Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera are always by his side. Everyone knows that Britney and Christina are in a relationship, but if Justin hangs out with them, no body cares.
There�s also JC Chasez, Justin�s best friend. He was gay. He was nice to everyone. His only guy best friend is Justin, the rest of his friends are girls.
Every girl in the building has the hoots for JC and Justin. They are always staring at them if they are in the same room.
Marshal Matters. He�s the black sheep of the school. He hates everyone. He goes to everyone and starts dicing him or her to start a fight. Everyone is afraid of him and they make sure that they aren�t in the same room as him.
Unfortunately, there came a new student and he was forced to sit beside him for all the classes. Me. James Bass. The minute I took out my notebook, Marshal jumped out of his seat saying that he wouldn�t sit beside a faggot.
I took my things and left the room. I couldn�t stay in the classroom because it was the reason I had to change school. I had to run away, but before I did, someone placed a hand on my arm.
�Don�t let him walk over you like that,� said the voice.
I turned around and the most beautiful blue eyes I have ever seen met me. I couldn�t speak at all.
I find you so amazin'
With everyday I learn more about you
The way you work day out and day in
And still find time for us too, yeah
Ever since that moment, JC and I spent a lot of times together. We did our homework together in the library and Marshal hasn�t spoken to me since then. Now, every time I walk past Justin�s locker, he looks at me with a killer look. I don�t know why because JC and I aren�t best friends like those two are and I�m amazed that JC spends time with me at all. I don�t have friends, except JC.
I never told JC about the looks Justin always throw in my direction. I always tell myself that Justin didn�t like the change. I heard from a student that Justin and JC were inseparable and that JC had never spent this much time with someone that wasn�t in their circle of friends.
I did try to come up with excuses to not spend time with him, hoping he�d go back to Justin. Later I found that he stayed in the library, away from Justin. So I decided to ask him what was going on.
�Why are you asking that?� JC asked reading his agenda to know what pages he had to do.
�Well, I heard that you and Justin were always together� and well� he always throws these dirty looks towards me and� I don�t want to have problems because I spend time with you�� I said looking at my hands.
�Lance, it�s not you, it�s me� I�m sorry,� JC said looking up.
�Sorry for what?� I asked weakly, looking up not understanding.
�I kind of used you to get away from him� But don�t get me wrong! I like doing homework with you and studying� I just�� JC looked down and mumbled the rest.
�What did you say?� I asked, leaning towards him to hear what he said.
JC looked up and stared at Lance debating if he should tell him or not. He decided that he could trust Lance with it and he told him everything.
I love the fact that you're there for me
When I feel down
No matter what I'm going through
Lately, I've been questioning myself
Am I good enough for you?
Justin wanted to kill Lance. He didn�t understand what JC saw in that guy in the first place. JC gave up on their basketball games to study with him. On the rare occasions that JC spent time with him, he always told him that Lance did this, knows all about that and how good of a friend he was.
Justin wanted to yell so many times to get JC�s attention. Justin didn�t like this change at all. He even brought the shirt that JC told him would look good on him. All JC said was �it�s about time you brought it�. Justin wanted to hurt him so badly.
He often wanted to jump on Lance and just beat the shit out of him, all the while telling him what he really thought of him. But he never did. He couldn�t do that, because he�d loose JC for good.
Justin stopped eating. Not entirely, he did eat, a few bites here and there. JC saw it and he came to him asking what was wrong. Justin shrugged and lied to him saying that he was just stressed about the finals that were approaching quickly.
Am I worthy of?
Am I man enough?
Am I strong enough
To maintain this love?
You got me questionin'
Got me wonderin'
Could I be that man
That can keep you happy?
Justin and JC were sitting on the basketball court after a one on one game. Justin was staring at the ball on his lap while JC drank his water.
�Do you love him?� Justin asked quietly.
JC almost choked on his water and spit out the water. He coughed a little and whipped his mouth into the bottom of his shirt.
�What?�
�Do you love Lance?� Justin asked angrily looking into his friend�s eyes.
�No! Where did this come from? We are friends!� JC replied shocked.
�Britney and Christina saw the two of you last week in the library. Both of you were leaning towards the other. You were talking about God knows what but at the end, you guys hugged and you had a goofy smile on you face,� Justin said looking down at his hands.
�I explained him a problem he didn�t understand in his work and he thanked me,� JC lied.
�Whatever,� Justin said getting up before he jogged out of the court.
�I love you Justin, not him,� JC said as he watched his friend.
I know that there'll be times when I'll be miles away
And you'll be all alone
I constantly fight my insecurities
When I can't reach you by phone
Justin and his team were on the other side of the country for a basketball tournament. He couldn�t stop thinking about what his two friends told him about JC and Lance. He wondered if JC was with Lance doing something. He just wanted his friend back. He missed him.
He looked up at him. He didn�t have the balls enough to tell his parents and three friends that he was gay. Walking around the school with a different girl every two months didn�t make him happy at all. He always compared them to JC.
How many nights did he cry himself to sleep thinking that he�d never be with JC? He tried everything to have his attention, but it never worked. And hey, if JC isn�t interested in him, then he�ll admire him from a distance pretending to be happy with the girl of the moment.
