POETRY 2
Okies. This is my older stuff (or newer stuff I took off the other page :P).Enjoy!
Wish
I fear that my wish may come true.
What will I do if it really comes to be?
I don't want to see the results of my actions.
All this pent up fury inside of me, just keeps growing.
The bottle seems like it's going to burst.
But no matter the outcome it must be let out.
Just push me.
Wings
I want to know what it would be like to fly.
To be able to soar up above the trees.
With giant wings that spread from my back,
Take off from this land and never come back.
Soar up in the sky with all the birds,
Then rise even further and take a nap on the clouds.
All I want to do is fly,
So please just let me die.
Rain
I love the feeling of a cold rain coming from above.
The drops slowly soak my clothes,
Until I am frozen to the bone from the chill.
The tears of the world fall upon me,
As I gaze up at the darkening sky.
Even though I am cold from all the tears,
I know in my heart this is where I belong.
When the raindrops fall upon my face I begin to smile.
I walk through the rain free of my life's problems.
If someone ever asks you the question:
Which would you prefer?
Dance in the rain? Or feel no pain?
I would chose to dance in the rain.
Late-Nite Gaze
The allure of the moon is immense.
It glares down upon the land with a passionate fury.
Sometimes the moon tries to hide its power,
Dancing around behind the clouds.
At other times it releases all of its love upon us,
Slowly flitering to the ground through the branches and leaves.
Gazing up at the moon at night,
Fills the imagination with thoughts of love and passion.
The moon has control of both the soul and the heart during these times.
When sleeping under the moon with your love,
The night will seem to last forever.
All because of the mystical power the moon holds.
My storm
As my vision becomes blurry from the storm,
The future becomes unclear.
Sometimes the storm is relentless,
Pounding with torrents of rain and wind.
Other times it is just a light drizzle,
Just the way I want it to be.
But then sometimes even the storm seems lost,
Trying to find its way among the clouds.
I feel sorry for the storm,
Hoping one day it will find its path,
The path that coinsides with mine.
Past to Present
Once I was part of the present.
Now the times have changed.
All I am now is part of your past,
Unable to escape.
I want to be part of your present again,
But this choice is not mine to make.
All I need is a calling, a cry.
If that is ever to happen, I will be ready.
But for now I will forever be a part of your past.
Love Dreamer
Sitting out in the cold
Bare feet sunk in the dew covered grass
Darkness consumes the land
The moon weaves in and out of the clouds
The wind rustles the hair
A chill runs through the spine
The mind is clear
All that is needed
Is what can never be had
The heart is torn, soul is weak
All that is needed
Is for someone to love me
Love me for who I really am
Mixed Signals
Confusion and doubt still fill my bewildered mind.
I don't know what to make of it half the time.
Even when I am trying everything to find,
What my brain wants to try to say this time.
Nothing ever seems to make any sense at all.
From all this thinking my brain is starting to ache,
Just as from all the pressure my heart is beginning to to break.
What I want now is some answers,
To fix my tired brain and my broken heart.
Bang
The cycle still continues.
Another generation will be lost
To all the shit they couldn't deal with.
The world gets darker,
When the sun rises on each new generation.
All that is left is death and despair.
But that is fine with me.
Let us end it all right now.
Bang!!!
Memory
The confusion just continues to grow.
Understanding the situation is too hard to grasp.
It's worse than the first, but it's more than that.
This is different than before, it feels more real.
Fixing the problem isn't easy, my mind freezes when the situation arises.
There is no escape from this...
I don't know how to cope this time...
The memory starts to fade...
Replaced by one even more difficult to handle.
Why This?
Why does it seem that all I need in this world,
Is what I can never have?
It seems the only reason I am here on this earth is to suffer.
The pain,the fear, the hopelessness,
Of suffering this torture alone.
The scars formed will forever be a part of me.
Harder to trust, harder to feel,
Harder to move on, harder to live.
The cycle continues on...
Each time worse than the last.
Kindle
Two weakening flames alone in the wind,
Find eachother when everything seems lost.
The flames kindle together,feeding off of each other.
The fusion is complete, the two burning brightly as one.
Then break away from one another,
Burning more strongly than ever before alone.
The connection has been found,
But the affects are still unknown.
Only knowing what happened to itself,
Not what happened to the other...
