
Fuck
Slut...
[Clown]
Anger inside, comes within my body.
Why do you hate me? What have I done?
You tried to hit me.
Scream at me, and if you like,
throw your hate at me, with all your might.
Hit me because I'm strange, hit me.
Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me.
What's with you boy? Think hard...
A tattooed body to hide who you are.
Scared to be honest, be yourself.
A cowardly man.
I don't run round, trying to be what's not within me.
Look into my eyes, I am free. You're just a wannabe.
Scream at me, and if you like,
throw your hate at me, with all your might.
Hit me because I'm strange, hit me.
Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me.
What's with you boy? Think hard...
A tattooed body to hide who you are.
Scared to be honest, be yourself.
A cowardly man...to come out.
Hit me clown because im not for you to know. Now, hit me clown. 4X
Clown you ain't shit, turn around, get your face split.
Clown you ain't shit, turn around get your face split.
Hell you ain't shit, turn around get your face split.
Hell you ain't shit, turn around get your face split.
Turn at me, and if you like,
throw your hate at me, with all your might.
Hit me because I'm strange, hit me.
Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me.
What's with you boy? Think hard...
A tattooed body to hide who you are.
Scared to be honest, be yourself.
A cowardly man.
Just a-fuckin' little... 8X
[Divine]
I hide, but only to defy you. Take away the only love inside you.
I'll see your face through everyone, inside I've just begun.
You think I'm out to scare you? I'm only out to prepare you.
For when you stop and turn around - your body's going down.
You're gonna waste your time. Your life will soon be mine.
You're definitely one of a kind. You're suffering because of me.
It's divine.
Tell me, why you never liked me? Tell me, once that you'll fight me
Bold, and you wait for the perfect time,
to take what's rightfully mine.
You pave the dumb, that don't bother me.
You say your dumb that to defy me.
You weigh your dumb on anyone. Oh well....
You're gonna waste your time. Your life will soon be mine.
You're definitely one of a kind. You're suffering because of me.
It's divine.
Fuck you! I'm fed up with you. I'm not as good as you?
Fuck no, I'm better than you.
You're gonna waste your time. Your life will soon be mine.
You're definitely one of a kind. You're suffering because of me.
It's divine.
Did you really think you'd beat me at my own game?
You tried, you see what you got, me ripping at your brain.
[ Faget]
Here I am. Different in this normal world.
Why do you tease me, make me feel absurd?
Walking stereotypes, feeding their heads.
I am ugly, please just go away.
I can see inside you fine. This blessing in disguise.
Why do you treat me this way? Make the hate stay.
I sound like I can never see no escape, all the laughing, all the pain.
If you were around me, what would you do?
Nothing probably, you'd just throw me away.
I can see inside you fine. This blessing in disguise.
Why do you treat me this way? Make the hate stay?
Faget
Here I am. Different in this normal world.
Why do you tease me, make me feel absurd?
Walking stereotypes, feeding their heads.
I am ugly, please just go away.
I can see inside you fine. This blessing in disguise.
Why do you treat me this way? Make the hate stay.
Faget.
Pussy...
I'm just a pretty boy, or whatever you call it,
you wouldn't know a real man if you saw it.
It keeps going on, day after day, son;
You fag.
get away, we dont want none.
I'm sick and tired of people treating me this way everyday
im just a fuck,
now I got something to say:
To all the people that think I'm strange,
that I should be out of here, locked up in a cage.
You don't know what the hell I fuck now anyway.
You got this pretty boy feelin' like I'm enslaved
to a world that never appreciated shit;
You can suck my dick and fucking like it!
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty any say.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty anyway.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty going to say.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty anyway.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty any say.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty going to waste.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty going to say.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty anyway...
I'm just a pretty boy - I'm not supposed to fuck a girl.
I'm just a pretty boy - Living in this fucked up world.
All my life, who am I?
All my life
I'm just a faget.
I'm a faget.
I'm not a faget. (Or am I?)
You motherfuckin' queers
[Shoots and Ladders]
Ring-a-round-the-rosies.
Pocket full of posies.
Ashes, ashes, we all fall down.
Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head.
Into my childhood, they're spoonfed.
Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real.
Look at the pages that cause all this evil.
One, two - buckle my shoe.
Three, four - shut the door.
Five, Six - pick up sticks.
Seven, Eight - lay them straight
London Bridge is falling down,
falling down, falling down.
London Bridge is falling down my fair lady.
Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head.
Into my childhood, they're spoonfed.
Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real.
Look at the pages that cause all this evil.
Knick-knack paddywhack, give a dog a bone.
This old man came rolling home.
Mary had a little lamb, it's fleece was white as snow.
(Baa Baa Black have you any wool? Yes sir, yes sir, three bags full)
Ring-a-round-the-rosies.
Pocket full of posies.
Ashes, ashes, we all fall down.
Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head.
Into my childhood, they're spoonfed.
Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real.
Look at the pages that cause all this evil.
Knick-knack paddywhack, give a dog a bone.
[ Fake]
Can't stand the sight of you.
I can't stand what you put me through.
Your life's a lie, that you hide.
Is it that terrible being you inside?
I can't stand all the thought of you.
I can't stand all the things you do.
