Loving Destiny

 

Disclaimer:  These characters do not belong to me, but to the writers and producers of Roswell

Spoilers:  After Chant Down Babylon, changes happening where Max is successfully rescued, and Michael was the one who broke up with Maria.

Pairings:  You’ll have to wait and see!

Pronunciation Guide: Pela (Pe –lah)

                                        Nuha (New – ha)

Author’s notes:    Queen Fadilia Kedar: Max/Isabel’s mother

                                        King Alaric Kedar: Max/Isabel’s father

                                        Andaria: Tess’ mother

                                        Radim:  Tess’ father

                              Kedrans: race from which Royal Four descended

                                        Iturians: race from which Khivar descended, and overthrew and killed Zan and the Kedrans

                                        Cerideans:  special core ops of the Iturian army, mostly psyonics and telepaths

                                        Kaptar’s Jewel:  constellation in the Antarian’s star system

                                        Yun’s Garment:  Aurora Borealis - Northern Lights

                              Saren Dari:  desert plain on Antar

                                        dashka :  good luck charm

                                        elkarl :  Iturian hand weapon

                                        capaechea:  long haired woolly creature, with long flanks and a large hump on its back

                              kii:  location where various endangered animals are kept for protection

                                        Mount Freiweils: location of Loyalist secret base

                                        Tir Lamar:  sister city to Eshtari

                                        kashkar: slur, equivalent to witch

                                        plascer:  plasma weapons, compact, length of your hand

 

Chapter Sixty Six

 

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Perils, and misfortunes, and want, and pain, and injury, are more or less the certain lot of every man that cometh into the world.  It behooveth thee, therefore, O child of calamity! Early to fortify thy mind with courage and patience, that though mayest support, with a becoming resolution, thy allotted portion of human evil.

                                                                                                      - Akhenaton

***

 

The beginning of the new day couldn't come soon enough.

 

Michael slowly and knowingly exacted the learned stances, which had come to him so recently, since his return, in the training centre.  It was early in the morning, no one had awakened yet, and he needed a release.  The precision needed for each move and position seemed to relax his muscles rather than tense them.  As he selected a reflective atmosphere, transmitted by the alien technology, which was able to transform the stale musky room into a fully mirrored room.  From every angle he could see the way his muscles worked, contracted and released; this allowed him to correct himself.

 

Breathe.  Michael closed his eyes and pictured each move in his mind and almost dance-like, he began moving to the inaudible beat playing through his mind.  One. Two.  Strike.  He opened his eyes and he saw the image of himself reflected in the mirrors around him.    His right arm was outstretched, with the staff like an extension of his arm, with the other firmly glued to his side.  A slow drip of perspiration trickled down his forehead and down the bridge of his nose.

 

Suddenly he heard clapping.

 

"Brilliant."

 

Michael head snapped around to face the slight glow, which emanated from the opened entrance at the far right corner of the training room.  Standing silently, with her hands gently folded in front of her, was Fadilia.  She seemed out of place in the dimly lit room, which held the essence of a feral, almost primal-like atmosphere; but yet she also seemed at ease in this place of her former regaled soldiers, who had fought for her heart, mind and soul.  "Thank you," he breathed heavily. 

 

Michael dropped his staff arm and bowed slowly towards the Queen Mother.

 

"You are very beautiful when you are doing the 'Stances'."  Fadilia slowly approached the elevated stage.  "You remind me of...well, you.  Of course, that was when you were Rath," she said softly.  "You were so beautiful when you performed those stances as a child."

 

"Really?" Michael mopped his brow and sat down on the elevated stage, which only gave him a slight height advantage, causing him to look down on her.  "I don't remember that far back."

 

"Yes."  Fadilia's eyes sparkled even under the low track lighting. "You were a very energetic child; unfocused to say the least, but somehow the stances always seemed to bring you back to the centre of things.  It was a very beautiful thing."

 

Michael smirked.  It was hard even to imagine childhood back on Antar, even with his memories back.  There had been no time.  So much had been coming at him.  I guess that's why I'm here.

