i'm takin it in
i'm numb to it now
all this anger
all this rage
all this pain
drives me insane
am i weak to this disease
will i carry the burden
to go on thru this life
so i'm flyin high now
far away from all this pain
up inside and gone now
floatin away from all of this
i'm takin it all in
i'm all numb to it now
all this anger all this rage
all of this pain
it drives me insane
i cant take it
everywhere all around
nothin but filth
so i'm flyin high now
far away from all this pain
up inside and gone now
floatin away from all of this
then i take all of it in
i dont give a shit now
u dont care about me
never will
never did
ur heart is fuckin cold
ud wish i'd die
so u cant let me in
wont let me in
then i take all of it in
then i take all of it in
i'm takin it in!
takin all of it in!
takin it in!
takin all of it...
[Untitled]
[this poem is dedicated to and inspired by JONATHAN DAVIS aka GOD- Jon]
in my head...by myself...all alone
yeah well they own me
dont respect or love me
i love the lies of devils
they have stayed real
they fucked my mind
then raped me
i got off of em
i could feel
i have no ego now
rape has blessed me
i'm not happy
get the fuck outta my face
i'm a friendless whore
i'm ur friend, i'm a bore
daddy showed me adult things
shoved his dick and sucked my thing
hey daddy i cant live w/out them
i will rape u if thats what u want
u love damage and pain
dirty lil kunt like me
dirty
in my head
by myself
all alone
i'm not the one
i'm still ur friend until the end
feel my pain blow my brain
to kingdom come
thy will be done
i'm not someone i'm no one
there is no god
didnt u know?
god hates us all
dont love him
dont trust him
he raped me
then fucked me
we are a part that is fate
drives me to my very hate
i'm doin nothin i am nothin
cum
dance with me
[Dragon]
this pain i feel is what
u have lost or gained
comes out of the rain
has a purpose
wants to live
wants to love
wants to cause pain
for strength he gains
i fear i too am a ferocious
dragon tearin at my soul
wantin to let go
wantin to give in
set fire to ashes that
lay in between
the poison is love
the pain is hate
everythin must forsake
i cant ever leave u alone
my mind is poison
comin home from the storm
think i dont know?
think that i'm blind?
u are that delicious meal
that burns away in my mind
its a game roll the dice
but remember to think twice
ur tormented cuz u torment
sick as i am so get sick with it
only cuz we are free
fly away like those dragons
they fear not a thing
feel that they can reign
that they will become king
i'm already burnt and torn
dead and gone
no fight left in me
so i burn down the ash
burn whats already burnt
those dragons are on ur side
only want to feel not run and hide
i feel so strong becomin a dragon
feel not helpless i'm not braggin
the hurt and pain i feel
is that fire inside me that makes me real
i HATE i told u that i do
nothin i say can make me feel nemore blue
i have no friends that really even care
so i let it all out and taste the air
taste ur soul ur life ur breath
then let u die and let u become death
eat ur ashes so i can live
everythin u do or say i always forgive
its not a battle u fight with me or them
its a battle u fight from within
u feel no hope u dont believe
all u feel is ur pain and misery
rise up from the ashes and let me
hear u roar, let me see the fire
cum out from the sore
answers for me are quite clear
nothin, no one, not a thing i fear
i will stay but then fly away
with the wind on my wings
i will wither away
and i will always fight
for what is right
they wont win they will die
as i reach my biggest point on high
i will stretch my wings and i will reign
supreme once again over everyone
everythin
[i'm not insane]
in the back of my mind
everythin looks blind
i am a fool for thinkin
i'm not insane
u dont love me for who i am no more
all u've ever loved is no one
i hate this place
i hate my pain
i hate the way god makes me insane
i hate myself and i hate u too
i'm not insane
i'm not insane
in the back of my mind
fallin-broken-wasted time
am i a fool for thinkin
i'm not insane-i'm just broken
fallin down thru all this pain
nothin is all that i've ever gained
am i a fool for thinkin
i'm not insane-i'm just broken
broken broken broken
i hate this place i hate my pain
i hate the way god makes me insane
i hate myself and i hate u too
i'm not insane
i'm not insane
in my thoughts i dream of wakin
in my dreams i think of hatin
for myself i've becum no one
for myself i'm fallen-broken broken broken
broken broken i'm all broken fallin down-crashed-burned-broken