Moment in Time
The anticipation is intense,
Of what is to come.
The truth has not yet been revealed.
It sits in waiting for that perfect moment in time.
That moment is still the elusive one,
As if not wanting to be found.
The truth will have its repercussions on the future,
But that has been accepted as a small price to pay for the truth.
Nothing will remain the same afterwards.
All that is known is that the future is uncertain.
Everything rests on this one moment in time...
All Because
Memories releasing
Thoughts unbearable
Tears neverending
Fears punishing
Hatred rising
Ideas uncontrollable
Heartbeat racing
Dreams sinful
All becuase of the word called love
Enough!
I can't take this anymore!
This feeling is driving me to insanity.
I have no way to win this fight.
The more I care the more it hurts.
It burns deeper inside of me,
Ripping my heart in two.
But without this torture I wouldn't be here.
Is this agonizing pain worth the price of living?
Stain
I can't make these painful feelings go away.
Even though I sometimes want the feelings to stay.
No matter what I try to do they will always remain.
They have become a permanent part of me, a stain.
I have thought these feelings might kill me,
And sometimes I wish that would come to be.
I wonder what other feelings are out there that I can find?
As long as these feelings I have now don't fade from my mind.
Feel
My body has become so numb from all the pain.
I want to feel my emotions again.
Without them, I don't see a reason to go on.
Isn't feeling pain better than not feeling at all?
This feeling of nothingness consumes me.
I need to be taught how to feel, to trust again.
I need someone to help.
Will you help me?
Falling
How much further can I possibly fall?
There has to be a bottom to this hole.
It seems as though I have been falling for eternity.
All of this seems like a dream now.
Is all of this real? My reality?
Will I know the truth before I hit the bottom?
Is there any way to slow thia descent?
How much further can I fall?
Change
The pressure is growing
The door is closing
The time I have left is shrinking
My confidence is weakening
My chances are fading
My life is changing
For better or for worse
Sleep
My mind is at ease,
But my thoughts are racing.
The thoughts go faster and faster,
Until it is all a blur.
I try to grab an image in my head,
It slips through my fingers.
I close to eyes and focus.
Slowly my thoughts collect.
Image by image they become clearer.
Over an hour has passed.
My eyes hurt from the strain.
I open my eyes, my thoughts speed up again...
Untitled
Endlessly drifting through the sorrows of time,
Your mind wanders through your forgotten memories.
You try to lock away the pain and despair of earlier days,
But the memories cannot be locked up for long.
They return when you least want them to...
Stronger than ever before.
Taking all your strength you push them aside,
Trying your best to lock it away again.
But it won't be good enough...
Confront the memory, your fear...
Or you will never win the war.
Hopeless Realization
Tears are running, dripping
Into a pool in my cupped hands as I cover my face.
These thoughts flood my mind,
washing everything else away.
Fears running through my head, tearing me down.
The pain will not subside, only grow inside my heart.
Never shall we meet,
Which makes me long for it so much more.
Even with all this pain,
I wouldn't want it any other way.
Together
I will do everything to make it happen.
Whatever the price...I will pay it.
It is always better to try and fail...
Than the not try at all.
Even if we can't be together,
I will be there to catch you if you fall.
You will always have a place in my heart.
I will wait for you...
Forever if that is what it takes.
If you ever need me, I'll be by your side.
I will do anything for you.
Even if we aren't meant to be.
Broken
Feeling like I don't deserve any amount of your love,
I should be the one to to be broken.
Will you break me?
You can tear my heart apart into pieces.
The sooner you do, the more I can give you.
The faster you make me fall,
The easier it will be for me to give you my all.
It needs to end now, one way or another.
Will you break me?
Untitled
Days come and go...
Things slowly begin to change.
Little by little they take shape,
Until the final form is revealed.
The mind matured, reflecting on it's mistakes.
Feelings have settled, willing to be pushed aside.
Heart has healed again, ready to give even more...
It's different now, yet it's even more the same.
No mistake will be made this time.
Too much is at risk.
Either the bond will strengthen...or it will break.
I won't let it break.
Untitled
Rip me up
Tear me apart
Make me a part of you
Use me to heal your wounds
Your needs will become my own
Let our hearts beat in rhyme
We can just drift through time
Together