 

"Michael, General Steren has given orders to mobilize."

 

Michael frowned.  "What?"

 

"The Festival will be begin at dusk, tonight."  Fadilia took one more step forward, until all Michael could see were her crystal blue eyes that seemed to make the entire room disappear for the beauty of them.

 

"Why wasn't I informed?"

 

"I spoke to General Steren," she replied gently, placing a hand upon his knee.  "And told him to allow me to speak to you."

 

"Why?" Michael frowned.  "Is there something else you wanted to talk to me about?"

 

"I just want you and Tess to know that I understand the intensity of everything happening to you," she breathed, patting his knee.  "And how I want you to know that I am here for you, just as I said I would be."  Her eyes searched his for a measurement of understanding...comprehension.

 

Michael lowered his eyes and wrapped his towel around his neck.  "Thank you, Your Majesty..."

 

"Fadilia."

 

His eyes rose to meet hers.  "Fadilia."  He exhaled slowly.  "I'm grateful for that."

 

"But..."  The elderly Antarian, whose appearance spoke nothing of her age, smiled knowingly.

 

Michael pushed away from Fadilia and stood up on the stage.  He collected his tunic, which he had disrobed during his workout when it became more intense, and hopped down from the stage alongside Fadilia.  "I just..."  Michael searched for the words to express the isolation he had lived in for so long.  Even though he had connections to people, there would always be that wall he had built around himself to protect that part of him no one was supposed to have access to anymore - not since his foster parents took the care to quash that ability, inherent to any child, to open himself to love and vulnerability.  "There's so much..."  He stumbled again for the words.  Michael wished he could let her in, but he just couldn't push through that barrier.  It was like he was looking at her through a glass pane.

 

Then, as if understanding his inability to open that door, Michael felt cool fingers slip through his and her palm touch his.  He glanced over to see Fadilia looking straight ahead, as they both strode slowly towards the exit, and he felt a calmness over him.  In the silence she spoke volumes.  She knew he desired to let her in and right now that would be enough.

 

~ * ~

 

"We're leaving in a half an hour," Michael informed Tess, who had just appeared in the stratagem room.  General Steren had briefed him and Fadilia of their plans for that early morning.  They had sent word for Tess, but she could not be found and there was no time to dawdle.  Michael assured General Steren that he would brief Tess, and that he should prepare the remaining troops.  The wives, mothers, and small children were slowly being transferred to a secure cave basin; on the off chance Khivar's men ever entered the inner sanctum of the base.

 

Tess furrowed her brow and shook her head in confusion.  "When was this decided?"  She had disappeared within the dark, winding passages of the mountain in an attempt to find some solace and quiet.  After snapping at Michael, Tess knew that she needed some air.

 

"Since we got word that a large fleet of royal ships has been spotted traversing to and from Saren Dari.

 

"Do we know why?"

 

Michael shrugged; he began walking towards his quarters to change out of his workout clothes.  "Does it matter?"  He glanced down at Tess, who seemed lost in her thoughts.  "The move on Eshtari has been planned for several days.  The only question was the timing."

 

"It doesn't matter?"  Tess frowned; staring up at the one person whom she had found she could depend upon when tough times came.  "Do you remember the mission we just returned from?"  Stopping in the middle of the hallway, which slowed Michael's stride, she confronted him on his strange behavior.  "It was a near catastrophe!"

 

"That's a little melodramatic."  He sighed, not wanting to deal with Tess' sudden interest in the details.  "You were never one for plans Tess, why now?"  Michael knew the more time they spent on this discussion, which in the end would still result in the deployment of their troops, the less time they had to prepare en route.

 

"That was when we were on earth, Michael."  Things had been simpler back then; however, this confrontation with Khivar would have lasting consequences on their people.  If it didn't succeed, Antar stood no chance of freeing itself from Khivar.  "We've got a lot more people to think about now," she hissed, lowing her voice as a small boy and an older woman passed by.

