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Geoff Moore & the Distance
If You Could
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“John, what are you doing?” she asked hoarsely.
Jing Mei finally managed to bring herself to speak.
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John felt the dampness of the park grass seep into his jeans as he knelt before her. “Deb, I love you,” he blurted out. “I want you to marry me.”
John once again felt his heart pounding against his
chest.
She had to say yes.
She just had to.
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Never before had Jing Mei felt such a cacophony of
mixed emotions flooding her mind and heart.
‘Yes!’ was her first
reaction, but something had held her back.
Jing Mei had never felt this way about another person
in her life. She thought she might
actually die if John ever left her now.
They had been dating for almost 10 months now. It had been the longest relationship either one of them had ever
sustained. And each day Jing Mei fell
deeper and deeper in love with this man.
How could she have allowed herself to get so deep, so
fast?
Jing Mei shook her head. There was a list of reasons she had compiled in her head of why
she loved this man. His eyes, his
crooked smile; these were just a few of the reasons. John loved people, he loved helping them and he tore himself up
daily over some of the patients. There
were a hundred more reasons why she loved him and Jing Mei wanted to John all
of them.
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John stared at his beautiful and speechless
girlfriend. Girlfriend. He’d never liked the word. She’d always been his girl-friend. But now, Deb was much more to him. John hadn’t quite prepared to propose to
her, but as they walked through the dimly lit park, the stars shining brightly
above them, John had an epiphany.
John had been thinking about Deb during the past few
weeks, not that he didn’t already. But
much more, now that Mark had died.
Their former colleague succumbed to his cancer two weeks earlier. It had devastated the employees of County
General. John and Deb had managed to
get away for the burial.
As he watched Dr. Corday crumble before his eyes,
John began to reevaluate how he lived his life. John realized life was too short to waste precious moments
together, of being together. He
wanted Deb to know how much he loved her.
To this night, John still felt Deb had this nagging
feeling it was just one of his hit-and-run romances, even after 10
months.
“Deb, say something,” he laughed worriedly. John stood up to look her straight in the
eye. “Or…did I just get my answer?”