humpty hump hump humpty sat on the fuckin wall-fuckin broken
fucked up fall-broken broken i'm all broken fallin down-crashed-burnt-and fuckin
broken-hump hump humpty sat on the fucked up wall-fucked up-broken-fucked up
fall
[the dawn]
pain is all thats left
a feelin i know best
nothin left for me to say
all this pain has left me grey
nowhere else for me left to go
but down into my own sorrow
feelin helpless..feelin lost
feelin like i want to kill
all this pain becums my thrill
all alone...alone and cold
feelin sorrow always pain
hold the gun up to my brain
i'm a coward..i'm a shame
i'm nobody..i'm not here
all of this...nothins clear
shadow mind empty
dark soul revealed
i hate this all i hate me as well
hate this pain...this pain is sorrow
i dont wanna live tomorrow
hold the gun up to my head
watch me crash down to the floor
run fast outside ur door
run as far as u can go
run until u cant run nemore
slow urself...remember me
remember where i used to be
now my pain is all gone
now my sorrow is the dawn
[I'll make you miserable]
help me with this shit
tell me to deal with it
hate me for my lies
tell urself i've died
do u really believe
u can stay away
from me
u cant hide
u have died
along with my heart
dont know where to start
to tell u that
i have lied
i have died
u dont care
ur not ever there
will u lie when i die
tell em that u loved me
u will lie when i die
my pain is gone now
i went numb
why should i care
about u
feelins u've drained from me
take it all away
i went numb
i'm not happy
i'm not dumb
i'm not nethin
i cant feel
u right now
have no fear
nothin to me now
i'm not happy i hate myself i hate u too dont
think i dont everythins gone everythins
fucked nothin is right nothin is no more cuz i feel
nothin i'm not happy u dont care that i've gone numb i
cant feel u i dont love u nothin is true everythin is fucked
my pain is gone now
i went numb
why should i care
about u
feelins u have drained
take it all away
i went numb
i'm not happy
i'm not dumb
i'm not nethin
i cant feel u right now
i have no fear
nothin to me now
will u lie when i die
tell em that u loved me
u will lie when i die
my pain is gone now
why do u love
someone who lies
how...why
did u take to me
dont take to me
i will destroy u
stay away
i will fight and scream
kick u until u see
how truly ugly i am
i dont deserve u
i dont deserve this
i wont be there for u
my heart is a mess
i'll make u miserable too
if u get to close....
[disturbing]
theres gotta be some light at the end of the tunnel
some proof that i'm here but not cuz of a shovel
i feel drained for some reason i mean, not me
gone with the wind, gone to be free
will not let u feel this my withered kiss
my head hurts for some reason
i dont wanna miss this
feel like i'm blue
never nothin
to do
i have fallen
i have found
nothin around me
nothin fallin down
but i feel u all the time
i cant regret what was mine
u could feel me
if u would only see
yes i'm lost
only to be found
i'll never let u
see my face
fall on the ground
dont worry
i cant feel u
i dont care what u miss
i have fallen thru
into u
into me
think that
ur free
i cant let it beat
me
all that i've seen
all that i've lived
all that i dare
u dont dare to care
do u? i cant feel u
i dont care what u miss
i have fallen thru
into u
into me
think that
ur free
i cant let it beat me
down nemore
i am lost now i'm found
never fallen
not my broken crown
i wont give it to u
i never loved u
i never cared
now take this vow
and shove it where
ur ass dont shine
fallen broken
u were wasted time
all i gave u was all i had
now take it
i dont want it
i will never feel u again
u can take that down
to ur grave
and remember
what i've told u
dont forget dont regret
i dont love u
i cant feel ur pain
- dedicated to Jonathan Davis
i cant feel ur pain nemore
i'm glad i'm not like u
i'm happy u dont hear
i'm glad that i dont know u
i'm happy u feel so blue
i dont need to explain myself
u beat me down with all ur hell
feelin empty is what u do
i'm not scared
u dont scare me
u dont know me
u think that u do
nothin that u do
makes me full of u
IDIOTS-BEATIN ME DOWN!!!! bringin me down
all this pain inside my head
seems to grow to make me dead
inside of me i know its true
outside of u theres nothin
u dont have a clue
nothin u say wont ever do
i dont know u
i'm glad that i dont
u take all of me
and scatter free
try to control me
is all that u do
u wont feel me
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
FAGOT!!!!!!!!!
i can see inside u fine
i can see u fallin down
ur nothin to me
i hate that ur so gay
FAGOT!!!!! FAGOT!!!!!!!
i cant feel ur pain