And oh Lord knows that I'm only human
So, please forgive me if I ask so many silly questions
I know that you truly love me
But fear has me second guessing
Poor JC, he had it bad for Justin. It was obvious that Justin wasn�t interested in him. He was dating the most beautiful girls in the building. It was true that he kept changing every three months, but the girls cheated on him or they just get fed up. Whatever that means.
JC was sulking around during the week Justin was gone. I did try to cheer him up but it never worked. At least, this proved to him how much Justin was important in his life. I did try to let him know that it was time to let Justin know about his feelings but JC wouldn�t listen. He�d say that Justin was straight as an arrow.
Justin came back a few days after and I heard him say that he was going to stay after school to do his math homework at the library. I went and looked for JC.
�Hey, I�ll need some help in my math homework, can we do it at the library after school?� I asked him.
�Yeah sure, what time and where?� JC asked me.
I told him exactly what Justin said and left JC after we said goodbye. I didn�t see JC for the rest of the day and I did everything to stay away. After school, I ran home hoping no one saw me. I just hoped the two of them would work things out.
Am I worthy of?
Am I man enough?
Am I strong enough
To maintain this love?
You got me questionin'
Got me wonderin'
Could I be that man
That can keep you happy?
JC walked into the library and looked around for Lance. Strangely, the whole library was empty. He then remembered that there was a football game going on. He went around the second story and saw Justin. Both his hands were in his head as he read his book. JC just stood there watching his friend try to do his homework.
He slowly walked behind him and looked over his shoulder. He saw that he was struggling with math. He took the pen out of Justin�s hand and wrote him down the proper equation. Justin felt JC�s muscles move on his shoulder.
�You had the wrong equation,� JC said placing the pen back down before he sat down beside him.
�Thanks,� Justin replied grabbing the pen and trying the problem again.
JC watched his friend who stared in front of him. He knew he was thinking of something but couldn�t quite figure out what it was. He shook his head and kept reading the book he had to read for his final in writing.
�Uh� JC?� Justin asked quietly after a few moments.
�Hmm?� JC replied finishing his sentence before placing his book down to look at his friend.
�Nothing,� Justin replied.
�Are you sure?� JC asked placing a hand on his shoulder.
�Yeah,�
�Okay, just know I�m here for you if you need anything,�
Justin nodded before continuing his homework. After a few more problems solved, Justin placed his pen beside his book and closed the book. JC looked up at his friend who had his face in his hands. JC bit his lip, not wanting to scare Justin away if he said exactly what he wanted to say.
Justin sighted before looking up and grabbing his things. He got up and looked down at JC. He looked up silently questioning him with his eyes. Justin just nodded with his head and JC grabbed his stuff before following his friend.
They quietly walked side by side both in their own thoughts as they walked the short distance from the school to Justin�s small apartment. When they arrived, they both put their books on the table by the door before going into the kitchen.
�You want something to drink?� Justin asked as he opened the fridge.
�Water,� JC replied sitting down at the table.
Justin grabbed two bottle of water before he closed the fridge and sat down in front of JC. He handed him his water and the two of them drank quietly. They sat there staring at the bottle of water in their hand for a good ten minute not saying a word. Both of them were deep in their thoughts on how to tell the other about something they�ve been longing to say for a few good years now.
�How did you know I�d be at the library today?� Justin asked breaking the silence.
�Lance told me he needed help and we agreed to meet at the library,� JC replied shrugging his shoulders before taking another sip of his water.
�Cool,� Justin muttered under his breath all the while nodding with his head.
�So um, how�s basketball going on for you?� JC asked looking up into Justin�s blue orbs.
�Fine,� Justin whispered his answer.
They stared into each other�s eyes not even hearing the phone ringing. The machine picked it up and the two men just stared not even moving a muscle. Neither one of them realized that they were leaning against each other slowly. They only realized they did so, when their lips connected softly.
Both of them froze, realizing they were standing with their hands on the table for support. They just stood there realizing what happened and soon apologized at the same time. Justin turned away blushing like a school girl would while JC stormed out of the kitchen and locked himself in the bathroom. He looked himself in the mirror as he though of what happened in the kitchen a few moments ago.
Am I worthy of?
Am I man enough?
Am I strong enough
To maintain this love?
A soft knock came on the door and bought JC out of his thoughts. He blinked a few times until he heard Justin�s soft voice from the other side of the door. JC took a deep breath before he went to the door and unlocked it. He opened it and was met with Justin�s concerned face.
�Jace, I�m�� Justin was cut off when JC grabbed him by his shirt and pulled him towards him.
He captured his lips in a fevered frenzy, sweeping him away in desire. It was a passionate kiss full of love and desire. Justin kissed him back equally as his arms went around JC�s waist to pull the other man closer to him while JC�s arms went around his neck.
They pulled away gasping for air speechlessly. Neither them knew what to say. They just looked at each other hoping that the other knew about his feelings without needing to say it out loud. JC pulled Justin back to him and they stood nose to nose while JC steals a few kisses from Justin.
�So�� Justin tempts to ask the question that�s burning his tongue.
�So, you wanna try this out or not?� JC asked as his hands slided in Justin�s jeans back pockets and he grabbed his ass firmly.
�Hell yeah,� Justin replied closing his eyes before leaning in to kiss JC again.