 

Michael studied the petite figure before him; her clear, blue eyes focused, and questioning him.  Tess was like the prize in a Crackerjacks box - you just never knew what you'd get.  He saw a strong, determined woman before him; while only hours ago, she was broken and cold.  Just never knew what to expect...

 

"Michael."  Tess snapped her fingers in front of his blank expression.  "What are the odds of us taking the palace?" she asked, wanting more than mumbled assurances.

 

"60-40 odds."

 

Tess felt a glimmer of hope.

 

"To fail."

 

"What?"  Tess heard her voice almost screech at the announcement.  "What do you mean, 'to fail'?"  Her eyes bore into his, urging him to tell her that she had heard him wrong.

 

"Look," he growled, unhappy at her less-than-discreet reaction.  "We don't have time for your questions."

 

"I think this is a great time for them," Tess exclaimed, her eyes widening in disbelief.  How else was she supposed to react?

 

Michael grabbed her by the shoulders and pulled her to the side, as several uniformed soldiers jogged by, saluting the Queen.  "Tess, General Steren thinks this is the last chance we'll have to take the palace."  He let go of Tess when she began to wriggle under his tight grip.  "With the large contingent of soldiers out of the palace, we have a better chance to form a stronghold outside the compound.  Then we'll have the opportunity to lay siege to the palace and hold up whatever Khivar is shipping from Saren Dari - my guess Project Pilan."

 

"We don't have the men for this!"  Tess began to pace in the empty corridor.  "They're all a few hundred feet from this base, trying to deflect attention away from Mount Freiweils."  Her gut instinct had been to trust General Steren from the day she had been introduced, but this made no sense.  Their defensive contingent was stretched to the max.  They couldn't last even at this rate.

 

If they had all Four...

 

"We can't pretend Max is coming to rescue us with one of his slow, but all too brilliant plans," Michael scoffed.  "He isn't here to make everything better."

 

It was as if he had read her mind...

 

"God knows what has happened to Isabel and Max..."  He turned away, trying to hide the pained expression that contorted his face every time the thought filled his head.

 

"Michael."  She stopped her pacing and met the restless teenager's clouded gaze.  "We're just going to weaken ourselves on both fronts."  If they took men from their defensive post to strengthen their offensive battalion, they would be practically giving the Iturians their base; meanwhile, they would only gain an additional ten to thirty men...at the most.  It would be like throwing stones at a giant.

 

"Well prepare yourself for it, Tess," Michael stated, waving his hand across the code pad that allowed him access to his quarters.  "We may be the underdogs, but it's going to be one hell of a fight."  He rolled his shoulders back and stared down at Tess' anxious face.  "You know this is the right thing.  We have no other choice, not when Khivar's planning his Coronation when Pela eclipses."

 

"So it is tonight?"  Tess knew the day was coming, but it seemed to arrive sooner than she imagined.  The previous night had been one uneasy and restless night.  When she had awaken before the dawn, Tess walked the corridors of Mount Freiweils to rid herself of it; but now, it seemed to settle upon her and it all seemed to form a semblance of logic or reason.

 

"Yes."  Michael remembered the last New Moons Festival he had attended.  The entire city had been alight with candles, phosphorous lanterns, hydrogen lights.  It had been a spectacular sight.

 

Tess nodded.  She knew there was no more delay in the inevitable.  Everything would come to a head tonight.  Either they would free Antar from Khivar's growing insanity or once again die trying.  Swallowing hard, Tess glanced over her shoulder and steeled herself for the looming momentous event.  "I'll go get ready."

 

Without thinking Michael reached out and grabbed Tess by the arm.  "Tess."  He didn't know why he did it.  "We've got to believe good wins, right?"

 

Slowly Tess turned her head, glancing up at Michael through hooded eyes.  "You've been listening to Fadilia too much," she chuckled softly; her voice was tinged with an unexplained sadness.

 

"Tess."  Michael squeezed her arm.  "It always seems to work in the movies."  He smiled half-heartedly.  He couldn't even laugh at his own lame attempt to lighten the mood.

