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If I Have Not Love

 

 

Part Five

 

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 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily

angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

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“John!” Jing Mei called from the admin desk.

 

He had just been heading to the staff lounge.  John had noticed her, but didn’t know if after last night, she’d want to see him.  “Yeah?”

 

Jing Mei put away a chart before walking over from the admin desk.  “I just wanted to, um,” she paused, looking at the staring nurses.  “Uh, can we go into the lounge for a minute.”

 

John nodded.  “Sure.”  He’d hoped she’d calmed down from last night.  John hated leaving it the way they did, but there wasn’t really much he could do, short of climbing the oak tree that stood in front of her apartment.

 

Jing Mei stood in front of him with her hands in her lab coat.  “John, I just want to apologize for last night.  I shouldn’t have snapped at you like that.”

 

John unwrapped the scarf that hung around his neck and slipped off his wool jacket.  “It’s all right Deb.  I mean, I shouldn’t have said what I did.”

 

She shook her head adamantly.  “No you were right.  I haven’t been myself lately.  I second guess myself.”

 

John watched her sink into the couch that rested against the wall.  “Deb, look, you’ve been through a lot these couple of months.  I mean, I don’t expect you to jump back on your feet right away.”

 

Jing Mei looked up at him, “It’s just…it’s just I don’t want to make another mistake John.  I can’t make another mistake.”

 

“Look Deb, you made them.  You faced them and now you’re going to move on.  You are a great doctor.  This is a start of a new day.  You can’t help the things you cannot change, and you change the things you can.  That’s something I learned in AA.”

 

Jing Mei got up and gave him a peck on the cheek.  “When did you get so smart?”

 

He smiled.  “The day I met you,” he chuckled.

 

She winked at him and walked out of the staff room.

 

 

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 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

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Jing Mei walked out of the lounge light-hearted.  John’s comments from the night before had stuck to her.  It wouldn’t allow her a good night’s sleep.  Finally she admitted to herself that she was weak.  That she was scared of making another mistake.

 

She made herself promise to apologize to Carter, and with that promise, Jing Mei finally fell asleep.

 

“Jing Mei!” Keri yelled.  “What are you ordering another battery of tests for?”

 

Jing Mei rolled her eyes.  “The other set wasn’t conclusive enough.  So I sent up another batch of blood to be worked up.”

 

“What do you think we’re made of Chen?  Money?  You work with the set of labs you get.  They aren’t going to be any different,” Keri barked.

 

Jing Mei couldn’t say anything and walked away.  Had she opened her mouth, Jing Mei knew that she would regret what would come out of it.  She, instead, headed to exam 2.  10-yr old boy, chest pains, inability to breathe.

 

As she opened the curtain, Jing Mei gazed upon a chestnut brown-haired boy.  He was already in a gown and was lying fitfully on the bed.  Beside him was a young mother, no more than 27.  She had bags under her eyes and she sat beside her son with his coat on her lap.  “Excuse me,” Jing Mei interrupted the quiet scene.  “I’m Dr. Chen.”

 

The mother arose from her seat and greeted the doctor.  “Hi, I’m Jean,” the mother introduced herself.

 

Jing Mei went to the bed and checked the boy’s pupils and ears.  She looked at the chart once more and shook the boy once.  “Ryan?  Ryan, I’m Dr. Chen,” she said softly to the sleepy-eyed boy.  “Can you open your mouth for me so I can check your throat for you?”

 

Ryan nodded.

 

After examining the boy, Jing Mei explained to the mother that it was probably bronchitis and handed her a prescription for some anti-inflammatories.  “I hope you feel better Ryan.”

 

Jing Mei smiled at the boy who slowly climbed out of the bed to get dressed.  She closed the curtains around the boy and mother, for privacy.

 

“Deb,” John called, as he fell in step with Jing Mei walking down the hallway.  “I heard Weaver reamed you out?”

 

She rolled her eyes at the memory.  “Yeah,” Jing Mei nodded.  “Tell me why you like her again?”

 

John shrugged.  “Did you want to catch a late supper again tonight?”

 

Jing Mei paused in the hallway to look at Carter.  “Why?  What did I do to deserve such special treatment?”

 

“I thought we’d celebrate a new day for the both of us.”  He winked as he walked away.  “And I’m taking you to a nice restaurant this time!” he yelled from down the corridor.

 

Jing Mei smiled and walked to her next patient.

 

 

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