1

"my story begins"

Outside my bedroom window I stare into the deep sea. The breeze blows the curtains and I begin to dream. There I am in the middle of the living room with my family all situated around waiting for the phone to ring, to tell ME that I have won the MTV contest to spend the summer with NSYNC on the set of the Real World. Of course they are going to be touring some so there will be alot of traveling but thats ok i would be with NSYNC.

The fantasy is interupted by the crashing noise of my baby sister knocking over my tower of cds to the floor.
I turn from the window in horror at the sound, the roof could have been falling for all I know.

Kala! what are you doing?
I sweep her little mischievious butt up off the floor. Swinging her around untill she can take no more.
Back to the living room for you little girl.

With only 2 days away from the contest closing I had found myself becoming very nervous about the whole thing. What if I DID win? Could I really function as a normal human being as they do? Especially Jc. How would I even talk to him withough foaming at the mouth, or even WORSE tripping or something stupid?
 

2

"nervous tension"

I needed to calm down and try to come up with a plan that would get me through this, I would NEED a plan if by some FREAKISH accident I won the contest!

MTV took into concideration for the guys convience the set of 'the real world' is going to be in Orlando. Lucky for ME i live in Orlando! So there would be a good chance I would get to catch a glance of them even if I didnt win! Maybe!

My train of thought lapsed when my mom walked into my room, setting on the bed as I was, popping my fingers over and over....she had to comment

Lisa stop that, do you think murdering your fingers will make them call any sooner?
Oh Mom! What If I DO WIN? Im so nervous!
Relax Lisa, they are ONLY guys! You are 18 now, you can do what you want with your life. I wish it involved going off to a nice college but this is a once in a life time thing I understand. So if you dont hear from that contest today I want you to go down to the local community college and see about enrollment ok!

Ok mom, i will do that
 

3

"the no call"

They never called. My heart broke in two knowing my chance of meeting the beautiful Jc Chasez was over.

I cried myself to sleep.

4

"therapy"

I drove myself down to the college the next morning. Off to see my guidence counsler, try to figure out a way to heal myself so I could forget this *NSYNC business.

I walked into the main building, up a flight of stairs to the enrollment office. There she stood my WORSE nightmare. Jennie Mac. Almost 6 feet tall, long blonde hair way past her perfect behind that went with the rest of her perfect body. She was the envy of every girl I went to school with. Always had the cutest boyfriends, nicest car and most expensive clothes. What she was doing here? She is with one of her friends that evidentally is not as rich as her in college funds. Her whole college career was given to her.

Money

To my ears dismay I just overheard her telling her friend that
OH MY GOD
She was CHOSEN. SHE WAS CHOSEN AS ONE OF THE 5 TO SPEND THE SUMMER WITH NSYNC.
She's not even excited about it, but I cant keep the tears from taking over so I run back down the steps and
BAM
I run right over LANCE
He flips down the last 4 steps and lands on his butt.
He evidentally was coming up the steps.
Im so dumbfounded that I just burst out crying.
He is stunned but jumps up and grabbs me.

Honey are you ok? Lance says
I I I Oh God Im sorry
I pull loose from both his arms and run out the door.
I hear him calling behind me but I keep running.
 

5

"what da f just happened?"

Pull it together Lisa, Pull it together.
Im setting in my car trying to make sense of what just happened.

Was that really Lance? I ask myself. My God that couldnt have been. Unless he was here with her. Maybe they suprized all the contest winners. Or maybe they was notified earlier?

How on earth did this happen. My GOD I knocked Lance Bass down a flight of stairs.

What have I done to deserve this? Should I go appoligize? Should I try to hide untill this summer is over?

My thinking was disrupted by a knocking on my window. I looked over to it and out of my WORST nightmare was bent over knocking on my door.

JC CHASEZ

Here I am crying hysterically, and JC is at my window.
and he says....

Hey there Im sorry to bother you but...
then he realizes that I was crying,
Hey whats wrong? Are you ok? he says

Jc opens the car door, ordinarilly you wouldnt let a stranger open your door like that but what the hell I was brain dead right?
I was in some serious shock right then but I wanted to play it cool, didnt want him to think i was a teeny bopper or something.

He bends down next to me with the car door open.
He pauses for a long while then says...
Um...I was hoping maybe you had a car jack? But now I kind a see you setting here crying makes me forget about the flat tire.
I smiled at his sweet words, and said finally (i had enough time to recover from the shock)
I was just having a really REALLY bad day.

Is it school? Jc asks
Kinda, but its a longer story than that.

though i wanted to stay there forever i knew i needed to get up and find him a jack.
 

6

"outta my league"

Right before I got out I just looked at him, one good really LONG time.

Then reality took over and I realized that he is SO OUT OF MY LEAGUE. Im only 5'5, not the model type at all. My hair is a little below the ears cut in a bob style. Brown at that. Didnt all famous people go for blondes? Ok that did it, REALITY was REALLY here now so I got up out of the car.