 

Tess closed her eyes and refused to allow the sense of doom that lay ahead for them to overwhelm her yet.  She shook her head and raised her eyes to meet the dark steady gaze of her friend.  Only he understood the weight that sat upon her shoulders right at this moment.  "Never say die, right?"

 

Michael smirked.  "Yeah."

 

~~~

 

"Retreat into the base."  General Steren gave the ordered through the comlink, which was his only connection to Lieutenant Nuha of the 92nd Battalion, his own second in command, which he had sent out in aid to Captains Kelsar and Dermot, who were slowly besieged.  Nuha had led the charge against the unsuspecting Iturian army in the Forests of Zillah.

 

"Sir?"  A scratchy, distorted voice sounded over the speakers within the hollowed assembly hall.  General Steren had surveyed the ongoing battle outside their mountainous facade; it was not going well.  Decidedly so, that taking a few of the soldiers from their already diverse group of trained and untrained Antarians, thrown together as a brigade, would end in more deaths than he would like. 

 

"I said fall back."  General Steren lifted his finger from the smooth black transmission button on his comlink.  He closed his eyes. 

 

Please let this be the right thing to do.

 

~~~

 

"Have we received any word from Bel Maar or Ai?" Fadilia clasped her hands as she paced back and forth in the communications centre.  The hollow, grey room was empty save two Antarians - one, who would refuse to leave her side and the other, whom she had requested to remain.  "What about Jakar?"

 

"Your Highness, no one is responding.  There is static on either side of the moons.  The solar flares which occur before the eclipse have cut off any communication to even our closest planetary allies," a young officer answered.

 

Fadilia glanced over her shoulder and watched as the soldier, who had been unusually ordered to remain within the residential grounds, instead of assembling with the other Antarians, deftly pushed and prodded the numerous technological keys and instruments to will an answer for her.  "Private Quirinius," she said, returning her gaze upon the empty black holoscreen.  "I need you to show me the Forests of Zillah."

 

"Your Highness," a soft feminine voice urged.  "We must secure you below."

 

Fadilia's gaze remained fixed upon the once empty space above the circular console, which was now clouding with a fine mist.  "Emine, I will remain above ground."  Her tone was adamant, as the shadowed outlines of trees and other brush began to form in front of her eyes, hovering as a translucent movie over the console.  She immediately felt her heart seize. Fadilia watched groups of men and women slaughtered before her eyes, but that was not all she witnessed; it was the slaying of infants, children she had watched grow up into talented and beautiful young men and women - husbands and wives.

 

Her vision blurred; she leaned her body against the console.

 

"Your Majesty," Emine gasped worriedly.

 

Fadilia felt the young woman's hands slide under her arms, supporting her body, as she stumbled backwards.  "I'm all right," she whispered reassuringly, closing her eyes to the silent images flashing before her.

 

"Your Highness?"  Quirinius frowned.  "Should we not be evacuating the main floor of the grounds?"

 

Fadilia turned around with Emine standing watchfully by her side and gazed steadily toward the youth.  "I will not leave the Inner Sanctum unguarded," she said determinedly.  "With our troops retreating and preparing for an assault elsewhere, there will be no one here to oversee the fluid transition of our people to the Basin, and the long-awaited return of my son and daughter."  Spinning around, she once again watched as her people quickly and effortlessly disappeared into the maze of brown and green foliage.

 

Over the decade, the hunted and persecuted Antarians had familiarized themselves with the mountainous range, which they had come to call home.  The Forest had been a playground for the children born within Mount Freiweils caves; and now it had turned into a battlefield.  And as they now retreated into its thick and lustrous walls, Fadilia could only anxiously watch, waiting to hear someone announce that they had returned to safety.

 

"Show me the corridors," she commanded, wanting a break from the mounting anxiety, as the Iturian army gave chase to her people.  "I need to know how the evacuation is running."  Because the Assembly Hall had been designated the mobilization area for the Loyalist Army, since it was the only room large enough to hold the entire contingent of soldiers, the evacuation of mothers and children, elderly and disabled had been a slow process, with the soldiers overcrowding the already flooded corridors in an attempt to reach the Hall.