Why do you try, to justify?
You are just too scared to be you inside
Let it all go.
Look at you, all I see is a man too afraid to really be.
I can't stand what you put me through.
I can't stand even the thought of you.
Your secret lies, that you hide.
is it that terrible being you inside?
Let it all go.
Look at you, all I see is a man too afraid to really be.
You try so hard to be wanted.
False emotions tells you fronted.
I think being a person relies on one thing,
be yourself, let you come through.
You're too afraid to really be someone who isn't
false and doesn't care to be.
You're too afraid to really be.
Be yourself let you come through.
Fake
Let it all go.
[ Lies]
I like to search inside for the things that you all hide.
What's the problem?
Can't you seem to set loose the problems that haunt and taunt you?
I smile while you're afraid. You run, while your soul pays.
Do you ever see outside your fields?
Thinking about your life.
Thinking about your inner fears.
I like to search inside for the things that you will hide.
What's the problem?
Can't you seem to open your body and let me touch you?
Do you ever see outside your fears?
Thinking about your life.
Thinking about your inner fears.
I want you to see, master of disguise.
For all the things that hurt you, of all these useless lies.
I want you to fear, fill you on up inside.
Once I'd took you in, I'd throw you out instead.
I try. You win. My life...
is ripping your heart and destroying my pain.
Do you ever see outside your fields?
Thinking about your life.
Thinking about your inner fears.
[Helmet in the bush]
Hello? Esta Caco? El es Caco?
Eh, you know, y-you fuckin' call me el Caco? OK?
I keep asking what's your lie?
It is disturbing, it squeezes mine.
Days keep passing. One notch at a time.
I don't feel right. Please God let me sleep tonight.
Every day confronted.
Fuck off, it's giving in.
I just wanna know why?
Want to give it up but I can't escape.
I keep asking, can you please try.
It is haunting, this tin stone mine.
Days keep passing. Line after line.
I don't feel right.
Please God don't let me die tonight.
Every day confronted.
Fuck off, it's giving in.
I just wanna know why?
Want to give it up but I can't escape.
Please God.
Please God help me.
Please God free me.
Please God help me from my painful situation.
Please God help me.
Please God free me.
Please God save me from my painful situation.
(Want to give it up, no I can't escape)
[Daddy]
My father, Please forgive me.
I just had to get out all my pain and suffering.
Now that I am done,
Remember I will always love you.
I'm your son.
Little child
looking so pretty
come out and play
I'll be your daddy.
Innocent child {daddy}
looking so sweet
rape in mind
and now, your flesh I'll eat.
you raped
i feel dirty
it hurt
as a child
tied down
"thats a good boy"
and fucked
your own child
i scream
no one hears me
it hurt
not a liar
my god,
saw you watch
mommy why? your own child
little child
looking so pretty
come out and play
ill be your daddy
you raped
i feel dirty
it hurt
as a child
tied down
"thats a good boy"
and fucked
your own child
i scream
no one hears me
it hurt
im not a liar.
my god,
i saw you watch
mommy why?
"its all right".
you raped.
i feel dirty.
it hurt.
as a child.
tied down.
"thats a good boy".
and fucked.
your own child.
i wake.
no one hears me.
it hurt.
tied down.
no one hit me.
they raped.
your own child.
i sit.
no one hears me.
it hurt.
as a child.
tied down.
"thats a good boy".
and fucked.
your own child.
i sway.
no one hears me.
it hurt.
as a child.
tied down.
no one hears me.
mommy why?
your own child.
"i didnt touch you there."
mommy said she didnt care.
"i didnt touch you there."
thats when mommy stopped and stared.
little child
looking so sweet
rape in mind
and now
your flesh ill eat
you raped
i feel dirty
it hurt
as a child
tied down
"thats a good boy"
and fucked
your own child
i scream
no one hears me
it hurt
im not a liar.
my god,
i saw you watch
mommy why?
your own child...
you raped
i feel dirty
it hurt
not a liar
my God
saw you watching
daddy why?
your own child
i scream
no one hears me
it hurt
im not a liar!
my god,
i saw you watch
mommy why?
your own child
you raped!!
i feel dirty..!
it hurt!
not a liar..!
my God!
saw you watching,
daddy why?!
your own child.
i scream!
no one hears me!
it hurt..
im not a liar!!
my god,
i saw you watch..
mommy why?!
your own child..
*Jonathan breaks down*
you raped!!
i feel dirty..!
it hurt!
not a liar..!
my God!
saw you watching,
daddy why?!
your own child.
i scream!
no one hears me!
it hurt..
im not a liar!!
my god,
i saw you watch..
mommy why?!
I fucking hate you
you fucking...motherfucker!
i fucking hate you!
fucking hell, you son of a bitch!
you fucking ruined my life!
i wasnt lying dad!
you stupid motherfucker!
oh, you fucking piece of...
i hate you.
i fucking hate you!
i..hate...you!
piece of shit!!
*scream*
I...I...*sob*
*Jonathan crying*
when im awake i see your face
when im awake,
ill see your light
when im awake
i'll see your light
mother wake me, from my dreams
mother wake me, in the light
when im awake ill see your face
when im awake, i'll see your light.
(to fade)
Lyrics - Self Titled