Wow I had even forgetten about knocking poor Lance down the steps. I guess Jc just had a healing effect on me, I was actually smiling at him now. He reached over and patted my shoulder and asked me
Ok now?
Yeah Im fine, you have no idea.
He smiled really big and then started telling me about the rental car he just picked up, how he just noticed that it had a flat. I guess as dumbfounded as he stuck me I completely blanked out on the reason he would be here in the first place. Then it dawned on me, he must be here with LANCE.
 

7

"my chance"

I was standing my ground, this is my big chance.
This is JC here! I cant bail out on HIM! Still I was scared to death Lance was going to come out and I would die on the spot from embarassment.

Jc found the jack in the trunk of my car and we walked over to his rental car a few cars down. After about 10 minutes of watching him work on that, I just wanted to say.....

"Hey Jc um..would you like to go out sometime?"
or "Hey Jc its kind of hot out here would you like to go get some ice cream or something?"

But I was too chicken. Nothing was asked. After he was done He just said thanx alot and hope I get to feeling better. Jc handed me back the jack with a really sweet smile. I was happy at that. So I smiled back at him. I just said no problem it was nice to meet you.

About then, when i was about to walk off Lance and Jennie popped around the front of the car. My face turned completely red with embarassment.

Then Jennie had to top it off by opening her big mouth.
"Lisa I see you couldnt stay away from Jc even though you was NOT picked"
Jc turned to me and his mouth dropped open.

I didnt know what to say, that was bad enough so I just looked at Jc and said
Like i said it was nice to meet you, im glad i was able to help you out.

He walked me back to the car.
"Im really sorry about that girl, I dont know how Im going to make it for a whole summer with a bitch like that". "

Believe me its Ok! Im used to her !

"There's no excuse for somebody acting like that" Jc said as he was looking downward. Then he looked me right in the eyes with his soft blue......ahhh unforgettable eyes.

Reality hurts sometimes...I knew I needed to say goodbye but damnit i didnt want to! IT really didnt seem like he was in a real big hurry to leave n e way ! Finally I said "Well Jc it was really nice talking to you" He smiled so sweetly and said "Yeah! It was for me too!" He opened the car door and I smiled and said "Thanks" Then he said with a really sweet smile " I sure wish you would have won." I laughed and said "Jc you have NO Idea!"

He just winked as he reached into the car to touch my hand to say. "Ill be seeing you around"

8

"insomniac"

I couldnt sleep that night at all. I couldnt think of anything but Jc and his incredible smile. How he touched my hand. The way he smelled...everything about him. I had rushed home to fill in my mom on everything, my heart was hurting from the excitement. I had about 2 more hours to try to get some sleep before I had to get up for work. Working at the mall wasnt exactly my mom's cup of tea but for me, for now it was ok! I was saving for my education. That mall job would help my single mother out alot with the costs of college. I decided to get up and start Informing my online diary of the days events. What was more important? Remembering today or my job? Ok I guess Jc won out because I wasnt about to get back in bed now. But first I went to the dresser and opened up my Nsync drawer. Got out a magazine and ripped out the latest poster I had of Jc. I cut it just perfect in the shape of a heart around his perfect face and shoulders. I just figured hey! If Im writin about him i need his face to stare into. I taped it onto the corner of the laptop screen. I wrote about him for a long time. Thought about him even longer. Then I went on back to bed where I realized. It was hopeless...I may never sleep again.

9

"taking orders"

I went into work the next morning at 10 to 9am. I couldnt hardly even find a place to park it was so packed. Girls with Nsync signs was everywhere. What the hell was going on? I got out and asked a pack of girls what was up. They told me the radio broadcast a suprize visit from Nsync sometime today at the mall. I started onto work....placing my lil hardees cap on as I went thinking...Damn I bet we are going to be busy today. I bet I look like a freak with no sleep last night too...I was still pretty high though from the excitement of yesterday and today. Jc made my life yesterday ! I couldnt even begin to process the chance of seeing Jc again today...Work went by fast, noon rolled around. Suddenly the place was roaring with piercing screams. A Jc here a Justin in that direction even in the restarant everywhere people was screaming out the guys names. The must be here I thought. It completely overwhelmed me. I wanted to run out like everybody else did but I couldnt. My friend Gracie came over to the register and said. "I know how you feel Lis" I wish to God we both could go out there". I just looked at her and said "After work my God I have to tell you something". "Are you pregnaut?" she gasped. NO! NO of course not I laughed! Its about last night! I exclaimed! By then we was working again. Every few seconds you could hear the crowd roar. I was counting the minutes to my lunch break and praying they would still be here when I got it. Bits and pieces of what was going on was in the conversations of our customers. Nsync was evidently in the record store signing autographs and talking on the radio.....and i was here taking orders.