 

"On screen now, Your Highness."

 

The corridors were definitely crowded.  General Steren had left behind a few soldiers, dispersed throughout the corridors to guide the masses towards the Basin.  They were not exactly warranted as she and General Steren always made it a priority to have a drill once a year, so if any unexpected attack or invasion by Khivar's army threatened their safety, there would be an automatic protocol to abide by.

 

"Your Highness?"

 

"Yes, Quirinius."

 

"General Steren is sending a transmission from the Hall."

 

Fadilia inhaled deeply and nodded.  "Transmit."  She silently awaited the familiar voice.  Glancing at the chronometer glowing upon the console.  The large contingent of soldiers would soon be moving on Eshtari.   

 

"Your Highness, we have sealed all possible entrances to the Inner Sanctum." 

 

Fadilia glanced up at the terror-filled faces of her people as they filed into various level transports positioned in different wings of the residential living areas.  The youth were ordered to use the tunnel paths, which were easier for them to maneuver down than the elderly.  Before entering into the transports and the natural passageways to the Basin, the soldiers were positioned to check for identification bracelets; this allowed the leaders, which she and General Steren had appointed, to quickly identify any missing people from the community.  "Have all of our people returned safely?"  Fadilia couldn't imagine leaving any of their men or women alone to face the harsh torture Khivar's men would inflict on them.

 

There was a brief static hum over the speakers as she waited for General Steren's response.

 

"We cannot be certain of that, Your Highness."

 

Fadilia curled her fingers into a tight fist, as her stomach churned at the expected reply.  "Do they have safe havens they can fortify themselves in?"

 

"They have been briefed on the protocol, if they should not reach the Inner Sanctum within the allotted timeframe."

 

"Fine."  There was nothing else she could possibly say.  "Will you leave soon?"

 

"We are mobilized and prepared to leave as soon as possible."

 

"Have Michael and Tess arrived yet?"

 

"Not yet."

 

Fadilia nodded silently, as if General Steren could see her response.  Closing her eyes, she clasped Emine's hand tightly in hers; the handmaiden squeezed comfortingly, as silence filled the large room.

 

Oh great Unseen, watch over my people.  Give them speed and alertness.  Fadilia exhaled slowly.  She opened her eyes and looked upon a new image.  Quirinius was now tapped into the Assembly Hall, projecting a holographic transmission of row upon row of uniformed soldiers.  An unexpected feeling of pride filled her heart, and a smile tugged at the corners of her lips.  "Take care my children."

 

~~~

 

Nicholas leaned back comfortably into his cushy chair as he surveyed each of the ongoing skirmishes near Eshtari's borders.  The Loyalists had seemed to amass quite a number of the rural, lower class subjects to join their cause.  He rubbed his upper lip as his mind traveled to the possible locations perfect for a hidden base.  Several had come to mind, but none seemed likely.  What he needed was one of the Kedran traitors.  If he could just get his hands on one of their weak-willed minds, Nicholas would know exactly where the rebels were hiding.

 

A soothing ring echoed in his large quarters, within the palace walls.  Someone was at his door.

 

He made himself at home quite quickly.  The leisure comforts that were afforded the royal guard were anything less than extravagant.  Nicholas closed his eyes and rubbed the weariness that always seemed to seep into his eyes if he stared at the fluorescent screen for prolonged periods of time.  "Come in."  As he spun around in his chair, there before him was Barak, one of his closest comrades - as close as he allowed anyone to be.  "Barak!" he exclaimed in delight.  "You've arrived."

 

"Yes, Commander."  The tall rigid officer saluted the higher-ranking officer.

 

Nicholas pushed himself up from his seat and pursed his lips.  A brilliant idea had just come over him.  "Barak, I need you to do something for me."  Barak stared at him curiously.  "It's not something dangerous," he said dismissively.  "I just need you to aide me in moving along the proposed timeline on our celebration."

 

"Sir?"

 

"Come along," Nicholas said, striding past his confused underling, as he waved for him to follow.  "We're going to give our Highness an early coronation gift."

 

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